When I was told at 50 years old that I had ADD, it really made me feel less, angry, and other emotions. After all, I had been a decorated infantry soldier in Vietnam, attended 7 years of grad and post grad studies, and had been promoted beyond my expectations within my field. Feeling low, I didn't offer any contradiction of the doctor"s findings. Being a product of the late 60's, having used many drugs in my youth, what we called speed was one of them. Having the knowledge of what is given to a person with ADD, I gladly took the medication ordered called Adderall. For years I have been taking this medication simply to use as a tool for being alert and wide awake. This in it's self proved that I didn't really have ADD. If I really had this problem, the Adderall would have not given me the stimulant feeling I receive. I'm needing advise concerning this problem of needing Adderall everyday to function. Never have I had any type of side effects that others have mentioned, except for my hands shaking at times. My problem is something that just doesn't go away. When I don't have Adderall, the only energy I have is to just set on the couch. I become so empty of energy that I don't feel like doing something as simple as turning on the computer. I've gone without it for longer than 10 days and still don't feel very much pep at all. I'm not wanting to live like this any longer, even if I get them from the doctor every month. Have I crossed a line that will not allow my body to produce it's natural strength? If I don't take this medication it is all I can do to stay awake, and I don't feel like talking with any friend I have. Since I have been rated as a 100% disabled vet and no longer work a job. I can get by with these feelings of no power to move from one room to another. Nevertheless, I want my natural ability to stay awake like I used to have.