20 weeks clean at this exact time!!

[Madmax88]

The days are stacking up and I'm stoked! If only people just now quiting could feel this then they would have the drive to get through this crap.. I found that my problem was due to me always having to see how far I can take things. Meaning I used basically to feel happiness when times were boring. Or when things were good I thought I could enhance my happiness by taking pills. I'm always trying to one up the feeling.  Even though it wasn't a real feeling my brain didn't know the difference. So I've worked on this a lot and when times are bad I don't even think about the pill. When I'm truly happy that pill still comes to mind  saying " one pill could make this night even better" so that's the main thing I'm struggling with is dealing with that when it happenes. Still don't know why I get that feeling but maybe il never know but it ***** knowing my brain is never fully happy and when I'm actually naturally happy it pisses my brain off saying " it's not real the pill is". Now I'm rambling anyways I like posting my progress YALL have a good one.

[Cricketk92]

Congratulations on 19 weeks!  That is wonderful and I know taking the work to get there isn't always easy!!!
It is so true about the pills "calling" to you!!!  They are devils!!!  As long as you work on your recovery everyday that really does get less and less.... you will find one day when you think about the pills that you haven't thought about them in days and weeks!!!  Life really is beautiful on the other side!!
Hurray for you!   Keep doing awesome!!!   ♡  
Karen

[dominosarah]

Congrats on your clean time, whether it is 19 or 20 weeks!!  Just for today you stayed clean and that is what is important.  The longer you are clean the more your brain will relax but you always have to keep that Guard Up!

[Madmax88]

19 weeks lol spoke to early it was 19 weeks and thank you both for the support!!

[atthebeach]

Congrats on your clean time.
You are doing awesome.
Learn to be content and happy within yourself.
Keep on keepin on.

[jifmoc]

Max- you have been working really hard. I am so glad for you!! Keep it up...yay you!!