Hi all,
I just realized that today was 60 days totally absolutely clean from a pretty serious long term oxy habit.....none of course prescribed for me and an unlimited free supply no less. I refused to count days after the first week b/c to me it implied a before and after and I wanted to concentrate on "after" but somehow 60 days seemed like a milestone. I went cold turkey and from what I've read I was very lucky. My withdrawals were no fun but they were short and this PAWS I read about just hasn't developed for me. I've been very neglectful about posting. This was something I just needed to get through myself. It wasn't that I didn't care about everyone but I just needed to shut down, move into my soul and fix it. I'm writing to thank those of you that did reach out to me when I was a newbie and scared. Please keep doing that.
My main thought is that I do agree with beachtowel and sorry beachtowel but sometimes I think you're a bit tough but I respect that too. Opiate withdrawals suck but they won't kill you and unbelievable relief is only 5 days, at the most, 10 days away, then it's day by day. Maybe those days won't be the struggle you anticipate after all.
Please don't take this post as elitist or arrogant. Some of you deal with unbelievable stress and horrible situations and quite frankly I don't know how you do it. I was fortunate not to have those issues ie pain, lack of resources, bad family/home situations in general. Maybe I couldn't have done it under those circumstances. Those that beat it in spite of those things I really admire. My job as a trial lawyer is stressful but it's a good stress b/c I love what I do. I just thought I owed you guys this post b/c I know when people disappear I used to assume they relapsed. I just wanted everyone to know that I made it and to thank you. If I can, you can.....peace.