25days to be clean

[dfr3]

OK,
I was taking 24 pills.
went 12 days c/t caved because I was feeling No better after 12 damn days.
started back up to 5 a day
today I am taking 4 pills for four days
than3 pills for 4 days
2 pills for 4 days
than 1.2 for 4 days
than 1 for4 days
.5 for 4 days
than c/t

PLEASE tell me my w/d's will not be as bad
I have to do it I have NO way of getting any more meds.  I CUT MY LIFE LINE TO ALL MEDS

I can not wait to be drug free!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[dfr3]

your right thank-you for setting me strait without you guys I would be still using way to much.
23 days left untill drug free. today was hard rushed my 1 yr old to DRs. today because of muscle spasms.  I thought he may start to have the onset of seizures.  turns out he is just fighting off a virus infection.  ret. nurse I was thinking worse case senario.  but stayed on my taper 4/pills today.  I WILL NOT GO UP IN DOSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  no matter what.
I was being tested.
I wish I could go C/T but last time I did I could not handle the W/D's!   I made it 12 days and I really had no relief but I was taking 24 pills a day.  I just feel like if I taper the w/d's won't be as bad and I will give it 100% this time.  I am afraid to go c/t now because if w/d's are to bad I will cave I know me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

some people can not taper but I am determined to get off these drugs forever.  some of that depression is gone, from lowering my dose.  the w/d's from lowering dose are not bad I can handle them.  But those 12 days were seriosly unbearable.

[mapt]

I went from 200-300mg per day to 0mg, cold turkey. The firrst week is heel but it gets better from there, just don't do them and you'll be fine.

[JRG]

I feel pretty good not up to dancing and the cravings are pretty bad but not as bad as I thought it would be. I tapered for about two months before jumping at 10mg. I'll let you know how I do tonight.

Jackie

[MentorAmy05]

Hi, you said you are on Day 4, how do you feel?

[layne2000]

"my point is i am really on my own"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh no your not!!!!! lol
You have people here, right behind you, willing you to beat this.
People here waiting for your every post.
If ever you feel alone or need some moral support we are here for you.
Please be strong, don't give in. xx

[dfr3]

tanx

i think it is do or die at this point

[JRG]

You can taper! I did but it does take a lot of stubborn pride. Pride in not letting yourself down and pride in not letting your family down! You can do it! I was taking double what you are when I started my taper so go for it. I am four days clean.

Take care,
Jackie

[dfr3]

Thanx for the support

First my husband is giving me the pills on the bad end of that he is not the strongest person.  he is much older than me, and he REALLY does not get this whole addiction thing.

EVEN though I try to get him to go to meeting like alnon.  Just not his thing.  I even had a friend of mines brother who tried to get him to go but he just is not there. but I read things to him ALL the time.  my point is i am really on my own!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I did read about assistance I could put it on my credit card.  but I have decided to give this one more try

I have NO way to get more.  the places I was getting meds takes NO new patience, so once your gone your gone.  So even if I fail A miserable c/t is in store for me down the road.

I really was depressed about stopping all together, but maybe it was pray, but I have this joy when I wake up like I want to try to take less.  but I do not want to set myself up for failure.  I keep thinking 25 days untill drug free.  than 7 days of w/d and NOV 1 I would be back to myself


wow,  what a great christmas present !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
for me and GOD!

I hope this feeling of hope does not go anywhere.

[fishmeal]

dfr3 do you know that you have changed your brain's physiology??  You need to look at some of those HBO specials about opiate addiction....Please find a way to do buprenorphine?  Did you see the $ assitance thread that I started?

at least go to naat.org and look around the forums there

[justlikeyou]

id find someone who loves you to hold your pills, tell them not to give you any unless your crying and vomiting, if they decide you really need 1 then they can give ONE too you.

you will be clean very quickly.

as far as i can see, tapering doesnt work for people, if the pils are there, they get taken.

there is no easy way to do this.

[Carrie76]

Well done dfr3!! I know you can do this and great job on cutting of your scripts!! I'm not sure which would be easier as far as w/d's. I would "think" tapering would be easier in that respect but mentally some people just cant have them around and stick to a certain amount, thats why c/t is better for them, I would try tapering and if you see you are sticking to the plan then great...if you see that your continually going over the amount for that day, then stop tapering and continue on c/t. hang in there:)

[dfr3]

anyone think c/t is better?

just do not know if I can do that again

it was horrible
I can deal with th w/d in between there not as bad
my c/t was hell

[adviceforwife]

your on the right track when you cut your ties to meds. stick in here and lets do this, we are all here for you.

[avisg]

dfr,
You might find that you have alot of theWD during your taper and not as much after its hard to tell everyone body is diffrent.I am sure you are going to do great we will be here to support you.
Avis

[wickedwanderer]

Ok, YAY!  You can do this.  I don't know if w/d will be easier while you are tapering (I would imagine so...?).  I did cold turkey.  I saw your other post about canceling all you prescriptions - WELL DONE!!  Just stick with your taper...you will be fine :D  Good luck!!