60 hours and counting

[Pat1956100]

Day 3 and I am still fighting this battle.  Hopefully for the last time.  I am sooooo exhausted even though I have been sleeping thanks to a little bit of ativan.  Much more emotional this time but the actual physical isn't as bad except for day 1.  I keep waiting for all hell to break loose.  Really foggy and sick feeling but the intense feelings haven't hit again since day 1.  Weird dreams, weird, weird, weird.  People from my past are haunting me.
Piles of cocaine, something I didn't even do much of in my younger days.  
Crazy brain is kicking in.  I want my mommy.

[Isis7]

Dear Pat,

I have just joined this forum and I am beginning my day one, I am really happy to know your doing it and it will get better for you. I have been down this road before and came back to the dragons again. Any support you need I am reaching out my hand to all, Wish me luch and all the best to you...

You can do it....
P.S if and when you can read "IF" by Rudyard Kipling, it's become my theme song through this.....

[selfinduced]

Hey Pat, Your in the clear so to speak, Yeah , it's funny I used to resent reading "woohoo" type of post about being over day 3......envy, envy terrible trait. Look at you know! Keep it up and let the emotions flow, good for the soul. You've inspired many, hang in there.

[Pat1956100]

Thanks everyone.
Still foggy and yucky today but other than day 1 it hasn't been too bad.
I have been getting sleep but waking up feeling exhausted.  
Of course I am much more emotional this time but it's not supposed to be easy.  It's a really hard thing to do and I am proud that I have made it this far again.  Day 4 already.  I would have paid everything I had to be on day 4 of this process and here I am.
I think I can only get better and stronger from here so I am so pleased to be on this side of day 3 lol.
The hardest part of withdrawing is the fear.  We work ourselves up into such a state and I don't think it's ever as bad as our fear.
Hang in there everyone who is fighting this battle.  You can do it.

[LosingPete]

Hi Pat your gonna make it this time! So excited for you. You are about to turn the corner for all the wacky wds to start going away. Try to relax and know now each and every day will get better for you.

[NowOrNever43]

Pat, how are you doing today? I hope today is better than yesterday for you. Thinking of you. I just took my last pill and going to start the process again. Let me know how you are doing! Thinking of you today!

[minn66]

Good morning, Pat, up even before the butt-crack of dawn, as usual ;) In my younger years I would never have dreamed I would be one of those who wakes up at 4:30 every morning. I guess that is better than hitting the snooze button ten times before struggling out of bed and worrying about being late for work. Anyhoo, have a few minutes to check out the forum before getting ready for work so just wanted to check on you and let you know I'll be thinking about you today. Hope you are getting some rest and have a better day.

Big hugs,

Minn

[selfinduced]

G'morning! Hope your waking feeling stronger and more balanced. Your over the hump now.......keep it going!

[Dixiechick72]

Lol get um pat!!! We got this. Were doing good. I'm doing hand pushes in the air for u!!! Woo hoo

[minn66]

I've missed you, too. I really have. We think alike, you and I. I can just picture us getting together for lunch. People would think we're loco! You get him with that gun, girl! I got both my boss and his boss today ;) People gotta learn they don't mess with the Secret Detoxers! We're on a mission and we won't let anyone or anything get in our way!

[Pat1956100]

Hi minn,  I have missed you.   I am shooting this spammer with my guns right now.  Feels good.

[minn66]

Hi dear Pat, I think the crazy dreams are a part of it. I had my share of them, that's for sure. I'm glad you weren't out on a walk when it hit. Boy, when it hits, it hits hard and sudden! I'm thinking of you. I know it's tough, yet you have goals and things to look forward to.

Big hugs,

Minn

[Pat1956100]

avi if you really had been reading our posts you would see it's not making it through without a drink.  STop spamming us.  Grrrrr.  

[Free2agoodhome]

hang in pat...read a book,,,,go for a walk,,,drive to nowhere...walk around kmart/wallmart,,,anything...do not sit there with your thoughts,,,,what your feeling is very temporary..the body will heal..u wait and see,,,,rooting for ya kiddo....

