Hey all,
I have not posted in a few days because of a little setback. I will refresh everyone, I have been taking hydros for about 5 years, and my habit had peaked at 9-1/2 10mg pills per day for about the past two years. I decided to start a taper, and I began it on December 11th, and had a schedule written out that would have me tapering until January 12th when I would be pill free. I had informed all of my friends, family, and employees of my taper, and I completely cut of my pill supplier. Everything was going as good as possible and this past Monday, I was at the 5 pills per day portion of my taper (almost half of my peak intake).
So, life kicks in, and this past Monday evening, I was getting ready for bed, and I needed to unplug the Christmas light on our house, well, while I was unplugging the lights, I realized I had not checked the mail, so in my jeans and a t-shirt, I decided to RUN down the stairs that lead out of our front door and to our driveway and the mailbox. You know the rest, I missed a stair and tumbled. Went to the emergency room, and I have two sprained wrists and one broken Fibula. The fibula is broken in a way that my tendon is wedged between the two pieces of broken bone. I have no choice but to have surgery which is scheduled for January 4th. I cannot walk at all, and I have a knee scooter to get around ( I cannot use crutches because of my sprained wrists).
So, now for the kind of good news, I could have easily used this incident to justify becoming a pill junkie to the extreme again, but I decided, that I would pause my taper where it is, and not go above five pills per day until I have my surgery. I am in some pretty hefty pain now, but if I elevate my leg and chill out on the couch, I can deal with it. I know I have some major pain coming up after the surgery, but I will deal with it with as little pain medication as absolutely possible. I am absolutely committed to not letting this accident take away my desire and resolve to be pill free.
Now more than ever I need the support of this forum. I have never had surgery before, and I am a little freaked out about that. And of course, I have read the horror stories on this forum about people having surgery and becoming totally dependent on pain pills to function. I do not want that in any way shape or form. Anyone had a similar incident to mine, where you were on the way to recovery and hit a stumbling block (no pun intended!)?
Life is awfully ironic sometimes. The one time in my life where I have a legitimate need for pain medication and I cannot allow myself to take full advantage of the pain meds because of my past abuse and desire to become pill free.
Thats it for now, I need to go elevate my leg and enjoy the camping out on the couch I get to do this weekend. It is snowing like crazy here in Oklahoma City, a beautiful snowy Christmas Eve, so, I will enjoy that as much as I can and dream about my life in what I hope is a few weeks, when I can be opiate free, and in a couple of months when I will be able to walk again.
Merry Christmas everyone!
Michael