You sound like you are a great place. Personally, I got sick thinking of pills around 5-15 days after quitting. Then I got comfortable...
Don't get comfortable, always remember where you came from.
You are strong and a fighter and I hope you never have to relive these 7 days again, and you won't.
There you are, jlannspr! I missed you yesterday. I do understand the comfortable part. Luckily, I have no way of getting more pills now. I wouldn't even know how to get them on the street. Mine has always been a prescription and I let it run out on purpose. How are you doing today? How long has it been for you now? I hope you are getting a little better every day. I am really feeling good this morning. A few lingering symptoms, but nothing like the first few days. Thanks for checking in.
You are very welcome...right at 48 hours right now.
It's about my "pill" time and I'm having an apple and green tea!
I feel oddly okay; this wd I have worked on the mental side tremendously, by keeping my thoughts positive. I just sit here and read and post to pass the time.
That is so tough of you to cut off your supply, This go around I messaged my contacts and said don't contact me, I'm not doing those anymore...it felt good and helped this go around.
I can tell you are in this for the long haul and you got it. Best wishes, and see you on here.
Oh my friend that warms my heart !' You are such a fighter ! You are smart to have no connections anymore. I know what jlannspr is talking about They can reel ya back in easily. You are so strong and can do this girl.
Adding my support and congratulations! My doctor got busted, but he offered to find another doctor for me.....I said, no, I will quit.
I had wanted to quit anyway...just didn't want to go thru withdrawals again. I quit with a taper but still had some symptoms, but enough that I don't ever want to go through that again. Like you, I have never bought them on the street. I had more than enough to get me thru the month and I never took them all. So, I was able to stay in control in that way.....but, I knew I wanted to quit but I just hated the withdrawals. I will tell you the truth. I didn't mind the physical symptoms as much as I dreaded the anxiety and lethargy. For an active person, that is paralyzing, but like someone said, there are so many people with poor health, it is a shame to take my good health for granted and jeopardize it by taking poison.
Awesome!!! Love it, so motivating!
Hi well congrats on day 7 that is ausum and your off to a good start... your attitude rocks and that plays a big part in all of this....the only thing I see missing is aftercare.....this is a critical part of recovery and is not optional if you want to do this long term just ask most of the people who have major clean time and we all will tell you it is because of aftercare....the pills are not the problem they are the solution we choose weather it be for ligitmite pain or to get past a stressful day or often just for that extra kick of energy....the real problem is the very way we think as addicts long after the pills stop your still left with the addict alive and well in your head....im happy to hear your feeling so well so soon that is a big plus but life on lifes terms can be a tuff propazition addiction will not just go away on its own getting clean is the ez part staying that way takes work I have tryed most forms of aftercare at first I used the pastor of my church then I moved on to a substance abuse counselor then a shrink it all helped but I never lost the desire for that warm narcotic fuzzy feeling and truely thought it would be with me to the day I dye I had heard that N/a had a good progam it was free the meetings where only a hour long and I seen with my own 2 eyes that it worked for others not only days weeks or months clean but years like my buddy ''tatoo tom'' who I came to find out had 29years when I first met him....the one thing he told me was by going to the meetings getting a sponcer and working the 12 steps you can not only stay clean but you will loose the very desire to get high something I thought was impossible...to day I live life to the fullest I have a lot of really close friends in the progam that are clean... we not only share the meetings but have many other outside things to do my wife loves the dances there is one after the Friday night speaker meeting and we go twice a month this year the fellowship went tubing on the river went camping up in sadona and had a ausum babaQ at the park...my life is full and yes I have lost the very desire to use N/A is more then just a meeting it is a lifestyle that we share and even when life is tuff your not going to face your problems alone we stand up to help each other and we never have to use again I would highly recamend you google a N/A meeting in your area and give it a try with the proper aftercare this could be your last detox....I wish you all the luck in the world with your new life it takes less time to work aftercare then it took to use 24/7 keep posting for support........Gnarly...............
excellent the best part is when things come real clear round 10-15 days the whole thing starts to make sense an although that little want is there its SOOOO manageable the sad thing for me is that its always there but that's just me and the pain its not as bad as it made it out to be...
Hi girl how ya doing today ? Charlie ? I hope you had a great day !!
Definitely agree with Gnarly. I have tried to quit more times than I care to think about and I did not consistently have Aftercare. I went to sporadic NA meetings but always thought I was on and relapsed EVERY SINGLE TIME. This time I am committed to doing it right and hope you will do some Aftercare, too.
Thank you so much, Gnarly. I am familiar with the program. I attended a couple of Alanon meetings when I was younger as I had two alcoholic parents. And I have been to an AA meeting with a friend. I do have a problem as my spouse does not know I ever had this problem and I really don't want him to ever find out. I took these pills initially for surgery pain and he doesn't know I continued to refill my prescription for months afterwards. If I feel my motivation slipping, I will have to confess and go to a meeting, because I just won't go back to the pills. I know I can't do just one. I am an addict. I really love the support on this site!
