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3 weeks clean!
Hey Y'all!!! I made it to 3 weeks clean and it does feel great but im still not normal yet. My sleep is getting better, the afternoon crash still hits me hard and every few days or so i do get some WD's. When does this end and you become "normal"? When i do get the WD's is when i will get the craving to get high, but when i have a good day it does not even cross my mind. I would like to do a shout out to all my friends on here and say thank you from the bottom of my heart, y'all know who you are:) Question.....Is the opiates out of my body yet? I assume not because i still get some WD's, or is it that just my brain still craving some endorphins?
Dane
3 weeks clean and proud:)
Dane
3 weeks clean and proud:)
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Ok, so after toying with the idea of what type of after care i should take, or should i say do i even need it, enough of you had drilled it in my head that i do. So, after much thought, i brought seeing a shrink to hubby, now that's another huge step for me. I am NOT a shrink fan at all, been to one once when i was a kid and have dreadful memories of how awful it was to sit there and get drilled by some stranger. I cant bring myself to NA just not for me, tried the addiction doc route that didnt work since all they wanted was to push sub on me, so now last option other than church/prayer, i think it's "shrink time". i have done my search online to find someone in my area and will call tomorrow and see when i get an appointment. Hey vicki, have you noticed my pattern here, i always wind up listening to you, it just takes me days/weeks for me to process....LOL
SHUT THE FRONT DOOR!!!! If you are not from the south then that means, holy cow, you just scared the living crap out of me!!!! Thanks for all the info, and i will have my guard up.
Congrats Dane! WOW! I just hit day 25. Some days are worse than others but as long as it isn't like that first week I can hang lol. The drugs are gone but your brain is still trying to adjust your chemicals and learn to make them on it's own again. Careful on those bad days because I've had a few days were if I knew how to get them illegally I would've! Even as recent as this week! So keep on keeping on and give em the finger! Congrats!
it takes time . . . and time takes time.
if you stick with this, you will be amazed at the changes you go through . . . it's a continual "peeling away another layer of the onion," as they say.
at first the changes were more or less constant, as i came back to life. there was a HUGE change right at 90 days, which i now know was my brain do a re-set out of active addiction and into recovery. See http://www.time.com/time/magazine/article/0,9171,1640436-3,00.html
read up on PAWS . . . it's just around your corner and it will take you "back out" if you're not ready for it. http://www.tlctx.com/ar_pages/paw_part1.htm
read everything you can about addiction and recovery. a few good books to start with are: Staying Clean and Sober, by Miller; Healing the Addicted Brain, by Urschel; The Spirituality of Imperfection, by Kurtz.
aa meetings . . . i wouldn't be clean without them. i went to probably 10 a week the first 6 months, now just 4 or 5. take a look at aa's big book http://www.aa.org/bigbookonline/ and na's basic text http://www.12step.org/references/na-basic-text.html
do not get the idea that you are safe just because you're sick of being in active addiction and you're sincere in wanting to be clean. you are not safe and you must be vigilant . . . addiction is cunning, baffling and powerful -- it will try to worm its way back into your life.
above all else, don't use, at all, no matter what . . . if you do you will reactivate your addiction and it will be worse than before.
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if you stick with this, you will be amazed at the changes you go through . . . it's a continual "peeling away another layer of the onion," as they say.
at first the changes were more or less constant, as i came back to life. there was a HUGE change right at 90 days, which i now know was my brain do a re-set out of active addiction and into recovery. See http://www.time.com/time/magazine/article/0,9171,1640436-3,00.html
read up on PAWS . . . it's just around your corner and it will take you "back out" if you're not ready for it. http://www.tlctx.com/ar_pages/paw_part1.htm
read everything you can about addiction and recovery. a few good books to start with are: Staying Clean and Sober, by Miller; Healing the Addicted Brain, by Urschel; The Spirituality of Imperfection, by Kurtz.
aa meetings . . . i wouldn't be clean without them. i went to probably 10 a week the first 6 months, now just 4 or 5. take a look at aa's big book http://www.aa.org/bigbookonline/ and na's basic text http://www.12step.org/references/na-basic-text.html
do not get the idea that you are safe just because you're sick of being in active addiction and you're sincere in wanting to be clean. you are not safe and you must be vigilant . . . addiction is cunning, baffling and powerful -- it will try to worm its way back into your life.
above all else, don't use, at all, no matter what . . . if you do you will reactivate your addiction and it will be worse than before.
CATUF
2230
Thanks, i just want this crap out of my system and to feel good again!! I know it took years for my body to enjoy the ride i chose to put it on and now it needs to learn how to do it opiate free, im just whining sorry..... i cannot wait to feel "normal" again.
Meds are gone. Wd are not because it's still there, it's because it's not. 72 hours and mostly out. These meds control your GI so your body has to re regulate itself. That takes time. Good work!
Hey there, I was on oxy, vic, perc, diluid, tram, norco, basically every opiate in the book, and YES it was all prescribed, but i did enjoy the high so i abused all of the above. You can go and read all my threads there are many on here, but i did taper for 4 weeks and then had to take the plunge to be off. So really even during the taper it just sucked, all the taper did was prolong the WDs but it was the way to go for me without failure, since i have tried CT many times but i was to weak to go that route. What about you? Fill me in on you, hopefully i can help? You can PM if need be as well. Good luck.....Dane
Congrats!!!
What were you on and for how long?
Did you tapper or CT...Thanks
What were you on and for how long?
