2 weeks today - why are things so bad?

[Jacqui805]

I don't understand this.  From day one on I couldn't wait until I got to this point.  I told myself everyday just to get through each day and that by today although I thought I'd not be myself, I'd feel appreciably better.  This cannot be good to be without sleep for this long.  I'm so dehydrated too.  I'm drinking all day.  The pain is ridiculous, but the anxiety is the absolute worst!!  At this point I literally don't' think I will be better.  I should be better by now I thought!!!!  What was the past two weeks for, just to get here?  If I had a hatchet in my head, I wouldn't see the point in stretching it out two weeks.  This doesn't seem any different.  It seems that this will not get better or go away.  I just don't understand, I'm so confused.  I'm so upset, disappointed, angry.  wtf?  Yes, some symptoms are gone entirely, some are decreased.  Doesn't matter if the biggest one is here.  It's like I pulled out two knives but still have the hatchet in my head.  You know?

[GoingToMakeIt]

Jacqui I don't know why this is so rough. I sent a PM.
Hang in there. Let's talk. Maybe we can figure something out to help you.

[addictedme]

I believe what your not getting is rem sleep ( deep sleep) I remember detoxing off heroin and oxys and I swore I didnt sleep at all but then I noticed that I"d have a program on tv and then it was a diff program,,I had dozed off but again I wasnt getting rem sleep. I just typed in lack of sleep and effects ,,the record for someone going with absolutely no sleep is 11 days. They went on to say that scientest claim you"d be dead if deprived of sleep for 12 to 13 days.Not getting the rem sleep is a problem though cause it effects your immune system among other things so I agree with the post suggesting that you see a dr. I"m sorry I havent followed your posts but if you dont mind my asking,,what is your physical problem ? Remember the one thing that everyone said " you will get better"

[Coolio Hernendez]

Be strong !!!!

Keep hanging on!!!!!!!

[Jacqui805]

I'm going out with my husband and some friends soon to dinner and a movie, I was lookin' forward to it all week, don't know how I'm gonna get through it, but I'm hoping it'll be a distraction.  I can't swim right now and I'm limited physically since I just stopped being bedbound last Nov.  Just tryin' to get some muscle tone back by livin' a little.  I haven't moved in yrs.

[Coolio Hernendez]

Coming off Suboxone last year was like that for me.

I ended up going to my daughters pool party, I had to be there and i felt like **** i was 2 weeks in and i thought i was gonna die. I even called the doctors emergncy line telling him that i was " dying".

Well i jumped in the pool and 1 hour later i felt fine and i never really felt that bad feeling again. They say swimming releases something in your brain that helps you deal.

Before you quit find a way to go swimming.

[Jacqui805]

I really didn't expect to feel perfect.  But it's got to be liveable, ya know.  I literally have not slept in two weeks, and I'm so dehydrated.  I can't even think straight with my heart pounding.  I will not survive without sleep much longer.  I'm seriously trying and all, but I just feel like I'm hangin' on a bar, and I just can't hang any more.  I gotta let go, I don't know what that means, but I gotta veg out because I have no more effort to watch the clock tryin' to get my each minute anymore.  I'm so exhausted, I just need to fall.  I really don't care where at this point, my arms are shakin' on the bar and they need to let go.