I was on the piano today playing the piano but I am so depressed its hard to play happy music . All I'm writing is depressing songs ... My emotions are connected to my music but I hate depressing music I like Happy haven sent music . I would love to do that but I feel my music would people right now ...
Don't quit your taper.
In a month I got from 120 mg a day to 10 mg a day.
yeah there were times when the WD was terrible.
I actually would see how far I could handle the WD knowing I had pills if it go to bad.
by the end I was half of 7.5 mg vics and starting to get "high" so then I quit.
You mentioned on another thread that you are a musician. Can you add your musical talent to that church group you mentioned above? It's a great distraction, and distraction is something you really need right now. You know yourself that music is a great way to deal with emotion, and you're going to be very emotional for quite a while as you get clean and sober and your body chemistry settles down. Your music is just waiting there to be tapped. Use it!
I took 3 10s today .... So I guess that is that . Ambien I took 7.5 last-night I could just stop or take 5.0 tonight then 2.5 the next so its not a big stop or just go to 2.5 tonight then that's it . Man I hate that I got on this stuff ! If I every have a family one day and I notice a child with addiction I will put him in Jail even if he hates me .
Thats the spirit go for it and quit now, the w/d's won't kill you just make you feel like crap for a few days. Tapering is very difficult, I know I would not be able to do it, so go for it and you will get your life back. I know you can do it and I am pulling for you. I will pray God gives you the strenght to make it through to the other side---Rick
My doctor knows I have an addiction and we talked about it . I told her if I just stopped what would happen ( She told me I would be ok but would feel awful ) I don't have the cash for Rehab centers - Iv been looking for a church group