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Im back! NOT SO GOOD In tears Really!
I ended up in the ER with a Bleeding ulcer! Im back to my dang first 24 hours! And I feel like death! I cant CANT CANT take Ibuprofen.. My dr put me on pain killers even though I requested him not to! I did dump them again! I feel like I have no support on this. I actully feel like crap this time! The last time I didnt feel half this bad. I dont know whats wrong and Im feeling pretty small and low at this point. Im at work at my desk in tears! I HAVE TO BE here tomorrow! I dont know what Im going to do! I dont know if I can do this and I really need HELP!!! Im scared to death and am thinking crazy!~ PLEASE HELP ME! I need to calm down and I cant! KIND WORDS ANYONE
You got it Shabay! That's the spirit! Breath. Don't look down the tunnel. Remember what you're going through is just temporary -- it's actually very physical/chemical in nature & you ABSOLUTELY can get through this. I can't tell you happy you'll be -- how proud of yourself you'll be if you stick with it. We'll do it together. Stay with us. You're doing great (Just caught your thread from today & posted...[SMILE TO YOU])
YOU MAKE ME SMILE! You're so so so right! I fight with my head more than anything! I need to learn to deal and breath before I reach for the easy fix. Im my own worst enemy and I will WIN THE FIGHT AND THE DAMN WAR! Positive thinking Positive thinking Positive thinking! The Fog will lift and the days will be beautiful again, the flowers will smell great and I will laugh for REAL once more! Baby steps Baby steps BABY Steps! I fear the bug might bite me in the @SS if I start to Run!
Hi there Shabay! Thanks so very much for reaching out!
I don't know that much about ulcers except the fact that any kind of NSAID's are most def. not good for them. Also, (and you probably know this: Tobacco, alcohol, caffeine & foods that irritate are all no-no's!) It's sounds like you might need a new Dr. or at least a second opinion on your options, here. I know that they can be progressive but that certain bleeds can be 'sealed'. In the meantime:
Here's a link about foods that can help heal ulcers:
http://health.howstuffworks.com/wellness/natural-medicine/herbal-remedies/herbal-remedies-for-ulcers.htm
Now the biggie (Smile to you.) STRESS!! What can we do to get those stress levels down for you? Well, first off you say you're feeling 'small & low'. Do you know what I thought when I read your post? Wow! what a strong lady!! Sometimes, we just get hit with it all at once, ya' know? (you're not alone there either!) Don't worry about tomorrow or next week right now. Please, I know it's difficult but try not to be down on yourself instead why not think of all your positive qualities & the strong things you've done & all the good reasons you have to detox. Here's a technique that works for me & countless others: Just breathe deeply & slowly from your belly & count your breaths -- actually watch them/feel them as they go in & out. While you do this, smile & try to relax all the muscles in your body. Smiling & deep breathing actually relaxes you & helps release endorphins into your body. When you're feeling particularly stressed, try to count 10 breaths, if your mind starts playing that 'anxiety tape' than just start again. If that,You can also check on You Tube for a multitude of free meditation, progressive relaxation, etc. Videos.
Is there anyway that you could take a little time off of work? That might make all this easier for you. I think the ticket here is to help lower those stress levels & in order to get you off the meds. You Absolutely CAN do this & you have to start telling yourself this in every moment when those feelings of self-recrimination come up. If we tell ourselves it's impossible -- then, indeed, it will be (because we'll make it so!)
When I read your post I got a lump in my throat & just wished I could reach through the screen to hug you & reassure you. I want to tell you that you're not crazy! You're simply panicked, alone & scared. I just wanted to let you know that YOU'RE NOT ALONE. Many folks have come here feeling exactly the same way: in difficult circumstances -- lost, scared & in pain. There's strength in numbers -- especially when it's a positive loving force, like MH. You're in the Right Place! Miracles happen here. There are many 'medical addicts' here who found that their anxiety levels & pain were actually less when they put a little time between themselves & their opiate of choice. So, please keep posting & let us know how you're doing & what you need. We're here & we're pulling for you, my friend.
