This is my merry-go-round. I get my little bottle of hydro for my legit back problem. And...I know almost all of you started your drugs for legit pain. (I had made the decision to get radio frequency lesioning...then my insurance co. wanted my MRI and THEY decided that it wouldn't help....said my back was TOO bad for that and only surgery would correct it) So...I had planned to get off this stuff after I had the shots that I found out Friday that my insurance denied. My dr. has written the script for 1 every 6 hours the last couple of months....yeah right. I've been on these since July, so that is like taking a peice of candy.I think he might have written it that way to protect himself? So....I take my 2 every 4-5 hours, then, like now, I see that I am running way low, so I taper AGAIN. Down to 3 total pills today, 2 tomarrow, 1 on Tues. Then I'm out of pills. The most I've taken since July in 1 day is maybe 8, but still that is alot. I know I am addicted. I have been crying alot today and staying in bed...probably the holidays and some w/d going on. Can't take advil or anything like that because of stomach problems. I read all your posts every day and they both inspire me and frighten me. You guys are terrific! The surgery that they want me to have is major....I doubt that hydros will take care of that pain.... Any ideas? Surgery can't happen for at least a month, unless I totally chicken out, then, I see no end to this cycle. I am sick of it.