33 weeks and 5 days and im takeing opiates(scared need help)

[melissa347]

I dont Know what to do I know i am wrong for takeing pain meds while im pregnant. I been takeing oxycodone (percocet),oxycotine,some vicoden the whole time. I did manage to just stick with oxycodone and cut down to where i can cut a 30mg into 4pieces and be ok with that for the day.I used to be up to 12 plus pills a day.Now i am very worried about this cus i have bipolar and severe depression and anxiety. I go to a shrink perscriber and now there doing mandatory drug screening. I peed in a cup today but only a lil so i dont even know if they can use it i did take a 5mg and 20mg of percocet yesterday. I dont know if it was enough urine if it will show up and i am worried about it.This perscriber I have is really rude and miseriable she is new and this is only the 2nd time i have seen her.Anyway my OB has no idea I been takeing percocet or others i mentioned. I am scared to say anything because I dont want my baby taken but i know it will probably show in her system when she is born. I have had a past of useing drugs crack cocaine 13yrs i been clean off that. I have 3 childeren i do not have that the state took custody of not because of drugs but becase i was not on meds at the time and i was unstable.I am thinking they will take my baby cus of my past and use this against me im so worried and scared I have no clue how to deal with this. I have till between dec 30 - jan 3. I also live in MA and dont know there laws about it here. Someone please help and give me some advice if you can.

[Jenjaybee]

I'm not sure what your laws are but here in WA as long as the ob and your doctors know about your medication and it's a legit Rx then no one gets involved like cps. I just recently finished a very slow taper, about 2 months, from oxy and it was very hard, I basically felt like I was in mild withdraw for 2 months and my mind was going crazy feeling that way and sticking to a taper but it's now been 6 days since my last pill and this past week has been pretty easy. Yes I've had body aches, trouble sleeping and RLS but I'm also 32 weeks pregnant so isn't that normal anyway! My advice is to be very honest with your doctor about your exact use and why your having problems stopping. Since you're pregnant there are more risks with trying to manage this by yourself and you can't do most of the home remedies so it's best to have a doctor to help. My ob was okay but my pain management doctor really helped me with a plan that I was happy with but I had to be honest and my ob tried to be supportive, I think just not a lot of experience with addiction, but again it was just nice to have them on my team. Doctors want you to deliver healthy happy babies not babies addicted to narcotics, sometimes there is no other option but you are strong enough to give up those 4 pills, you just need your team behind you to help you! Good luck!

[Sarahnoah]

Hey I am in you situ ion right now but I am down to a 4 mg of dilidid a day I am scars to that the will try to take my baby but I told my dr upfront as soon as I found out I was pragnant he then out me in morphine to taper down but like you I could not stop using the dilidid so she is now staying. She wants me in methadone but I said no cause I feel it will haut out more synthetic opiates in my system then the 4 a day is. Please tell me what happened with you so I know. I live in Canada not sure where you are or if the rules are the same but here in Nova Scotia they put you on methadone ASAP and keep ou on it for the entire pregnancy but that is not something I am willing Ti story to take and then be addicted to that. Anyone on here can help if you have any advice as I said my obgyn knows but I can't seem to get off those last 4 mg of dilidid:( I also feel bs have depression and several anxiety I just need some one to talk to

[brlady126]

This is a helpful thread. So thank you. I am 33 wks pregnant & have been taking pain meds since my 12th week due to 2 ruptured disk in my back. These meds are prescribed by my doctor & I am being monitored by him...I still worry about my baby. I never seen my self in this situation & frowned upon women who took meds during pregnancy until I became one...this has been a struggle & I dont want my son to be born addicted so I will taper down during the next 2 weeks until I am not taking them at all, even if that means I am bed ridden because of the pain. This has been the hardest thing I have ever mentally had to go thru. I feel horribly guilty. however, you post helped me feel a little better Ashelen.

[juliansmama143]

Melissa I just read your post an was wondering what ending up happening, also what part of mass do you live in?

[adgal]

Absolutely.  I am in Canada, so there may be some minor differences, but as far as I can tell, the basic principals are the same.  I'd be happy to help if I can.  I'll send you a friendship invite, then all you have to do is click on my profile.  Look for send a message, and then you can message me privately.  If I don't have immediate answers, I can ask colleagues.  I don't work directly in Child Protective Services, but we work closely with them.  And 1 thing I can tell you for absolute certainty...goal 1 is for the child to be safe and cared for.  goal 2 is to keep families together and work with them to keep it that way whenever possible.  I really think this is going to be ok.  From what I am reading here, you are doing the right things.  People are realistic, and Rome was not built in a day.  It's all about the direction you are taking,and after assessing that the child is not in danger, that is what they look at.   I always tell the folks I work with  that it takes incredible courage and strength to admit that you have a problem (of any sort) and to begin taking steps to change things.  It's always easier to ignore and just keep doing what your doing.  So do feel proud.  And your child will be proud of you too.  I may not be an addict myself, but I am the child of an addict who has been in recovery a long time now.  I am very proud of him, so I can say that with confidence.