Hello angel. I hope you had great day. 5 days down. Yeah.
Hi friends!! And angels:) I have similar problem with attending meetings Nomore and am really not sure how to proceed. Charlie how awesome was day 5?!!?
I regret to say I had another rough afternoon, the past 2 days from 12-3 have been hard! what am I doing wrong?!?! I need some love and support tonight…again:(( I am not trying to throw any negative foreboding with you guys…we are all different in this process remember.
I have tried throwing things and it is not working tonight….AHHHHHHHHH!!!
HAHA! Okay…here goes a TV down the stairs...
Seriously, Day 5 was much better than 4. Still craving, some fatigue, and small headache. much much better than I expected. I think it is normal to have afternoon lull, but larger breakfast or lunch as well as snack may help. I was leaving work at 2 and felt kind of down and stopped by gym and did treadmill for 45 minutes. Energy level went way up.
Man I am proud and impressed!! Ya'll in TN know how to do it right!! Just think you are almost a week out!!!!!! We have come so far.
Yes I mentioned in another post I am probably just hangry and need a snickers lol. I am sure that is what the problem is:)) I am going to wake up super early tom and go join a gym hopefully.
Hi Rock Stars!
Just wanted to tell you guys that I COMPLETELY understand your concerns about telling your spouses/partners about your addictions. I felt exactly the same, especially because I was stealing my husband meds (he has serious legit pain), he takes his medication very conservatively (hence my neverending supply) and because his mom and sisters abuse narcotics (hereditary condition) and he looks at his sister with disgust. So, let's just say that telling him was not something I ever wanted to do. After trying to quit so many times and failing, I realized that I needed to tell him if I wanted any chance of beating my addiction. For one, I needed him to lock up his pills. And for another thing, as great as this forum is and even though there is tremendous support here, I personally feel that you need your partners support and you need someone close to you to hold you accountable. I was sick to my stomch whenever I thought about telling him. Finally, I wrote a five page letter and was going to give it to him. I ended up breaking down and telling him with the note in my hand. While he certainly wasn't jumping for joy at my revelation, he was supportive and more upset that Il had not told him sooner. It hurt his feelings that I did not have enough faith in him to tell him. He felt bad that I had been suffering on my own. Do not get me wrong; he was still upset and didn't know how or why I got to that point and he still doesn't understand addiction as much as i would like, but he does realize that I have an illness and as long as i am trying, he is in my corner.!it felt like a weight off my shoulders and I think it has even made as strong as a couple. And he will be rooting me on through detox. I really encourage you to share with your partner. For me, keeping secrets makes it more difficult and I would want him to come to me if roles were reversed.
That being said, if you truly cannot tell, you can still go to meeting. Think of somewhere else you can say you are going. No one will know you are going unless you want them to. Just my two cents :-)
Not having access is crucial to staying clean, I don't think any addict can stay clean while knowing they can still get pills.
The problem I always faced after going a few weeks clean is the boredom phase/low mood. Its a good time to workout if you don't already. I went through a period where I started drinking wine and it turned into an every night thing until I forced myself to stop. We are so used to occupying our time with a substance and its hard to stop. I actually wait to go to the gym a bit later in the evening just so it kills that time when the cravings are the worst. I do take a pre-workout drink which gives me a caffeinated high but I figure it could be worse and it gets me into the gym.
Thank you for your honesty Junip. You know your stuff! I should be more clear about my situation. My husband and only him knows about this. I am actually terrified about going to a meeting only due to occupation:( I am teetering on the risk vs benefit.
It sounds like you are doing incredible tonight girl!! I am so proud my heart is bursting. Keep posting advice because you know how to get through this.
Tramuser -you are so so right about the access. I am actually in a place where I have zero thank goodness. I am definitely going to gym tom. You have some willpower! I heard the trams are tough emotionally due to chemical receptors targeted. And there are still dispensed like candy!!
Sista how are you tonight?!?!?
After my NA meeting last night, I found out the reward was far more than the risk. We are doing this for the long run. We won't always have access to this site at a critical weak moment, but when you're handed a note with 10 names and phone # to call anytime, you just received a huge boost in support. And I called one today, just out of curiosity and he answered right away. These people don't play. They know how serious this is and they already know your concerns (risk and reward). Don't risk falling back. I know I kid you and Nomore2 about being two days ahead of me, but please believe me when I say I never want to catch you.
Oh I forgot, THROW SOME STUFF. Always with love.
Tina, my pleasure, I love that I can be so open on here (and in meetings, like how I snuck that in??). I am SO glad your husband knows. Like you, my husband is the only person who knows besides you guys and NA. Like you, I had concerns given my line of work and reputation in the community. I quickly learned, however, that everyone there is in the same boat and there are no hidden agendas. I think there is almost like an unspoken code of confidentiality and if you attend a closed meeting it is only addicts. No one cares who you are and what you do; they just care about you and helping you. I wrote a detailed post about my experience if you have not seen it. You heard Charlie share his experience; it really is quite amazing. Now go throw something!!!