I don't know that much about ulcers except the fact that any kind of NSAID's are most def. not good for them. Also, (and you probably know this: Tobacco, alcohol, caffeine & foods that irritate are all no-no's!) It's sounds like you might need a new Dr. or at least a second opinion on your options, here. I know that they can be progressive but that certain bleeds can be 'sealed'. In the meantime:
Here's a link about foods that can help heal ulcers:
http://health.howstuffworks.com/wellness/natural-medicine/herbal-remedies/herbal-remedies-for-ulcers.htm
Now the biggie (Smile to you.) STRESS!! What can we do to get those stress levels down for you? Well, first off you say you're feeling 'small & low'. Do you know what I thought when I read your post? Wow! what a strong lady!! Sometimes, we just get hit with it all at once, ya' know? (you're not alone there either!) Don't worry about tomorrow or next week right now. Please, I know it's difficult but try not to be down on yourself instead why not think of all your positive qualities & the strong things you've done & all the good reasons you have to detox. Here's a technique that works for me & countless others: Just breathe deeply & slowly from your belly & count your breaths -- actually watch them/feel them as they go in & out. While you do this, smile & try to relax all the muscles in your body. Smiling & deep breathing actually relaxes you & helps release endorphins into your body. When you're feeling particularly stressed, try to count 10 breaths, if your mind starts playing that 'anxiety tape' than just start again. If that,You can also check on You Tube for a multitude of free meditation, progressive relaxation, etc. Videos.
Is there anyway that you could take a little time off of work? That might make all this easier for you. I think the ticket here is to help lower those stress levels & in order to get you off the meds. You Absolutely CAN do this & you have to start telling yourself this in every moment when those feelings of self-recrimination come up. If we tell ourselves it's impossible -- then, indeed, it will be (because we'll make it so!)
When I read your post I got a lump in my throat & just wished I could reach through the screen to hug you & reassure you. I want to tell you that you're not crazy! You're simply panicked, alone & scared. I just wanted to let you know that YOU'RE NOT ALONE. Many folks have come here feeling exactly the same way: in difficult circumstances -- lost, scared & in pain. There's strength in numbers -- especially when it's a positive loving force, like MH. You're in the Right Place! Miracles happen here. There are many 'medical addicts' here who found that their anxiety levels & pain were actually less when they put a little time between themselves & their opiate of choice. So, please keep posting & let us know how you're doing & what you need. We're here & we're pulling for you, my friend.
Hello! Yes sir! No Advil...! I had no idea! Today is better! No sleep and pretty foggy but made it to work! Even took a shower... I crawled to the bathroom, but I made it there. Felt great to smell clean and have the creepy skin feeling go away! I dont feel so crazy today! Painted this on my wall last night YOU ARE STRONGER THAN YOU SEEM, BRAVER THAN YOU BELIEVE, AND SMARTER THAN YOU THINK. I will wake up to this daily! Dont ask me how I got the energy to do this!!!! One Day at a time! Right ..... I cant thank you all enough! I will be holding you all close!
So basically about 5 days of using? Your beating yourself up and it's not warranted. You were in the hospital, you needed meds. You let the addict in you run with the opportunity. Now you know that in the future you'll need a gate keeper on the meds should you need them again. Your fear is making this detox worse than it is. I very much admire your vocalism in your post. Soooo refreshing. I wouldn't be surprised if you wake in the morning feeling quite normal. Remember, warm baths for sleep, country music to make you cry your heart out and let emotions flow, advil for any discomfort, immodium for tummy issues. YOU will be just fine.
Ill talk to you all tomorrow! Pray for me! Lord knows I need all the help I can get! I sure will! Bless you all! Hugs and thanks for letting me freak out! ! ♥♥♥♥ I need that
I was there for 3 days came back to work on wed and took about 30 pills in 5 days... Crazy DUMB but the truth! So day one came back like crazy! I was for a long time take Oxys for cancer and got myself down to one norco a day! Got an Ulcer and WENT TO TOWN! Dumb! Yell at me know! READY GO... .Just kinding! I think I kick myself more than any of you would
We will be here. Remember .....you need to go thru it to get over it. No other way around it. Can I ask you how many and for how long did you take once you were in ER? Are you drinking lots of fluids and eating some lean protein. I swear by diet and mild exercise while your at battle.It made all the difference on detox number 3 where I finally succeeded.
Thank you I needed to hear the one day closer! That made me feel great! one min at a time! I cant get on here over the weekends so! I really will be looking for you all tomorrow! ONE DAY CLOSER
You made me smile! THANKS ... I get a Steroid Injection tomorrow! NO PAIN MEDS ... I told them! DANG IT
Let your work suffer, your number one right now. I completely understand your frustration and anger. Use those emotions to amp you up to the task ahead. Life happens and you found yourself needing meds again. Its ok and your going to be ok. Stay level and as balanced as you can. What is your most troblesome symptom right now? This is hard, but your stronger. You've done this before and this is no different. Get as comfortable as possible and just surrender to the ride. Time is what you need and tomorrow you'll be that much closer to feeling well. Keep posting my friend. We're here. Hugs x 10 to you.
