1 year clean as of today!!

[fengirl09]

This is for all of you people that are just starting on your journey to recovery!! As hard as today may seem, this can be done and things will get so very much better. One year ago today I sat in a court room and lost temporary custody of my then 7 year old daughter. That very day I decided that I needed to get control of my life back from an abusive ex-boyfriend and the nasty drug Fentanyl that was eating me alive from the inside. Fentanyl was my best friend while in that abusive relationship, or atleast I thought it was. I didn't think I could make it one day without it. My ex sued for temporary custody more because I had left him 2 weeks prior, than the safety of my daughter. He is a total control freak and always will be. Anyway, as of today I am one year clean and June 1st the new shared custody agreement was signed!!!! I have my daughter back living with me half of the time and her dad the other half. I am in a new relationship w/a great guy and happier than I have ever been in my life. I am still in therapy and I will always have to be in some type of aftercare program, just to keep myself in check. I am still learning about myself and my addiction each and every day. Just please know that this CAN be done and you are worth the time and struggle to get to a place of recovery and more importantly...happiness. Thanks to all who supported me and answered my million questions in the beginning. Jacqui-you helped me more than you will ever know and Burr-you are such a rockstar, I love you mucho!!!!

[Burrpatch]

What Guy !!!!!?????  LOL !! Many heartfelt congrats my friend on your one year !!
You have def been an inspiration to me since I have known you for this past year.

Your story of overcoming your pain and facing a destructive addiction head on while at the same time raising your children and fighting a pitched battle for the lost custody of your youngest is a testament to your character. A story of endurance, persistence, self will, fortitude and the love of a mother fighting for her child.

Look how far you have come my dear friend !!! I am soooo proud of your accomplishments in the last year. Just imagine all of the wonderful things in your bright future as you continue this new life that you have worked so hard for !!   YOU are the rock-star !! lol !  Much deserved kudos, congratulations and that a girl's to you Vickie !

Uhhh..... and we're gonna have to have a chat 'bout this "New Guy" !! Ha Ha !! :)

Much love & hug's ... Burrrrrrr

[sw9281]

I am approaching day 40 off the subs and well over 100days off percocet. I thank all on this board for caring enough for people you do not even know. - THis board had alot more to do to my success so far than any doctor was capable of.

Foy your 1 YEAR - go out and celebrate - you deserve it. No one knows what this is like unless you go through it yourself. Its like fighting an army of enemy's fully armed with your bare hands. You have defeated this army, just watch your back lol......

Again great job and I look forward to the day I can leave the same message of being clean for 1 year.

[Florida_Guy737]

Rock on!  - 1 year is a great accomplishment and hearing about what you overcame to get your daughter back was equally awesome :-).

Love hearing these positive stories...

Keep Going...

Guy

[numbsoul1]

Congrats on making it a whole year and even more congrats on joint custody! Abusive relationships are terrible. On your mind, body, and spirit. It's sad that a court would take a child away from it's mother whom was abused, but if that's what it took to get you off of the meds and sober than fantastic. I'm sure your relationship with your child will be much better now that you are clear-headed and away from that environment. It's nothing to be ashamed of. You know now what you wouldn't have known and that will make it easier to relate to your kid on these issues. Were you on fen by prescription and if so, how do you manage your pain now? I am dealing with the addiction brought about by means of dealing with pain and am having trouble getting away from the medication and not being crippled by pain. Best of luck and once again, congrats!

[Totsie59]

Congrats on 1 yr and BIG congrats on getting your baby back...You had a GREAT reason to get clean and stay clean...YOU DID IT! Cant wait until I can say I am 1 yr clean...Congrats again...

[outotown]

A big hugh WEEEEEEEWHHHHHHOOOOOOO !!!! One year is so awesome CONGRTS and may you have the rest of a very long happy life drug free.

[Fen871]

Hi congratulations on your one year I'm so proud of you  I just see you on hear today which is my one year also in you almost have the same name as me. That is kind of strange but in a good way it is a sign to stay clean . the best of luck to you! Jen

[corey411]

Congratulations on 1 year That is huge. Stay strong:o)

[addict3]

Congratulations on a year clean! Keep it up! Things just get better.

[SophieShine]

You are such an inspiration.....Congrats on your year clean !!!!
xoxoxo. sophie.

[gizzy32]

Way to go fengirl, one year is amazing. Congrats on working your recovery and taking back what is yours, you have come a long way. Don't be such a stranger.

[fengirl09]

I did go c/t but need to say that I would never recommend going thru that w/o a doctor being involved. I tried to get into a detox, but by the time I found one I was 4 days clean and was told I would need to test positive for the drug in order to get into one. Which is absolutely stupid in my opinion. I did do outpatient therapy and still do. Aftercare is the only way for me to keep myself in check and it helps me in all areas of my life. You can do this and I wish you all the best.

Thanks to everyone else.

[worried878]

congrats on 1 year!  that is quite an acheivement and u should be rolling over in pride and joy for hitting the one yr mark!

[ImGettingClean]

Congrats! I'm on Day 1 and pray i can, 1 year later, post simialr to yours...

Congrats!!! DId you quit C/t, counseling, etc? How did you do it? I seem to make 30 days and then crash all of the time....

[chefronbt]

Thats amazing, It's always nice to hear a succsess story.  It helps me know that while this may seem hopeless at times, it CAN be done.  Congrats and i hope to be here when you are celebrating 2 years!  

-Ron

[dominosarah]

Congrats on 1 yr!!!!  Keep it going!!!         sara

[refusingbondage]

fengirl - I am so happy for you!  1 year clean - congrats congrats congrats.. So nice to hear how things are coming together for you and to see true stories of how much better life can be after addiction.. YOU will always be a rockstar!