Did you tapper or CT...Thanks
HEY Dane good to see you post and im so happy for you......you had quite a fight getting off this stuff but with a little perseverance you did it just keep working it a day at a time you will go threw lots of changes over the next few weeks this is normal your emotions will come back on line be ready for it other then that you should do well we always recamend aftercare it will teach you how to deal with the cravings and how to reteach yourself how to think and reason
as addicts we need to learn that all over to concur this disease keep moving in the right direction good luck and God bless......Gnarly
as addicts we need to learn that all over to concur this disease keep moving in the right direction good luck and God bless......Gnarly
OHHHH i have read my thread and wow i have changed!!!! Talk about an emotional wreck, what a roller coaster i was on...LOL Thanks for the "HINT" still have not gone down that path yet, but i sure did try. I had an appointment with the addiction doc, chickened out, and then a week later called him back and he is away for the summer and referred me to someone else, and that guy was a SUB pusher, and wanted to put me on meds after i told me i dont want any meds. So, unfortunately i had a bad experience with the addiction doc. I really dont want group, im to chicken poop. I have great family support, i came clean to all my close family/friends. I do attend church, but that's all i have done thus far. I am considering a shrink, just to talk about everything, but yet again that embarrasses me as well.
I know i have to just get over it and pull up my big girl panties...LOL Thanks Vicki for everything....Dane
I know i have to just get over it and pull up my big girl panties...LOL Thanks Vicki for everything....Dane
SO true - and aftercare isn't only important for recovery, it's just important for life overall. We all have stuff we need to face and get over or move on from - so it just makes good sense in every way. :)
No...you weren't a cross to bear...I was there by choice...but do this: Go back and read that thread now!! You'll go nuts with frustration!!! LOL!!
You are so worth it Sweetie!!
We've all gone through that conflict with the talking heads in our brains!! That's when your guard needs to be up!!! Our brains tell us to take just one...but you can't!! You have to banish the thought!! It gets easy after a few months...and aftercare helps that a lot! hint hint
You are so worth it Sweetie!!
We've all gone through that conflict with the talking heads in our brains!! That's when your guard needs to be up!!! Our brains tell us to take just one...but you can't!! You have to banish the thought!! It gets easy after a few months...and aftercare helps that a lot! hint hint
HEy girl,
Im glad i could help even not knowing i did anything..LOL Congratulations on 2 weeks, that's amazing, your only a week behind me. I wish you nothing but the best and if you have any questions do not hesitate to ask me!!! Keep up the good work and continue to post it helps, without MEdhelp, i would not be clean today:)))
Im glad i could help even not knowing i did anything..LOL Congratulations on 2 weeks, that's amazing, your only a week behind me. I wish you nothing but the best and if you have any questions do not hesitate to ask me!!! Keep up the good work and continue to post it helps, without MEdhelp, i would not be clean today:)))
Thanks Vicki! LMAO on "NORMAL" ! And to answer your question, NOPE i was never normal, just always high! So, i really am going to find what the new normal is.... Man, what's with our brains wanting us to use?????? It's crazy i always describe it as the Angel on one shoulder and the Devil on the other, thank the Lord the Angel has won for us!!! No to pill dreams thus far, but i actually never dream or remember my dreams, but i heard lots of people on here talk about the pill dream. Vicki, thank you so very much for all your help and putting up with me in the beginning stages of my recovery, im sure i was a cross to bear....
Hugs to you and IMDONENOMORE!!!!!
Hugs to you and IMDONENOMORE!!!!!
LOL!! Yes...normal can be boring. I prefer zany in a smart sort of way!! I have to!!
Congratulations on 3 weeks, thats amazing! I just wanted you to know how much you inspired me. During my first night of withdrawals (from tapering), when I first found this forum, I found your thread (original) and started reading. Top to bottom. Not only was I moved by your strength and how far you had come, I was so engrossed reading your thread, that for an hour and a half, I didn't even notice my own pain, and forgot to take my med at sched taper time! (you remember how hard it was to occupy your time w/out thinking about pills!) That was when I KNEW I could do this! It was shortly after that I decided to just jump CT and posted my own thead. Now I am 2 weeks clean today! So even if you didn't realize that you were helping others at the time, you were. Thank you so much for that! Well, to everyone for that matter! But I'm really proud of you and I still watch for your posts for inspiration. Keep up the good work!
Yup!! The opiates are gone now. I can't say when you'll be normal. Do we assume you were normal to begin with?? LOL! I'm still waiting for normal...but sometimes we get "new normal" and that's where I am!
And, yes, it's your brain trying to get you to use!! You need to beat that down! Have you had any pill dreams?? I can't remember...They're normal!
I'm so proud of you!! xoxo
And, yes, it's your brain trying to get you to use!! You need to beat that down! Have you had any pill dreams?? I can't remember...They're normal!
I'm so proud of you!! xoxo
Actually I'm just like you - two girls finding their inner power and strength right? :) And it feels DAM* good.
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Okay, yes, the stuff you're dealing with now is totally normal. And the opiates are probably mostly out of your system, although they say it can linger on in certain areas of the body. But the symptoms you mention were the same things I went through.
In fact, even after a few months I had a weekend where I felt it all over again. But the good news? Those feelings passed - and quickly.
You're getting stronger every day and the best part of that is you now truly have that strength to deal with the lingering stuff. And you're doing it girlfriend! Oh yeah, and try the same things you did in those early days to help with the symptoms today. They'll help even more than they did in the beginning (hot showers, valerian root, exercise, the other supplements). This stuff truly works and the longer out that you're clean, the more they help.
I could not be HAPPIER for you that you hit the three-week mark. FEEL proud honey because you deserve it!!