Addicted to hydrocodone

[taffy1020]

I am addicted to Hydrocodone.  It's my daily goal to get them, and make sure I have enough to last through the day.....when I don't, I freak!  I have been addicted for about two years now.  I had found out that my oldest daughter had been molested at age five while Spending a summer at her grandmother's house.  A friend gave me a Vicodin 10-650, (which we call "blues" up here).  I had so much energy after taking that pill, and I had never felt better in my life!!  It seemed like all my cares went away, and life was easier to deal with. I was hooked.  I started buying them off the street daily, increasing from 1-2 pills per day to about 10 or more pills a day.  This became an expensive habbit.  My husband is so upset with me all the time.  He works hard and makes good money for our family.  I spend all the extra money we have on my "addiction".  We've been married nine years, and he said the time is coming that I will have to choose between him and the pills.........at this point I don't know what to do.   At times I want to get off the pills, then at other times, i can't imagine my life w/o them....All my friends are into the same thing as me, and it seems as though I would lose everything.  I'm 29 yrs old, and need to get off these expensive damn drugs!!  Our kids don't go without, we make good money, but it's just we haven't had no extra money for vacations...the past two summers we have stayed close to home.  I have been w/o Hydro's for about a day or two and I felt horrible!! I had excessive Diarrea, migrane headaches, and Man was i moody!!  I refuse to go to a doctor, I don't want any of my family members to know about my addiction, I guess I'm looking for an easy way out.  I know there is no easy way when you are going through dt's, just have to suck it up and do it, but with kids and a husband it will be hard...........anyone out there in this situation??

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

You have gotten good advice. Not a lot that I can add to it.  But I will observe that there is no easy way out........That you would have a much easier time and chance of success with professional help.......And that your husband should be in the loop with you....These pills were never intended for energy. And they are not antidepressants. And they are not your friends.   Good luck with all...........keep posting with questions that you might have....

[dominosarah]

Hi.....the pain you are feeling now is nothing compared to what you will endure if you keep using.  There is no easy way out.  We have all been in your shoes and know what you are going thru.  This addiction will kill you and that is the bottom line here.  I am not trying to scare you just stating the cold hard facts.  You are on the verge of losing everything in your life and you will.  The pills are not your friends......nor are the ones you hang out with.  The only thing you all share is your using.  Look into NA or AA....You will need some sort of aftercare to help you figure out why you are using.  We have to get real and honest with ourselves.  You have to want to get off these pills for YOU.....not your husband or your kids....YOU.  Life is so much better off them.  Fear kept me down for years and years.  Dont be afraid......we will help you and be here to support you.          sara

[salsinator]

Hi Taffy,  you are taking the first step my admitting you have a problem and posting on this site.  There are people just like you on this site in the exact same situation that are here to help and support you.  If you truely want to get clean, you will need to make some significant lifestyle changes, of which one will be to stop hanging out with friends who use.  Even if you stop using, the chances of relapse will be very high if you are still associating with people who use.  You are also going to have to be honest with those closest to you about your addiction, they can help and support you on your road to recovery.  If you have a doctor or therapist that you can talk to, that would be a good first step, there are options available so you don't have to suffer so much through the detox.  Start with some real soul searching and go where your heart tells you.  Best of luck to you.