so are you clean now or no..???
HI there! I like when you said you are going to turn over every stone in your life and see what else is under there.....bet you will be surprised. Good thoughts going your way in finding your TRUE happiness. : )
Yes I am! I've used a few times since I quit the all day every day routine back in August. I was thinking this past weekend that I was at about 3 weeks with no use. I got my day planner out yesterday and back tracked November. It looks as though today makes 26 days clean. That's pretty good though I've hit 30 to 40 days of sobriety a few times before only to fall short of my goal of going clean forever. I've never been 60 days clean so that's the milestone I'm shooting for before I start patting myself on the back.
I gotta say, being here with you guys sure is making it seem easier this time. Confidence is high!
yep since being clean it is easy to see how those pills cost us alot of things.
i will work on these things with a clear head and everytime i think of a pill i will have to be strong and remember the crap that they caused me.
it is amazing what you see with a clear head. i cant wait til i start work on thursday. this will be the first job i have had in awhile not on pills. i will actually feel like working instead of just showing up and hoping nobody notices that i am not doing anything.
i like you am seeing what those pills have done to my life.
forgive me if i posted twice. i am doing something wrong with my computer and
lol. i have a new computer and i keep hitting the wrong buttons. i will leave this post so i dont cause more chaos.
I know what you mean by hoping nobody notices your not doing anything at work. I had to use a lot of smoke and mirrors and slight of hand this past year in creating the illusion of work.
So about this problem of hitting the wrong keys: Is that what got this moved to a new forum? If so, then see if you can figure out if there is a key sequence that allows time travel. lol We'll go back and slap ourselves silly before this all became a problem.
My only suggestion would be to learn from your mistakes of the past, but not allow them to create a larger sense of guilt and despair which will only make you feel regret and could contribute to increased depression. I often think of the money and opportunities I wasted during my use and it boggles my mind, but then I come to the realization that I can not get these days back, but I can make sure the ones in front of me are better....just my thought.
Congrats on your clean time and ability to think and see things more clearly.
Just checking in to see if you guys got that time travel key stroke figured out. I got some things I gotta fix ...