Sorry I can only scream og here for now! Everyone might look at me a little funny if I did it out loud. Really I dont want to freak anyone out or sound mean or crazy! Sorry again!
So sorry. Not much I can say other than hang in there. You have my support and lots of prayers and well wishes. Crying is good sweetie, and maybe when your eyes swell up, your hands won't look so bad??
(Sorry...poor attempt at humor....just trying to get a little chuckle out of you) ;0)
I SO feel for you. You're tough and stronger than you think. It's okay (good even) to be mad as he**! I would be!!
XOXO
(Sorry...poor attempt at humor....just trying to get a little chuckle out of you) ;0)
I SO feel for you. You're tough and stronger than you think. It's okay (good even) to be mad as he**! I would be!!
XOXO
YES not Cliff for me! IM MAD AT ME AND THE ***!^G PAIN .... I could climb walls it gets so bad! I THINK IM HAVING A POOR ME FIRST 24HRS! Am I the only one thats ever felt this way kind of day! Does everyone know I feel like death, cuz I know I look like it kind of day! KIND OF MAD PISSED OF *** the MEDS kind of day!
THEY LOOK LIKE BALLOONS TODAY (MY HANDS) HAHA! Sorry I cant see thru all the tears!
Im just have a hard time with day one and am freaking myself out about day 2... I have to be at work and cant even function today! I mad Im always sick, Cancer, Ulcers, now they want me to se an RA Dr due to large lumps all thru my hands that dont look like balloons today! Im mad at me for ever starting pain meds, Im mad Im not strong enough to get thru day one, Im mad that Im so weak! I however will push thru becasue I have to! I just didnt know it would be so hard! I dont know how Im going to do this and work! Im going to be on here a lot tomrrow and my work will suffer Im sure. HOPE
thanks for the concern bro, I'm worried myself. Been to every doctor under the sun about this (from all walks) and i'm still sitting here with diet treatment as my only real option as well as yoga and meditation.
I was a yoga teacher before all this, though I find it extremely difficult to actually relax and practice currently with the pain.
I think you may want to experience this kind of constant pain before you judge mental states. It's not an "I'm sick of it all wheres the nearest cliff", it's a "would someone please turn off this pain that's making it impossible to think". You'd be pissed off too. I don't think you understand what the OP means when she says she is "SO MAD RIGHT NOW".
I was a yoga teacher before all this, though I find it extremely difficult to actually relax and practice currently with the pain.
I think you may want to experience this kind of constant pain before you judge mental states. It's not an "I'm sick of it all wheres the nearest cliff", it's a "would someone please turn off this pain that's making it impossible to think". You'd be pissed off too. I don't think you understand what the OP means when she says she is "SO MAD RIGHT NOW".
Sounds like it's time for you to see a doc, or maybe a couple. Both your physical and mental symptoms are something to be concerned about.
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You're doing great. And have been very strong. I don't know anything about your medical insurance, but if possible you should try and get a doctor who will support you and not give you meds against your will. And you really don't have to get the script filled or pick it up. Just let it sit at the pharmacy; less temptation. I know that there are supportive doctors out there because I have one. He would have NEVER given me pain meds if I said not to, unless he felt that they were absolutely necessary for one reason or the other.
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Goodness I know your pain. Hang in there.
I'm constantly seeing blood in the toilet, plus IBS all mixed up with dark thoughts about what a ******* the universe is sometimes.
From what others have said there is hope here, it just takes time. I'm taking their word for it and trying to stay hopeful too. I wouldn't wish this upon my worst enemy.
I'm constantly seeing blood in the toilet, plus IBS all mixed up with dark thoughts about what a ******* the universe is sometimes.
From what others have said there is hope here, it just takes time. I'm taking their word for it and trying to stay hopeful too. I wouldn't wish this upon my worst enemy.
Is there any hope for this STUPID CRAP! I HATE LIFE AS OF NOW! Im so mad! GOD IM SO MAD!!!!!!!!!!!
I really hope so cuz Im not DOing good at all! I cant even see Im crying so damn much and I have so much work to do! I hate to think of tomorrow if day one isnt that bad!
You CAN do this if you want it...I have chronic ulcers...bleeders, IBS too...I have been hospitalized and refused meds, just took prisolec for acid and maalox, or the replacement after having ulcers cauterized....it can be done. I have an ulcer now. I took Aleve for 3 days, hoping it wouldn't happen,but it did. Soak, soak, soak for body aches. You can detox without ibuprofen or Acetaminophen....
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