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Addicted to lortabs..social anxiety

I take 6-8 lortabs per day 2 at a time I've never admitted it to anyone and I have a 4 month old baby and my husband is deployed. I've been diagnosed with anxiety and depression but I think it all stems from my lortab addiction. I went from taking 12-15 a day 3 at a time and I'm now down to 6.. I'm really afraid to tell my doctor to get help because I've been told by my parents that if I even told someone about my anxiety that I could have my child taken away so they have instilled this in my head that if I admit it my child could possibly be taken from me? I live an average every day life I take care of my child but I'm so ashamed and scared of what would happen if I seek help?? I no longer even get any enjoyment from the pills I just get major anxiety and the fear of dying from an overdose even after only the first dose of two pills I feel that same anxiety and panic. Will my doctor accept me and help or will it possibly get my child taken from me?
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5039239 tn?1364024671
Not true what your mom says. I have anxiety and take meds and they didn;t want to take away my child. The right thing to do is take a non addictive medicine for anxiety. Lots of people have anxiety problems and live taking medicine. With the right non addictive medicine, I live a very proper life. I am very responsible and functional. As long as your child is loved, has lots of food to eat and a good home to live in, that is what is required. You can go to any doctor you want if you want to stay private about your personal life. If people are going to be negative about taking care of yourself with doctors orders, then maybe you shouldn;t discuss it with them. It will just upset you and cause you anxiety. Go to town and see a doctor and tell them the truth, you are being a good mom, if you take care of the problems and get on a proper med for your anxiety. Listen to the doctors advice, they helped me and I trust them. They shouldn't want you on an addictive drug and you can ask for something safe.
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4522800 tn?1470325834
Hi and Welcome..From my experience I found a big weight lifted when I told my Hub & Family..Also my Dr..The honesty got me alot of respect from him..The things you say about not wanting to be around people, places and things, and isolating your self..This is the things we learn in the AA/NA..They say it is a sign of getting deeper into the addiction..Many people use Substances because of Anxiety or Depression..I feel you should really, really talk to the DR..You might need the right medication for this issue..The opiates are not the ones to use for this..OK..Just be Honest..You will be much happier in the long run..
May the Lord be with..
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5347058 tn?1381188426
Thank you!
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5347058 tn?1381188426
I am glad that you found this forum. You have to have some sort of support. There are so many great, knowledgeable people on here and everyone is very supportive. I understand what you are going through with the isolation, My bf is a truck driver and I go out on the road with him for months at a time. Can be very lonely. This forum has been such a blessing. It's nice to have so many people who are either going through or have been through what you're going through. Please stick around here and feel free to message me anytime.
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Btw, congratulations on your 6th day that's something to be very proud of!!
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Thanks guys...and yes I've battled with anxiety and depression for a good while now..I tried to do something about it a few years ago but the medicine gave me bad migraines and so tired that I didn't want to do anything so I got it in my head that it was doing more harm than good so I didn't even give it enough weeks to get in my system to see if it was working! I always just thought I was really shy but I eventually realized that how I was wasn't normal..I would get so nervous and freaked out to even hang out with people I've known my whole life..now since I've went on my downward spiral the lortabs are now working against me instead of "helping" me to loosen up and I've cut myself off from almost everyone in my life..I don't hang out with friends I don't leave the house unless its going to the grocery store..sometimes I just feel like I'm just lazy but I know that's not true because I use to live getting out even if it was just riding around listening to music! Now I'm disconnected from the entire world, my husband has no idea and I will not tell him because he doesn't need to worry about anything at home..I've been tapering for about 4 weeks or so now..I'm down to 4-6 but usually 6 a day..and it's not something to be proud of because even though I tapered I still think about them and stress about them all of the time. I have been to a counselor but again I've talked to her about everything but my addiction because I am so afraid that they will get dfcs involved and I can't risk it..my husband has been deployed since January.
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1235186 tn?1656987798
hello and welcome. you have done a good job on tapering down. yes your deceased dose would definitely add to your anxiety. did you have any anxiety and or depression before your started to use the loratabs? or before the birth of your child?
continue to decease your loratab intake. how long have you been tapering for?
can you go for some counseling?
how long has your husband been deployed?
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5347058 tn?1381188426
Welcome by the way! I am currently on my 6th day off vicodin so I understand what you are going through. Don't ever let people make you feel like you are "crazy" because you have anxiety. Millions and millions of people suffer from anxiety. You really need to see your dr. and get some help even if its just counseling. It sounds like you have a lot to deal with right now with the new baby and your husband not being around to help. And it doesn't sound like you have a good support system with your family. Sounds like enough to make anyone super stressed and anxious!
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I'm from a very small town my parents are very one track close minded people and they consider anxiety and depression being "nuts" they make jokes about it all the time I don't really let it bother me..or atleast I try not To because the last thing i need is another worry. One night a few weeks ago I had a complete breakdown because my baby wouldn't stop crying and I had to put her down and run away to another room because I found myself getting so frustrated I couldn't be around her and it broke my heart that I got irritated with her and it scared the hell out of me that I felt that way so I did go to the doctor the next day and he did tell me it was post partum and prescribed an antidepressant and something for my anxiety he put me on celexa and klonopin but I am so scared of mixing the drugs with the lortabs that I just stopped taking the celexa and klonopin and I just suffer through my anxiety attacks..I've had to learn to cope on my own and I haven't been able to completely let go of thinking I need the lortab to get through the day..that's why I'm here..I'm just really ashamed of what I've gotten myself into I use to be so happy and now all I feel is guilt because I want to give my child the world and I know I can't as long as I keep this up..it's only making my anxiety worse because I am so afraid that somehow I'm going to die from it or stop breathing in my sleep so I don't really sleep much..I'm just completely miserable and something's gotta give..I've been buying off the street my anxiety has partially been why I've cut back as much as I have because at one point I got up to taking 15-18 a day..but that little girl is my number one reason why I want to get my life back
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5347058 tn?1381188426
No one is going to take your baby away for doing what's best for you and getting help. There is always the possibility of having a child taken away if you continue with your drug addiction. Please don't be scared to get help for your addiction or your anxiety. You have to take care of yourself so you can be the best mamma possible to that baby.
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5363981 tn?1366932820
First I have a few questions. 1. Why would someone take away your baby if you have anxiety? 2. When did they tell you that?  3. Why did they tell you that?  Honey you are going through so much at this point in your life.  Where are you getting the loratabs? Streets?  You could be going through postpardem which would add to your anxiety, your husband is not there for support, your parents are telling you a lie, you are just admitting to having a problem th pills.  you need to talk to someone even if it is on here.  I am here If you need anything.  Take a breath and a ew days and figure what you want to do.  You can kick the habit but u really need to talk to the dr abot the anxiety and depression.  If nome find someone to talk to.  PLEASE!!!
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