[melissa347]

I feel so good about this now. Im so happy that you adgal put my mind to ease. Im going to try my hardest but i cannot overwhelm myself either. One day at a time and steps to where im suppose to be. Sara I am so great for for you and for keep looking in on my progress. I cannot wait to have my baby. I cant wait to  hold her and kiss her.Also Adgal can we chat more about some stuff i need to ask about I have a few questions and would like it privately. Let me know how and when we could do this asap. Anyway today think im getting a cold or something sore throat,dizzy weak,tired I had my flu shot and everyone is telling me that maybe why im getting sick cus of the shot. I have no idea. I hope i dont get worse. I have things to do and need to get them done. Well God Bless all and have a great rest of day or evening whatever time it is where u are. God Bless

[dominosarah]

Melissa, this is another one of our mom's that has a wealth of knowledge also.  We are so lucky to have these girls come over to this forum and help out.

[adgal]

I'm not a regular poster on here, but read your story and my heart went out to you.  I do work in Social Services and would like to perhaps offer some reassurance.  They do not look to taking the baby as a first step.  It is almost always the preference to keep baby with mom whenever possible.  So the fact that you have come clean about the situation, and are working so hard on it really is going to be viewed as a huge positive.  You should feel proud of the steps you are taking to protect and take care of your baby.  Yes, they may want to do home visits, etc. for a bit, but given the direction your moving in, I suspect things will be ok.  Congrats on both your pregnancy, and on working so hard towards getting off the pills.  I wish you absolute success!  I see this type of situation all the time at work, and usually there are other factors involved before they take the child.  It has to be a situation where mom cannot care for the baby.  Hopefully this helps put your mind at ease a little bit.  

[dominosarah]

Well look at you go Melissa!!  You have a great plan in place.  By the time this baby gets here you will be feeling so much better.  Recovery is hard work but it is so worth it.  The rewards will be endless~~~sara

[melissa347]

I plan to go to any meeting again the one i was talking about is for Beginners so maybe i may feel more comfortable for now in that. Its not easy for me to be around lots of people I have anxiety and this is a big step for me. No matter what tho i am going. :)

Jilannaa, Thank you alot for the congrats and the support I really do appriciate it alot....... Bless you.

[jlannaa]

i'm so happy for you sounds like you are on your way , congrats on the baby its super exciting and i wish you all the best in the world :)

[Kendraerika]

Not sure if you know.... Open meetings allow nin addicts to attend to support the addict, closed meetings are only for addicts. It doesnt mran full or private. Didn't want you to think that, and maybe miss a good meeting. ;) I mentioned this bc you said you were going to all open meeting.

[melissa347]

Thank you both..... :) I printed out the NA meeting list so when they have them i will be going to all open meetings.  Monday I will make all my phone calls to early intervention for the baby and rehab therapy for me and start my NA meetings this weekend if i can find one open to public and if not i start everything monday. Thank you guys for all the support. I hope everyone else is doing well and hangin in there whatever they are going threw. xoxoxo lots of luv and prayers to all.....

[Kendraerika]

You are doing the right thing. It is not easy, I know, and im happy for you making the right choices for your baby... And you! Follow through with your plan, and you are on the road to a better life!

[Ashelen]

good girl! showing how much of an effort you're making is going to work in your favor..keep your head up and keep at the hard work.

[melissa347]

Ok so its 4:41 I have gone allday with nothing but have not been well at all. I just took half of 15mg pill I couldnt go to the sub dr today there not open on fridays so i guess have to wait the weekend and hope for the best. I already thought of my plan to be one step ahead of DCF I am goin to join Early Intervention for the baby,go to NA meetings and drug  abuse counseling. Im ready to have a new life and start right. again thank you all

[Bkitty]

Yeah you are all "babyfied" that makes me smile! Iknow one day I will be blessed with a baby,,in Gods time Im sure. I was just writing on my journal that I didnt hit a bottom or lose a lot to my addiction but I just realized a huge thing I did lose and that was time. Im older now and the chances for me to have a baby are harder and harder. But I also know for me and the situation i am in now isnt the time. The one thing I can do this time though is get my life and me back.
You my friend took a huge courageous step today. I admire you for that. Rest well and have some peace in your heart and know that you have a lot of others on here that are praying and care about you. Sending love and hugs~

[melissa347]

I am so ready for this baby more then anyone knows.... :) Have lots of diapers cloths room is ready but she will be in her bassinett in room with me for a lil bit. I cant wait to hold  her.I do feel uch better then yesterday and its because of all you ladies that helped me threw this. you have no clue how much you all helped me. I am so appriciative i cant thank you enough. Hugs to all... Im going to get some sleep now but will be on tomorrow xoxoxo to all nite.

[dominosarah]

I dont see why they would take your baby.  You are working towards taking care of your addiction.  You came forward and told your secret now.  That takes alot of strength and it shows you want the help.  I am so SOOOOO proud of what you did.  There is a huge change in you from yesterday.  Now you have hope.

Are you ready for the baby?  Room ready, clothes diapers etc??  

[Bkitty]

So proud of you for calling today!  Try and get some well deserved rest tonight sweetie.  

[melissa347]

Thank you much User80. Now i need as much prayers as i can get to let them keep my baby. you all are special to me you all have a piece of my heart and would help you guys in anyway i could.....

[User80]

You've done the right thing. Confessing to a doctor is so hard - but don't you feel better? Ashe gave you great advice and she is so right. Babies are born all the time to moms who need to be on pain meds and they are fine. Like I said - I had multiple high risk OB's tell me the same thing. You will be in my prayers. Please keep us posted!

[melissa347]

I hope ur right vicki. thank you for ur prayers

[vicki595]

Lots of prayers your way, Sweetie. Don't worry now; you've done the absolute right thing!
xo