At this point, I'm at a loss for words. I'm at a loss actually in my heart. It feels weird.......about 2 years ago I came on here to get advice from other recovering addicts ( as I am one!) about my middle son that I found out was shooting heroin.
I find myself here again, with the same son. Hurricane Ida hurt us quite a bit and a tree went through the bedroom of a rental house we have that he, his wife and my grandson live in (rent free, fyi). They moved in with us immediately after the storm. At first I thought it was the stress of the storm that was weighing on him but then things took a turn for the worst. He accused his wife of having an affair and their arguements went on in our house where we could hear everything. Over the last 2 weeks he became psychotic??? He took a break from reality claiming people were putting poison in his coffee and that people were following him. Everytime I try to talk to him about what was happening he would jump in my face yelling. Last night was the last draw and I finally told him I was calling our local coroner's office and having him temporarily committed for 72 hours b/c I swear to God I thought he had lost his mind. I made my youngest son take my grandson upstairs to his bedroom and proceeded to have it out with my son and his wife. It took about 2 hours but I finally got him to admit that he's been withdrawing off of heroin AGAIN since the day after the storm. His wife has been taking valium almost daily and has been nodding out in my living room.
I have managed to surround myself with addicts that ALL need help, my son, my husband, my son's wife..........and NONE OF THEM will listen!!!!! They all think they know? They think if they just remove the drugs all will be ok and I KNOW BETTER!!! That's not how this works! The problem isn't the drugs, it's US! I'm getting ready to make a list of requirements for my son in order for us to help him financially. He wants to go get put on suboxone. I'm freakin petrified since that was the drug I came off of and brought me here to this website. My husband is on suboxone, now my son wants to get on it? My husband can't get off..........we are addicts, with no therapy and ONLY med switching, we are doomed to repeat the same behavior.
I'm lost today........real tired and deflated. N/A in my area is dwindling b/c of Covid and now the hurricane. Just needed to write this down I guess.