Almost 90 days.......need to hear about others' experiences at this stage

[innocencelost]

I have been away at a spiritual retreat for a month, helped greatly in spite of the anxiety that persisted while there. I have been home now 3 days and all the discordance, loss of initiative etc. has returned full blown. I was so convinced that I was over the "hump" but feel as I did prior to my trip. As indicated, I would really like to hear how others felt at the 90 day benchmark. Thank you all for your support; I apologize for not being much help to others here, just trying to get through these muddy waters and still am not thinking, feeling on track.

[VICourageous]

Hi..This all seem to go in stages..I went from High Anxiety to a very Weak Stage..Then I went into a No Interest Stage..I was feeling better then just about a week (213 days off dones, adderral, klonipin) I had these Emotions I have never been tuned into before..The Weather here is too long and snowy too..Then I would set things up to do but just could not get motivated..Now the last couple of days the Sun is out and I have been just Happy go Lucky..So each an every day there might be a few changes, but it is for the best..So do Bless each day, as each day will get better...OK

[EvolverU]

I'm not sure what you're coming off of but I was/still am definitely having motivational problems and low energy issues at 4 mos. (I came off of 20 yrs. of Methadone/almost 30 for Heroin) That said, it's gotten a lot better in the past month. I just went through a really dark period and I found that getting back into my spirituality (Chi Gong/Meditation/Buddhist & Contemplative prayer) has really helped but I have to push myself. This site has proved to be a miracle for me - a real anchor and lifeline. I have a hard time reaching out for help and accepting it but I'm learning. Giving what little I have to offer has definitely helped.
It sounds like when you were at the retreat - a structured environment - things were easier. Is there anyway you could recreate this type of 'framework' for yourself on the outside? I also found that I had to learn to sit w/ and process a lot of uncomfortable stuff that had been previously masked and had been left undigested over the years due to the drugs. It's a whole new ballgame learning to sit in our own skins without mediating our chemistries. It also takes months and months for our neural pathways to really heal.

[toothfairie]

sounds good to me!  lol  maybe a push is what i need!  

[innocencelost]

Yes, I just saw your post after submitting mine. I'm not working right now and understand that you are tuckered after a long day/week at work.......but sign me up for motivating each other........would be good to be accountable to someone and float ideas.