That's awesome. Addiction thrives on lies, secrecy and self loathing. Being brutally honest will set us free.
Something new this time for me that I hadn't done before either...
I've come clean and honest with the people in my life about what I'm going through. In the past I would lie (no more dishonesty) but with my closest loved ones and friends knowing about this, it keeps me grounded and removes the temptation.
Unlike in the past, I would go back to pills because I just wanted to be normal with them. Now, they understand if I have a bad day and help me see that it's just the withdrawals.
Plus, honesty about this has been such a weight off my shoulders -- no more lies.
Thanks everyone for the kind words and advice.
I'll look into something more concrete -- NA isn't for me. But everything else around here costs a good deal of money I can't yet afford.
My aftercare so far has been based on growing as a person. Exercise has become my new addiction -- I've been getting back in touch with my spirituality, working with some cognitive behavioral therapy material to re-frame my thoughts and learning how to deal with stress and triggers in a more mature manner.
I've been re-reading a lot of philosophy about the virtues and living a good life. I'm patiently going to continue to build off these and become the person I want to be -- pills aren't a part of that anymore.
I do think it'd be nice to find a real support structure in person but I've got to work with what I have available for now.
I'm not going to slip back up this time, there is no one more pill.
Congratulations on your clean time. I agree with Gnarly about aftercare. Do whatever you need to do but make sure you have support. It makes a world of difference.
congrats on day 15 ,i also have 15 days without perks i feel the same way as you i get this great natural high for a little bit then it goes away but 2 weeks ago i couldnt even get 5 mins of feeling good so i think we are doing great tryand have a great day :) p.s. makes me feel good to know i'm not nuts and everyone goes through this
Great Job on 15 days!!! I know it is rough at times becasue I am on day 17 myself. But like you I am starting feel like myself. Keep up the good work.
Tattoo
15 days is huge! I started seeing things differently around that time and by week 3 was clear headed and beginning to enjoy life again. Great news.
Hey congrats on 15 days clean your off to a great start good to here your starting to feel better that can take a wile for some are you getting any aftercare yet??? please dont try to skip this critical step in the healing process good luck and God bless,......Gnarly
Congrats on 15 days!!! Those moments you had today will come more and more now. Hold your clean time sacred. You are doing great!! sara