Today is my one year anniversary here on MedHelp..It just dawned on me when I seen my screen name. My name is Newgirl, not, Smartgirl ;) At any rate, as I take a quick reflection at the past 365 days, and although I struggle with my demons, I am so very greatful to have found this arena. Before 02-07-08, I had never before this 'chatted' online with anyone. I've never before discussed my issues or addictions with anyone in my life. Somehow, I stumbled here and haven't left. I visit everyday...mostly lurking lately, but sometimes chime in. I have made friendships that I'm sure will last a lifetime. I've never felt so good about a bad thing before and it's all because of you guys, my 'cyber friends' here on MedHelp. What I mean by that is, with this addiction, there is no one in my world that I can confide in or identify with, so with that, I am comforted by all of you here. I have learned so much. Things I never knew about addiction and what part it plays in my life. We all nod in unison when someone says: I can't believe I did that again! or Have you ever? and there's: Yeah!! I did it!! too. Pick one, they all apply.
If I'm on the wagon or under it, monkey on my back or the monkey driving the wagon, doesn't matter, *well it does* but you know what I mean, I know I can count on all of you for support, guidance, opinions and prayer whenever I call.
Thank you for that.
God Bless all of you, no matter where you are on your journey.