2nd day from1.4 mg...NEED HELP

[NeedHelpNow321]

Hello.  Any support or help would begreatly appreciated.  I am 34 yo lady who used heroin for 4 years.  I got on methadone 6.5 years ago and my life changed for the better.  

I was at 30 mg for like maybe a year but it literally made me high and sick. So I went down to 15 mg for a little bit then 5 mg for th epast 4 years.  I went to 2.5 mg very easily for awhile.  On Monday I went to @ 1.4 mg and felt like I hadnt taken any at all.  I did that until Wednesday and thought, f^^^ this and just stopped.  

During the 1.5 mg days, I cried had panic attacks and very very strong urges to just give up!! Same way I feel now.  I woke up in a panic this morning.  I called into workthis morning bc I just couldn't.  I have been taking a cople 7.5 hydro to be able to get up and calme down.  I am very healthy and very emotional person anyway.  Methadone never really numbed my feelings.  I am so scared right now.  I just feel so emotionally depressed and I am just a wreck emotionally.  I have a couple valium and I take like half during these extrme panic attacks I have.  The panic attacks are what are getting to me.  Every couple hours I freak out literally.  

ALso, to add, my methadone never held me 24 hours when I was at 5 mg.  I have felt horrible waking up the past many years.  

ANy advise or support or stories would help so so much.  Thanks.

I have a full time job, husband, 12 y/o, and a bunch of dogs:)  

[marycarmel]

I've no experience with methadone but do get anxiety attacks.  Valerian root has helped me a lot and it's all natural.  It works at least as good as Ativan for me.

[NeedHelpNow321]

Still holding on by a thread and have been since Monday.  I cannot see how this can get worse!  Honestly, I read about people who it doessnt get worse than five days in and I am 2 days in about to loose it!

[NeedHelpNow321]

Thanks to both of you.  I will try this now because that dread is coming up I can feel it.  With anxiety comesphysical symptoms and then more anxiety.  I am going to just breathe now.

[SmilingBright]

You got this girl!!!!!!!!;)

[knaankj]

hi.....i just got caught up with all your comments. i deal with anxiety and ODC and i SO appreciate how your mind is working OVER TIME right now. for me, this really helps...if you could....just try this. take long deep breathes and let them out really slowly. breathe in as much as you can and then right back out nice and slowly.
i know this sounds really really lame. but it really does help!! it will just remind you to stay in the moment...this moment right now and your mind is not on tomorrow or monday at work or your sons birthday party.
just sit on your comfy couch...and close your eyes and start breathing. dont think about ANYTHING but the sound and feeling of your breaths going in and back out.
do this for several minutes and see if it helps you center a little bit and calm some of the "crazy" as i call it, that is keeping you amped up inside.
i hope it helps...i know it helps me a great deal (when i remember to do it)
stay strong....you are doing GREAT!!
Paige

[NeedHelpNow321]

You are so right.  I just teared up a little.  I just spoke with my dad and son and laughed.  THis is something even on hydro or valium I have not been able to do since Monday.  Gotta keep that anxiety down.  I am trying.  

Thank all of yall again.