Addicted to Adderall

[WishOnAStar22]

I started taking these a few months ago and immediately started to abuse them. I just took two right off the bat thinking no harm done, and I got a very intense high. I loved it. More than anything I had ever done. Cocaine SUCKED in comparison. I could focus ALL DAY on various things. Life was interesting. There was so much to say, so much to think about. I literally loved being alive. But in reality I was in a drug induced stupor. 48 hours would float by and I would not have much recollection unless I did something other than sit online. And most times that's all I did. I did not like being in public on it or talking on the phone. I didn't want anyone to know I was messed up. Panic attacks and confusion with vomiting and irregular heart beat sent me to the ER twice. I spent 3 days in a psych ward because doctors thought me a danger to myself. They day I got out I popped another one. In fact, I got it out of my bag and popped it IN the psych ward. Anyway. after a scary night of chest pain, arm pain and more heart arrythmias, I threw out the pills. Told my psych doc NO MORE. I am done with drugging my poor heart and body like this. I am young and have a lot to do in life. I don't want to die before I have a chance to enjoy what could be MUCH MUCH happier times. REAL happiness!! I just pray I have not done too much cardiac damage. Peace!!!

[fishlips1993]

I am a highschool senior and i have been on medications for ADD since my sophmore year.  I was originally on the drug Concerta, but I didn't really like the way it affected me.  Of course i loved that my grades went up from mostly B's to straight A's, but I found myself becoming antisocial, easily aggitated, moody, and depressed.  I took the pills every morning before school for almost a year.  During the school day i would not eat much,usually a piece of fruit or snacks that i scavenged from my friends.  My junior year i stopped eating all together during the day and the side affects seemed to become stronger. I have always been very thin, but that year i went from being 135 lbs (i am 5 ft 8) to 120 lbs.  A few months ago i told my mom that i wanted to switch to adderall because some of my friends are on it and they seem to be have less side affects than i experience.  I started taking 20mg a day of the stuff before school, instead of my usual 36mg of Concerta.  At first, i felt amazingggg!! I still had the focus affects of the Concerta, but i was much more talkative and happier.  Now, it has been about a month since i started taking the drug and i feel like something is wrong.  Around three o clock (when the pill wears off) I feel very aggitated and moody.  At night i have recently been feeling very depressed and sad...and i am wondering if it is because of the adderall.  I want to stop taking it but i cannot stay awake during the school day without it, unless i chug a grande latte and later **** my brains out.  I just need to know how long the adderall stays in your system/ withdrawl symptoms and what they are. Please help!!

[worried878]

I was reading a research article on the amount of adderall/ritilin that is prescribed to our kids here in the states...it is astronomical and the psychological addiction to amphetamines can be tough...like cocaine...i am gald u have decided to be drug free...congratulations and keep posting

[10356]

Welcome to the forum and congratulations on getting rid of the addies I took those for awhile as I had a friend that also got them from her Dr. Must say I don't remember most of it as they would wipe the memory most of the time.. Happy to read you want to live and be happy :)

[WishOnAStar22]

I think it was ridiculous the psych ward actually gave me back the same pills I overdosed on. Is that some kind of legal obligation that they have to do? Of course, at the time I wanted them. I was depressed and in withdrawals. But I just about made a round trip back, or worse yet to the morgue.