[Pat1956100]

This feels like a marathon and we hit walls but somehow find the strength to keep going.  It feels so good after we run through each wall.  I want the gold.

[NowOrNever43]

Pat, congrats on day 3! So happy for you! Keep going girl, you've got this!

[thewaz]

Congratulations on 3 days.  You should be so proud of you.  Today is my 13th after 9 years of hydro abuse.  At the 3 day mark I was pretty much crazy.  And what helped me was an hourly chart.  My first goal was 120 hours (5 days).  And each hour would bring me closer.  When I passed the half way mark, which you have, I was so proud.  Such a journey this has been for me. Personally, physically, emotionally.  I, too, have had the oddest of dreams and as was said above, you are sleeping without being totally drugged.  Your brain will slowly (very slowly) start to awaken.  I'm having really good dreams. My sleep pattern is totally screwed up but I let my body tell me what it wants.  Yesterday I fell asleep at 5:30 pm and woke up at 1 am this morning.  I've been up since.  You are doing great.  Try to take a long hot bath before you tuck yourself in.  I played very soothing sleepy time music through my iPod.  Hypnotic music for putting insomniacs to sleep.  Try to find a peace.  Drink some sleepy time tea.  Deep breaths in and out.  I pray for a restful night for you..

[Pat1956100]

On it's way eva.  Hey girl.  This is day 1 for you.  Congrats.  So proud of you.

[gnarly_1]

HI hey hang in there you just about got this thing beat as for the mental part check out N/A or one of the other support groups this is not ment to do alone the outside support will help alot keep posting for support and hang in there when this is threw you wont be chained to a pill bottle any more good luck and God bless.......Gnarly

[Pat1956100]

Wow, did I speak to soon.  All hell did break loose.  Imodium time.  I'm glad I wasn't out for that walk.  Everything comes on so fast in this crazy process.
Be grateful for every moment you feel well and I am thinking of all the days ahead of me that I am going to feel well.  I can hardly wait to wake up and feel like a normal human being.  I am going to enjoy this summer.  I am going to visit my family.  I am going to visit my son whether he likes it or not lol.
I am going to erase all the sadness from my past and create a happy future. I watch tv and think all those people that are up and dressed and doing things should be so proud of themselves.  Simple things like that.  That's what I want.  That's what these pills have robbed me of.
I want a life.  Just a plain old life.

[smiles4eva]

Yay Pat so happy for you!  Keep up the great work! Minn said you would overnight me a package.  I would like to request a big plastic hand to smack the people in line who had 120 items not 20 :)

[Dixiechick72]

Hey pat. Still thinking of u. Hoped to make u laugh. Guess what cruel thing life did to help my already emotional day.... My cycle decided to start today!!! Lmbo. Really??!!! Today right. Gotta love it. Just keep smiling and laughing. We got this down!!! Woo hoo!!!

[10356]

Hey Pat Congrats on day 3 !! Those crazy dreams a lot of us have experienced.. Your brain is waling up !!! Try not too look for symptoms ok If you are spending your day waiting for them to kick in this is going to be rough.. I know you are exhausted but how about trying a lil walk in the fresh air.. It will be good for you :) I did not want my mommy while detoxing she would have told me to get my asss up and get to work lol lol not the mommy type she was :) I only say a lil walk lol lol :)) You keep thinking this will pass, this will pass. it is a small price to pay for my Freedom...... sending a comforting hug :) lesa

[ribs2k]

Hang in there Pat sounds like you are doing fairly well. Keep your chin up. I start the Tramadol cold turkey saturday, so I will be starting at day 1 too. We can do it.
Randy

[Dixiechick72]

Pat ur the other one on my mind. How are u?? Sounds like ur hanging in there. We got this down!!  I believe our emotions are coming out cause omg were feeling again.  So just keep posting ... We can do this. I've been drained today but still fighting. Keep it up!!!! Yeah day 3 woo hoo