5 days, Never felt so lonely in my life

[happynessbythekilowatt]

Welp back on day 5 clean i've been doing good but this depression comes and goes with a vengeance. Just came out to my mom for the day to visit and get away from my area.

Fell asleep a couple hours ago and just woke up with the weirdest feeling, ive never been so lonely in my life. It will pass though. Hate waking up in the middle of the night.

Other then that I feel alright, getting randoms sweats and chills but its tolerable and not consistent.

I refuse to take anything for anxiety or depression. The anxiety isn't too bad though.

So who's awake?

[laurel453]

you could read the amino acid protocol on the health pages ( right side of your screen ) there are some natural supplements that can help now... exercise is also good and a healthy diet with lots of vegs and protein...

[littlebit010101]

Yes that's what I was asking about......thank u much I will pick some up.....

[laurel453]

Happiness, i would not refuse to take an antidepressant... just wait and see what happens but don't say NO to them, pls. If you have an inbalance and meds can help you and thus save your life from active addiction, just go for it, my friend. Meanwhile, maybe the amino acid protocol could help you with some of the stuff it is adviced there

how are you doing today ?

littlebit010101, you mean where to get the 5HTP ? It is an OTC suplemment, an amino so at any drugstore, pharmacy.....

[littlebit010101]

Where do u get that?..

[Tattoo67]

I am working on day 5 myself.  Way to go.  I find as long as I keep myself busy, I am at work, watched my daughter soccer practice last night, did a little work around the house, I can keep it togther.  However it tough when I am driving home all alone.  I keep feeling like I am going to slip but once I get onto something else the feelings pass.  I just keep think of my progress in one hour clips, so I continue to remember that I am moving forard.  Hang in there.  I also dont miss sneaking out of work to run to get money, get to the dealer, hiding the money I took from my wife and counting pills fearing I would get arrested any day.  The difficulty of W/D is easy when I remember all of the bad things I did to mysself and worse to my family,  Try to stay psoitive.  

Best of Luck

Tattoo

[Icntkickit]

Get you some 5-HTP! Makes a world of difference on the mood & depression! I'm on week 3 and I swear that is what got me thru.

[littlebit010101]

Ur doing awesome....I love that u put u could smell fall.....I was outside working in the yard....well walking and picking up a little...I still don't have my strength back...but my body has been through two major surgeries this year....but I said all that to say I smelled my roses today and could smell them all through the yard..I didn't have to pick it to smell...I cried...beautiful..thank all yhall for sharing ur stories

[happynessbythekilowatt]

Yeah this rollercoaster is a crazy one but I'm getting it over with. I love when my smell and senses start coming back, I can already smell fall on the way and it's pretty awesome.

That's reason enough right there to stay sober.

[petroglyph54]

So....get on your guitar and play..http://youtu.be/DZOVSV3qGlA. Very well done on your clean time!
You are so right that this to shall pass. Protect your clean time with passion. There is just no need for us to suffer through this again. I'm glad your back and doin so good. It's almost impossible to be depressed when listening to your fave toons. It get's better everyday from here on out, but your still cleansing and it can be a bit of a roller coaster, as you know. Keep pushing the fluids. Lousy sleep, sweating and the other less than desirable after effects is just your body healing.

[gnarly_1]

Hey dude ....right now your brain chemistry is all over the place depresion is comon and is treated to soon for my liking right now your brain is screaming for endorphins witch it will eventually make itself your serotonin is a mess up and down along wih your dopamine its no wounder you dont feel right .....give yourself a good 90days for things to stabilize it will happen gradually but thats one reson n/a and a/a say 90 meetings in 90 days thats the average time your brain takes to come back to normal if in 90 days your still not right go see a phyic dr and get on an antidepressant just give your body a chace to come back on its own prayer is a powerful wepon on addiction it takes the mind off of the drugs and puts it on a higher power in my case Jesus but do take time to pray and meditate when you pray you speek to God when you meditate you here from him this 2 way communication will bring you piece your going to make it out of this Lord knows your trying good luck and God bless.......Gnarly      

[donewitis]

By Gods Grace there will be no more of this, no more detox!..just daily getting better, thinking clearer, appreciating what we couldn't appreciate before. Living life to the fullest...rather than just surviving. Making amends..cleaning up our act. Getting outpatient therapy...NA whatever...you know

I'm praying for you.

[happynessbythekilowatt]

Thanks! Yeah valerian root helps a lot. Me being stubborn, I refuse to take anything but I have come a long way to be able to be so strong now, the first few years I couldn't of. Being in shape really helps withdrawals a whole lot.

Well I lied, I usually take a half of a suboxone on day 2 and it lingers past day 3 which are the hardest for me. I don't take much sub because I got addicted to it a couple of years back for a good couple of months instead of tapering down.

[donewitis]

someone mentioned Valerian Root to me for anxiety

[donewitis]

Im here Congrats on 5 clean!!!