About 32 hours off oxymorphone

[HadEnough0920]

I flushed my pills yesterday morning and got on 5mg oxycodone from my doc to continue my taper.  I don't think it's helping.  I got some sleep with the help of Clonodine, but I feel awful anyhow.  I'm angry, grouchy, and just want to be left alone, which is not possible here.  I'm about to try a shower to see if that helps any.  I can't believe I let this happen to myself.  I thought I was smarter than that.  Good lord.  I know the worst is yet to come too.

[raww]

dude i soooo know what you mean about the opana! i take 2 15 opana and 2 -3 10 mg perks for my back and every now and then i will run short on my opana. and boy oh boy do i hate it. even with the perks i still wd. so i think i am going to go ahead with the surgery so i can hopefully kick all these pills.

[asms1108]

how can you blame yourself! I'm suffering from RSD and can have ANY pill I want. I trusted my dr. to "do no harm."
well now i'm on the same level of meds as a stage 4 cancer patient, my teeth are falling out and my bones are like straw from the meds leaching the calcum out. (did i happen to mention that i'm 39?)
last year i tripped and fell, not big, just a simple trip over the edge of my carpet. i stuck my hand out to break my fall. i completely shattered the ball and socked joint in my elbow. nothing was left. after 2 surgeries i have 10% usage in that arm.
when i was first diagnosed, i was scared and everything moved so fast. by the time i knew i had ANY other option...i'm sure you can figure out the rest. i was never told that any of these things could and will happen to me.
i'm not writing this for sympthy but to inform.  i wish everyone luck

[Miss_Creative]

I hope you are getting some relief with the Clonodine and Klonopin. I'm sorry you're in pain :( You are doing great though (words can be cheap, I know) Hang in there. Wishing you the best right now, and a quick recovery from all this.  

[HadEnough0920]

Also took 20 more mg of lope.  My stomach hurts like heck.  Wife is trying to force me to eat some chicken noodle soup.  I can't believe I feel this bad when I'm using another opiate to detox.  I underestimated the strength if Opana.  FWIW, I found a pill on the garage floor.  I thought about snorting it, then ran inside and flushed it before I could think about it more.  Sites like bluelight have a ton of info on Opana, and none of its good unless you like being really high.  The WD stories are really scary.  

I think the Clonodine and Klonopin are kicking in.  May try to rest my huge self in the bathtub.  It's comical trying to get in there, being 6'2".  Water doesn't even cover me.  Legs hanging out or on the side.  Wish I had a book.  Reading about detox is getting depressing.  Funny how when we feel good, time flies.  When we are so ill, it seems to never move.  

Bless you all who have done this and come out the other side.  I keep thinking about the children I want, and being a good husband again.  My wife can be tough, but I love her more than anything, and I will do right by her, even if I have to pass through Hell to get there.  It's looking like I will.  No flu I've ever had felt like this.  

Opana...just don't do it.  Stay on oxy or hydros.  This is a different beast.  Thanks for sticking by my side everyone.  I need all of you.

[HadEnough0920]

Should not have gone out.  Took some Clonodine and Klonopin, hoping to rest some.  Feels like I'm being skinned alive.  I keep telling myself its temporary.  Only a few more days.  Worst place I've ever been in my life.

[FourJays]

You are doing the right thing, and you will make it through this.  Just know that it will get better.  Keep posting.

[HadEnough0920]

Too big for my tub, not totally.  Darn autocorrect!

[HadEnough0920]

I just drank almost a full bottle of Immodium.  Stomach issues and I heard it may help with WDs.  Shower was good while I was in there.  I'm totally for my tub, and my hot tub isn't working right.  I'm supposed to go out in an hour.  Gonna have to force myself.  I warned the wife but she's pissed at me and doesn't understand.  Thinking of staying at my parents place for a few days.  Percs are helping a tad.  Drinking lots of Gatorade and taking stuff from our favorite recipe.  Hopefully only a few more days...

[selfinduced]

One foot forward is great. As you know, it will take some work but be the best thing you've ever done for yourself and family . Keep posting......Keep putting one foot in front of the other with this detox, you'll get there.

[ActingBrandNew]

Shower may help...if you have a tub, try a warm bath. Your doing the right thing! Stay plugged in to this site.

[ricart70]

Great job.  I think this was a very good idea switching .Hope you feel better soon