getting honest

[bama88]

update for those of you following my story..you know how you have good days? bad days?yesterday was my brutally honest day....i spend it with my husband. i needed the support. actullaly i nneded a babysitter..so i wouldnt use. but i cant score..no car lol. amyways. we both really opened up about addiction. we talked about everything...from that first time...how it made us feel....the changes we went thru with the drugs themselves...to how it felt to fark up in rhe end...and how the cars drove themselves..we talked all day. about everyrhing we did...

now i dont know if its easier to live with another addict or not. because i always have. weve been married for over 20 years..we have walked away from every thing together....i cant explain it..we just do. i swear i married my male twin. lol....so for all of you that dont have a hisband that uses...or wife....they really cant relate. they dont get it. they dont think like we do. so dont get mad at the them.

if you dont have anyone to talk to find someone here. ask me. i dont care. i happily answer any question you have. from anything...except men...somethings i cant answer lol.  everyone told me it was going to be worst living with an addict..but i knew inside myself...i could pull him away...we have a saying...side by side and eye to eye... thats husbands saying. not mine...

anyways. i felt so clean yesterday when i finally got my courage up to tell him what i tell you!!   the funny part was he was jealous of this forum..he didnt get it. then i let him read what i write..and he got it...

where i am rambling to is....im close to the 90 mark. if not at it. and from where you start at the addmision...to where i am now. HUGE turnnimg points. please give 90 days a shot. i didmt feel to good until rhe last two weeks and even those were tough. but today i walk lighter..am brighter and most of all have confidience in myself...im here for anyone who needs me..wants me..or just wants to read about me. i will be honest...its the only way to get thru. honestly.

[NeverDreamed]

Missdetox, Day 3 was the worst for me...as many others I read about on this forum.  After Day 3 it gets nothing but better.  I won't say it's GREAT after Day 3, because its still kind of rough, but Day 4 is better than Day 3.  Hang in there, you can do it.  Take it day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute..

BAMA!  Congrats on 90!!  Can't wait until i'm there... Thank you for your motivation always!  

[missdetox]

:how did u get to ninety... Im on day three and im sick as a dog! My profession will not allow me to go to rehab...  Will lose everything but I dont want to live my life in this fog anymore! I want to b myself again! How did u do it!

[rizboy]

Baby sitters are good ive done similair things,gave my girlfriend all my money and my bank card etc and ive found it works.
Congratulations on your 90 days!!
Take care Chris