Update on everything...

[hopeless]

As you all know i have been staying with my parents for awhile, due to my dad's cancer condition. Sorry haven't been on that much, but just trying to help them deal with all his issues, and it has been so hard that past few days.

Today, he went for chemo, they started a new kind on him, cause the regular way just wasn't woring anymore. They doubt this will either, but anything is worth a try. If anything, all it will do is delay his death, nothing else! The other day he went for alot of tests, one of them being a brain scan, they had said before that they thought the cancer was in his brain now. So had the tests done and got the results back today, and they were right, it is in his brain. He goes tomorrow to get a port put into his chest, this is where they will start and give him all his medicines through now. Actually, it is for the new kind of chemo they started him on, but will be used for the medicines too.

Over all, the past few days  have been hard on him and all of us. But we are dealing with it the best we know how to.

Then to top all, yesterday i stopped in at my house to grab a few more things, and while i was here i seen a roll back truck pull in, here they came to repo our truck. God, can anything else go wrong in my family's life? Have had just about all i can handle!! The sad part is, we had our truck payments automatically taken out of our account every month this has been set up like this for over a year now, and this is what they have been doing this whole time. Well, with all that has been going on with my family and myself lately i haven't been paying to much attention to our bank accounts. The bank that was taking out our truck payments said they sent me a letter that i needed to sign and send back to them to have it continue to be taking out every month. Guess i never signed it and sent it back, so all along i have been thinking the truck payments have been being made each month until yesterday when they showed up to take it, i called them and asked what was going on, and they said i never returned that form to them so therfore the payments haven't been being made. So they took the damm truck, UNREAL!! I just started crying (again) and flipped out on them! Whatever, i told them to keep the damm thing, dont want it anyway! Really i do, but they ticked me off! Now i can get it back, but they want me to pay all the fees for them taking it, which are over a 1,000.00, OMG they are nutz!!

OK, sorry but needed to vent in a really bad way! Staying at my parents house i have to stay calm and act like all is fine. So thanks for listening, needed to get this off my chest!

As for me - my addiction! I am hanging in there, been hard lately but i am doing it! Still craving BIG time, but guess it is normal!

Hope you are all doing well, and miss you guys alot!

I will try to be on later this evening, my son has a football game tonight, so i will be going to that! Hope to be on here when i get back after the game, sometime around 8 or so...

Thinking of you all,
Love, Hope

[grievingwidow]

Just wanted to say that I know what you and your family are going through right now.  My kids lost their dad when he was only 48 - my youngest was 12 at the time.  They loved him so much and are still heartbroken to this day, nearly five years later.  It just does not make sense why the scum of the world mostly keep on trucking destroying innocent lives when the good people are taken from us, and even made to suffer.  So sorry Hope, I can especially identify with your poor mother.  She will be lost without your dad - I know.  Thank God you live close by.  It would help me so much if just one of my kids lived in the same town with me.

Love, Cindy

[hopeless]

Thank you Tim, I am so sorry you are having a bad day today. My prayers are with you also. I sent you an email a little while ago. I wish there was something i could do to help you, i feel just awful! Just know, like you told me it WILL get better! I am here if you need anything, ok?


Ionote, Thank you too! Your words mean alot to me, and i am so ready for the pot of gold! You are a good woman, and mean alot to me...

Love you both!!
Hope

[lonote]

I agree she deserves something good to come her way, It may be a while with her dad so sick but when it comes her way it will be wonderful, She has to get past some hurdles, but there a pot of gold that awaites Hope at the end of the rainbow. You both are in my prayers.

[TimH2]

I am so sorry you are going through this and you know that my prayers go out to you. It is going to get better, it has to. It is hard for me to post right now, but I wanted to give you a hug and kiss. Life is so unfair at times. May something wonderful happen for you.

Love to ya sis,
Tim

((((((((((Hope))))))))))))))

[road2recovery]

I am so sorry to hear that...so much at one time for anyone to deal with...Stay strong...Things will get better..
Praying for you and your family
r2r

[debsally]

wow.  You are totally in my prayers.  I thought I had it bad.  I know though that we all have really hard times sometimes but they don't last forever.  I hope you hard times are over really soon.  I am sorry for all the mass quantities of things you have to deal with.  Stay strong and know that we are all thinking of you.

love always,

Debbie