Hello Wordsweapons. Welcome to the forum. You can start a taper yourself. When you first started the clinic and was on100mg when you tapered did you feel it? A lot of peps that get on the higher doses do not feel the drop till around 50mgs our so with a taper.. We are all different but it is a way off this amount and back to your maintenance dose Once there you may decide to continue. Dealing with the bathroom the nodding when sitting The lack of emotions being chained to home It all gets old. You can do this you can get back Just set your mind to do what is in yours and your family's best interest.. Take care, lesa
Just wondering....perhaps it's subconciously....but this is what you posted.....
"It's strange. I really want to not be free from this ball n chain but I just don't do a damn thing about it."
I really want to NOT be free....
What are you looking to do? Are you wanting to get off of methadone all together? Get your life back? From reading what you wrote I see that the "down time" will be an issue for you, however, you can't get off the meds without going down for a little while. You can talk to your dr and make a taper plan, long and slow.....
You must make a plan and you MUST have support! I told my family and they rallied around me.....kids don't stop us from using, so they can't be our reason to not quit! It will be hard, and you will feel "lousy" for awhile, but these are ALL temporary! We eventually get better. I and others I'm sure would totally help you with a plan to accomplish this! Post again!