Trusting the process

[Sparkle Plenty]

Nothing is easy; even life without adding substances.  Nothing is exciting except winning the battle against addiction.  Even going to the supermarket, even if you can afford anything in there is not exciting;even buying good fish.  However, even buying fish is satisfying when you are not a prisoner of the HIGH.  Everyone should read HIGH SOCIETY by Joseph Califano.  If you can't afford a copy, go to your nearest library to find one.  We all have been the guinea pigs of a system that relishes keeping us captive in USING.  Life is not a fix..it is an ongoing process, learning what is essential and what is FOG.  Trust your higher SELF to bring you out of the miserable lower self.
Sorry to seem "preachy", but watching my son emerge from the FOG of addiction gives me a sense of wanting to encourage others to GET OFF of SUBSTANCES that will ultimately end your life.

Sparkle Plenty

[Sparkle Plenty]

Your spirit IS "clean," Tim...and I would like to propose we change that word to FREE.  14days free of the deadening fog that comes with using junk to reach the illusion of feeling good.  Maybe you have related your "story" somewhere on this or the other forum..but if not, and you are comfortable telling it, please do.  Sparkle

[TimH2]

Your son is very blessed to have a mom like you!!! Thanks for letting us see the other side of our addictions and how we hurt the ones we love. I am on day 14 and the struggle to stay clean still continues.

[Sparkle Plenty]

thanks..Tim.  It is so easy to see from the outside in the forces that take over someone else's life.  So how do we go from the inside out?  Spirituality, the sense that there REALLY IS something bigger than the addicted self, can do wonders.  But tell that to someone in the throes of agony when a "fix" is but a mile away.  The courage it takes to deny such a strong craving often takes a miracle.  So those folks who are imbued with Spirit tell us to "expect a miracle."

I was talking with my son today and he said had he not been a Marine and had gone through the Hell of that he probably would not have been able to withstand the agony of Methadone withdrawal.  So does that mean we have to go to "boot camp" to achieve the necessary courage to GET RID OF THE STUFF?  No one knew how hard that would be when they moved an entire generation into Methadone to get rid of other stuff...now they know, but for so many is it too late?  I say NO!

I believe you have to become your own loving mother, even if you never had one.  Mothering is unconditional love, not that every mother understands that principle.  See, there I go again...I just want so much for anyone carrying addiction like a wounded puppy, to let go and let God.

Sparkle Plenty

[TimH2]

You don't sound preachy at all. Your post makes a lot of sense and is helpful to people going through this fight.

Tim