Im scared

[Coolio Hernendez]

Im scared that i am a miserable person without ill's......I've never talked about it on here but, my father is a very misrable, strict kinda mean person....I am alot like him. When i dont have the pills i act just like him...Not wanting to talk to people , not really ever act happy....It's like i take the pills as an AD not for pain.

Has anyone ever felt that way ?

[paffy]

i am the exact same way and sadly enough we think it is pill that chills us out but in reality they are what sets us off.

[Mandapanda17]

hey there, I feel the same way when I'm clean. It does get better after a while, at least it did for me after a couple months. I feel like I'm boring and don't really want to have any fun. I think its the depression that sets in for a while once you're clean. congrats on being clean!! I wish I was and I'm sure you'll be just fine, don't analyze it too much. lol :)

[Coolio Hernendez]

Cool Thanx !

[avik7]

you sound like my husband and his dad. his dad is a hard worker and its all her talks about..that and money. my husband doesnt wanna turn out like him. even tho my husband works hard he is still his own person..try to find the good qualities in your father. maybe u just havent found the things that is gonna make u complete in your life yet. i havent been such a wonderful person to be around lately but i think that is just from the the pills and being confused! im sure your a good man. think positive! you make  yourself what you are!

[Coolio Hernendez]

I have always been scared to turn out like my dad...He is a good person super hard worker great provider....He's just not nice most of the time.....

I'll be fine.......

[gizzy32]

i think we all have moments of feeling angry, but generally im not an angry person. during my use i was mean and selfish, but not like that now. maybe your just becoming an old miserable son of a bit ch, lol, just kidding buddy. have you always felt this way or do you think it has to do with the pills?