happy & living a good life

[stilltrying1965]

Hey guys how ya all doing. Real good i hope ? Im 5 1/2 months clean and was so happy. But tonight my daughter Caroline was rushed to hospital,with severe headaches that was9 1/2 hours ago. Im so worried it was then i thought of drugs. But im stronger now and have more tools. Im happy it was only a thought.Just thought i would let you all know how i was doing. I still crave but not too often thank god. So how are all my friends doing let me know ill be on for awhile as cant sleep too worried about my daughter. Kim is doing real good she,s always been the strong type Take good care guys and im going to start getting on more often ,,,,,,James

[10356]

Hey james.. Congrats on 5 1/2 months.. You sound good.. confident.. I'm sorry to read about Caroline. Is she still in the hospital ? I send my love too you and Kim and when you see Caroline tell her letakos hopes that she is feeling better very soon.. warm hugs for my Brother..

[10356]

I'm also glad you will be on more often :) I have missed you around here..

[stilltrying1965]

yea she,s still in hospital i think she needs tests ect. im real good Letakos its still hard but its things like this that would have made me go right to drugs but im older and a bit wiser i hope lol love your mood sis

[10356]

You sure sound it james.. times like this is when you show your family how serious you are. I'm very proud of you. Prayers are going up for Caroline. it is good they are doing testing it may help to put your mind at ease..

[stilltrying1965]

im a bit worried but she,s strong like her mom how are you Letakos any new photos if im a bit long writing back its caroline,s like my daughter very tempremental haha i wake every morning and thank god i lived through my drug abuse some are not so lucky you letakos played a big part in it and ill never forget that thank you my sister

[stilltrying1965]

just going too make a quick thats all im addicted too lol cant stop the coffee atall

[10356]

I thank god also James. I was very worried about you a couple of times !! :) You have proven to all and to yourself just how much strength you have. You are the oe who put in the har work I just benifited and made a friend and brother :) a whole family of friends :) I'm good my sister has stage 4 breast cancer it adhered to her breast bone. not good they will not try to remove it.  I was camping when we received this new diagnosis. I was grateful I was in the mountains.. New photos in a few days my cp is about to crash so gary bought me a lap top but I'm more comfortable with my old cp.. waiting for O to come home and fix it he is visiting his girl :)

[stilltrying1965]

so sorry to hear of your sister that must be very hard for you to cope with is o home soon. hows he enjoying his new house ? and i look forward to seeing the pics. i keep myself real busy i had to take a bit of time away from mh. As i know its about addiction the forum but felt i needed a break and i feel so much stronger now. put on a lot of weight had to buy new clothes but things are going great for me the first time iv coped with what addiction can through at us again in so sorry to hear the news of your sister

[10356]

Thank you James.. it will be ok.. her faith is strong and this brings her much comfort.. I have also taken a couple of breaks from mh in the 2 1/2 years I have been here it is necessary sometimes.. I bet you look wonderful !!! I'm so grateful you are clean and feeling stronger. I also feel strong :)

[dominosarah]

Congrats James!!  You sound really good.  

I hope your daughter will be feeling better~~~~~~sara

[stilltrying1965]

i agree we do have to take time away from mh as it can be a bit hard reading of addictions all the time but i loved trying to help others well this puts a smile on my face its 8 30 am im going to go to my moms phone the hospital if your still on in an hour ill come back and let you know in more detail.As Kim cant phone me my mobile has ran out of battery and cant find my charger. if you go to bed ill talk to you real soon hugs your bro james x ps ill wait for a reply sis

[stilltrying1965]

thank you so much Sara this guys realy doing good for a change lol iv turned a big corner in my life thanks Sara can we have some dancing plz lol James

[10356]

I will be up I also want to hear what the results are.. and it put a smile on my face that you are going to your mom's :))

[10356]

Sara is there a Baby Yet !!!!!!

[stilltrying1965]

be back soon ill let you know how things are bye for now James

[stilltrying1965]

Caroline is getting more tests to find out why she was complaining of sore heads then collapsing she is waiting on a cat scan. But i spoke to her on the phone and she says she feels ok. But the doctors want to get to the bottom of this as its the second time this month. She also had some bleeding from the ears. But im more than a little worried nowyou my sister are a wonderful person you are always there when i need someone to talk too. just like when i came here asking for help with my heroin addiction. its been nice talking with you again It must be getting near your bed time hugs.,,,,,James x,,,,

[laurel453]

James, so happy to see you and most of all that you are ok, great !!!!! :) :)

i too hope caroline will be ok.


about the breaks, i also needed a break after my six months mark and when anxiety was too much to handle for me.... i needed to handle my life and its problems, coming here was not helping because my state of mind was not the right one.

so we will see you more of you now, good :)

[laurel453]

Lesa, i am so happy too to have you here :)

[stilltrying1965]

Laurel you got it spot on i needed some time away and it has been wonderful to experance life clean and very happy. Hope you are well and Spain world champs amazing your country must have have a national holiday now ,,,,James ps you will be seeing more of me if you guys will have me back LOL

[laurel453]

:) ... and don't forget winbledom and the tour of france... this year has been amazing. But that is past now and it is sooooo hot here !!

[stilltrying1965]

Oh how could i have forgot and it seem to be hot everywhere its very hot here too. But im not complaining.somtimes to hot but when its cold or raining we complain so hot is good thank you Laurel

[10356]

I'm very glad the Dr.'s are being vigilant and wanting to find what is going on.. it sounds scarey james but we have to keep positive thoughts ok. gary sends his sends his best and hopes that it is something simple.. I will be here for you anytime james.. I will also look forward to Caroline coming home.. Life is good clean isn't it. I once thought I could never face life clean, now I could not imagine being back in the nightmare of my active addiction.. things going on around us would have made it worse but somehow even the darkest day clean is better then any day in active addiction.. Yep my bed time amd your day is just starting.. hopefully she will be doing the test very soon as they read then right away and you wilL know more.. Yep it is my bed time.. I will check first thing when I get up.. stay strong james stay positive ok.. with much love.. letakos

Laurel I also em glad you are here.. while you were away I thought of you often and missed your advice.. always given with such kindness and spot on... Where would my moon be without the fish :) warm hugs

[stilltrying1965]

Goodnight Letakos sleep well ill talk to you when you get up sweet dreams my sister your brother ,,James x

[laurel453]

love being that fish in your moon...when i see the glubs glubs, those bubbles on it,... i remember my lesa too, you know ?

life on active addiction is indeed an utter h ell, i could not have faced what is going on with my life for the last months being on this h ell .... life is not easy as we all already know by lenght but it is life :)