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So I decided I really need to get my *** in gear for aftercare as I really have not done a thing except post on here. I told my husband I thought I needed to go to some groups or something. The problem I have is this: I an a Social Worker, worked at the Inpatient Clinic several years ago, and I am freaking SCARED to attend any groups around the area for fear I will be recognized by past clients as well as current ones from the job I do now. I mean I would freakin die if I ran into someone. I ran into a current client at the Pain and Addiction Center where I used to go for my Suboxone. That was embarrassing. I know I shouldn't feel that way, but I do. I almost feel like my private life was breached. If it were just someone I knew I think I would be okay with that, but a client.....UGH. Anyway any input you guys have would be helpful. I certainly don't want to relapse.
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Funny you say that, my very good friend had said the same thing to me. She said something like, if everyone wants to get in the boat and some people are struggling, are you going to act like you don't need a life preserver and risk drowning, just so no one knows you can't swim. I may have gotten that a little wrong... but anyway it made sense to me. LOL I plan on stickin around here for sure. It's all I have had so far and it's been a great help.
I don't go to my first meeting until next Weds.
I don't go to my first meeting until next Weds.
You may be surprised at who YOU see at meetings. Either way its a relief finding out that regular people from all walks of life can be effected and have the same experiances that you may have. I totally understand your fears but like they say "you cant save your azz and your face at the same time", things are gonna work out and whatever you decide plz stay in the forum where you feel comfortable. Remember that being an addict is different then being a recoverying addict.
Thank you, Thank you, msdelight! That is great information! Also, great advice! I think this is what I will do!
Sorry Brandi, for the accidental hijack of your thread.
Sorry Brandi, for the accidental hijack of your thread.
Sonrissa hi honey I'm sorry that you are going through this. Honey no one should have to suffer in pain! Pain from a fracture is extreme, and you will continue to require some form of pain relief short term post op. That said, dilaudid is a very strong highly addictive med, it is stronger than other meds they could give. It's synthetic morphine and H addicts love it . On the scale of strength, least is Vicodin (hydrocodone). Next is percocet (oxycodone), roxys (oxycontin ) and then dilaudid (hydromorphone) and then morphine and heroin. Get your doc ti give you ibuprofen 800mg tabs and some Vicodin. Use both in tandem and find what works. Roommate can hold the vics. Ibuprofen is an antiimflatory and that will help too! After surgery decrease Vicodin usage as the pain improves, and then taper. Good luck my friend and feel free to PM me. I know a lot about surgery! With love.
Brandi girl I am so proud of you!! Every one is so right! I just wanted to add that when you walk in there, hold your head high!! You are not admitting defeat, YOU ARE PROCLAIMING VICTORY! You are a winner! Almost 60 days and you are doing so well! Shake those purple locks and own it! You da girl!
Great news! Looking forward to hearing about your experience. 10 minutes away. That's great! I couldn't believe how many meetings were close to home. If you guys ever go to Hawaii there is a meeting called 12 Coconuts on Waikiki Beach every morning at 7:30. You'll be amazed, they're everywhere you go. That list IBK turned you on to will get you there. Next year we've booked a vacation in Michigan's upper Peninsula pretty much in the middle of nowhere in the Hiawatha National Forest. I bet I'll find a meeting somewhere up there.
Okay friends, I found a meeting to go to which is held on Wednesday nights about 10 minutes away. I plan on going, since it's nearly a week away I think my anxiety level mite diminish about going by then. I told my husband I was committed to going and not to let me make any excuses about it! Of course I plan on sharing after I go. Thanks again friends.. and big thank you to IBKleen for the meeting locator!
Here is the link to the meeting locator:
http://portaltools.na.org/portaltools/MeetingLoc/
BTW, yes you can sit and just listen. In fact, I suggest it in the beginning until you find your knitch but NA (and AA) are fellowships. Participation will be essential in order to continue your recovery.
Let us know how you make out.
http://portaltools.na.org/portaltools/MeetingLoc/
BTW, yes you can sit and just listen. In fact, I suggest it in the beginning until you find your knitch but NA (and AA) are fellowships. Participation will be essential in order to continue your recovery.
Let us know how you make out.
Okay....I'm nervous as hell, but you all have given me the strength, so I'm gonna call around for times and locations. Putting my pride aside and going for it. Thanks!
You don't have to share if you don't want to. Look up a meeting schedule in your area; some are speaker, some are open discussion, some are step meetings. Usually they ask newcomers or visitors to introduce themselves.
I was so nervous going back after my relapse and I was welcomed with open arms. I'm sure you will be too. People in meetings, just like on this site; love us until we can love ourselves.
I was so nervous going back after my relapse and I was welcomed with open arms. I'm sure you will be too. People in meetings, just like on this site; love us until we can love ourselves.
So when I go to these meetings I don't have to say anything if I don't wanna? How do they actually work?
I am tearing up reading your post! Yes, your right I want to live, and no longer be a slave to pills. I think I needed the different perspectives you all have, and flipped it around for me. However, being the Type A personality I am, its gonna be really hard to walk in there admitting defeat in front of everyone there. I know they shouldn't say anything when they leave there just as I am not to speak about my clients. But I could lose my job for that, they don't have anything governing them. It's just so scary.
My husband thinks it's pride that will be my downfall. I know in my heart that my recovery is more important than anything, I really do. I think I'm still embarrassed this happened to me. You, my friends are really the only ones I have opened up to about this. I have only disclosed to 3 people at work and 2 close friends outside of work. How do I get a sponsor? I am thinking about driving 45 minutes to another city, but that seems ridiculous. I think I would be uncomfortable. I just don't know and it scares me.
I drive a wrapped vehicle for my job with my company logo all over it (big advertising; it's crazy)- I use it personallyas well- and no one has ever said anything about it at meetings nor has it gotten back to my boss. Meetings are a safe place for us; Rosy aand Ricart both made great points.
I love this site as well, but need face time with recovering people and my sponsor. I can't go to many, but it truly does help.
I love this site as well, but need face time with recovering people and my sponsor. I can't go to many, but it truly does help.
And they are a "what happens here, stays here" mentality... Pride cometh before the fall (as my sponsor loves to tell me.) Your recovery is more important than any person you may see at a meeting... I KNOW exactly where you are coming from tho... Truly...
Well that may give you even more credibility with the clients,knowing you have been there . It is all up to you though. The people at the meeting don't have to know how long you have been clean or anything else unless you tell them. People go to meetings for all sorts of different reasons.
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I was cautious at first and practiced complete anonymity, but then I gradually got to the point that I didn't care who knew I was going to AA. You never know Brandi, someone from your past at a meeting could end up the person who helps you the most. It's important to remember our affliction is a disease, not a social problem. We're not bad people, we're good people with a bad disease...that will kill us without treatment.
In a couple of days you'll be clean for two months. Early congratulations for that milestone Brandi. You're making positive steps towards solid recovery. Just the fact that you have the desire to get into aftercare is huge! You want this very badly. That willingness is a lifesaver.