VERY....LOL! I blame it on my 2 am friends!! I blame everything on ya'll!! LMAO
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YES, YES YOU WERE Ms ROSY
Lol, I'm okay rosy. Mornings just suck in general for me. I also get my cravings in the mornings. But, I'm good. Day 18, can't complain. How are you doing love? :)
Thats fine because I blame everything on my 2am friends...
Its give and take...BG CONGRATS 18DAYS!!!
BG, Im going to share something with you bc I know EXACTLY what you mean!! I used to take pills before I would even get out of bed... That was a difficult thing for me to adjust to.... Around day 40 I began to notice that pills weren't the first thing I thought of upon first waking up anymore... I was so ashamed of myself when I realized what a huge part of my life those pills were.. Get this...
I'm a mother and a Christian yet PILLS were my very first thought each morning...
doesn't make sense does it?
so many REALLY important things in life yet I had pills front and center?
It does make sense. You and I are very similar. I am also a mommy and really into God. My first thought was popping a couple pills when I first woke up too! I'd wake up, take a pill or 2. Drink my coffee and chill before everyone else woke up. I think the reason why it's so hard in the morning b/c taking a couple of pills in the morning was not only part of my addiction but, a habit. Thank god it gets easier around day 40! That makes me happy. So rosy- what's your story? Was ur DOC also Norco? Pain pills? Ps thanks heather girl!
BG: It started out with a vicodin RX and then percs... After a while it became any and all narcotic pain killers:( I used to take adderal for 2 years and I didn't have WD's like I suffered with the pain pills. I just went from having TONS of energy to NONE.... It was one addiction after another. I didn't want to deal with nor face myself or my life... Numbing things is all I've ever known so now it's VERY hard learning how to live a clean life... The emotional is way harder than the few days of physical stuff. I have to face my demons and actually DEAL with all the stuff I've buried for so many years. Its hard.
Damn! Rosy- I just read your comment. I feel like I wrote your comment. I know exactly what you're going through. Started out with Vicodin Rx than, Norco than Perks back to Norco. I've been numb for years too. I 100 percent agree with you about the mental withdrawals. I was just talking to my husband about that. Physical w/d suck but, mental... It's a whole other level. It's very hard... Just got done crying my eyes out... How are you doing today?
Today has actually been a good day besides a very late start... Why were u crying? Are u ok?
Aww I'm glad that you had a nice day. You totally deserve to have great days! Oh- I just had a dumb day. You know.. Mental sh!t. Earlier today, my husband was annoyed with me... He just doesn't understand our illness.. He thinks that I'm on day 18, I should be " supermom" but, I'm nowhere near being super.. You know? He's very sportive and patient with me.. It's just he doesn't get it. So, it frustrates me. Later today, my mom, baby and I walked to the park. It was a lovely walk. My mom got in this tree to play with my baby. I was right below her. I asked her if she wanted me to help her down. She said she was fine. But, she totally [email protected]
ate it. Freaked me, the freak out! I said " omg mom, god da..." I don't know why I freaked out like that? Also, I never never say god da... I have a sailors mouth but, I don't say that... Idk why I said it. Neways, I had all of these raw emotions and started crying. I think I just needed a good cry? I'm better right now though :)
Details my friend!! ?? Leave it to u!! Thats why we all enjoy you so much!!