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333612 tn?1302886990


It's Greebo here....been lurking, not posting. So-my half a$$ attempts to quit for the last two years have lasted for a few months at a time- but this time it's different. I've got some fairly serious medical stuff going on and have to quit-I want to quit...and I have...and haven't touched anything for 10 days..........I now have a new, lovely WD symptom that I've NEVER had to deal with before..
The anxiety attacks from heck.........I feel like I'm crawling out of my skin-and it gets worse with every day that goes by. I'm used to the 5-7 days of feeling like **** physically, but I've never had this longstanding anxiety. I could just PM my friends here-but I need to take my big girl pill and fess up publically for my sins :-(  Hopefully somebody who is only into this mess of a life by a few months or even years can and will take heed and quit now-I'm a 10 yr abuser with long periods of clean...but like I said-this new symptom is a killer.
I would do almost anything to get rid of this feeling......but use. I've found my rock bottom and it isn't pleasant.
I should know the answer to this but I need to hear from someone else.......Man!! how do I get myself into this mess time and time again!?!...oh wait, I know, I abuse pills.
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199177 tn?1490502134
Girl ,yup its time to pull up the big girl panties and get it done .You know I love you to death but dont want to keep going down this road over and over .I think there are some supplement thats might help.what and how much were you taking hun.exercise might help
271792 tn?1334983257
Welcome back pretty lady!

It is way too late and I am way too tired to beat you up tonight. Maybe tomorrow. LOL

I know this sounds strange but I am glad you hit your bottom before it gets too deep. I hit mine a few times actually and found that my bottom floor had a basement. Not fun but it was what I needed to get to the other side.

Glad to see you and you know I mean that. I am relieved to see you back and when you can, tell me what you are going to do different this time? Tell us. Yes, two years is a long time for you to still be on the merry-go-round and I so worry you will fall off while it is still spinning.

You need to make some changes and you need to do something different this time to stay clean. You are a good, intelligent and funny person and I don't want to see you go down so far that you can't get back up.

I am sorry that the anxiety has gotten to you. Breathe, stop and breathe. The more we go through withdrawal, at least for me, the more different symptoms appear. We can only abuse our bodies and brains for so long when something starts to give. Apparently that is happening to you right now. Many addicts need to take depression or anxiety medication after getting clean and there is no shame in that. It may be as simple as it being a temporary chemical imbalance that can be corrected.

Please, please hang in there and get through this. We are all here for you S and we want you to make it. Be good to yourself hun. It is quiet tonight so be patient with people coming in to advise you. Send me a message when you can. I do miss you!

Big hugs..........
333612 tn?1302886990
I was doing so well for so long!!!....then got hit by a car (long story) jacked up my back-actually was only using the pills as prescribed--but you know us addicts- ....had a 90 pill refill left and if I'm going to be honest-I didn't need the refill. But.........anyway, It was a 10/325 Norco free for all. 90 pills-2.5 days.......I'll be lucky if I get out of this with a liver intact!
Anyway, this anxiety thing has definately freaked me out. I will not live my life taking pills to keep the anxiety away----it's too much. I've really never experienced this particular WD symptom...and it is a killer. I get it-OMG, I get it. This sh*t is going to kill me and I'm done---but it's been 10 days and the anxiety only gets worse.
I know it could go on for weeks-but then I'll feel better right??
I'm so glad you are here today---almost called it's so bad!!
how long...........?
333612 tn?1302886990
Glad to here from you..........yep, my rock bottom had a sub-sub-sub basement---but this new symptom is terrifying. It has really scared me. I can't do this again.....I won't do this again.........the brief haze I get from the pills is not worth this. I guess I never really understood how terrifying this anxiety thing can be.
I have no more sub-basements. I can't go lower than this. It's been 10 days and the shaky, sweaty, anxiety is NOT going away.
I fired my old doctor. got a new one and was REALLY honest. It was hard to do-but I did it. They're on board with me and said no antianxiety pills for at least a month.......they think this is temporary and will go away within the month.
the thought of going that long is killing me..........I'm gonna be doing more than lurking for the next 20 days!
mentally I'm feeling strong and don't want the pills-just want the creepy crawlies to end
199177 tn?1490502134
yes I used to have panic attacks that would wake me in the middle of the night .It would scare me but they let up with a few weeks I took the 5hpt and a magnesium/calcium supplement b6 and b12 IT WILL GO AWAY I know there are supplement strictly to help anxiety I hope hoping someone will chime in .If not I will find it ...
333612 tn?1302886990
I'm so glad to talk to my friends..............I was doing so well and kept thinking 'oh, I'll check in tomorrow' and tomorrow turned into next month and next month turned into the end of the summer and then I fall of the wagon when a car smacks me-I actually used the pills for the pain, a total of 30 and flushed the rest.....I made it for a week but the 90 pill refill was too much for me and when I got it and used, I was so ashamed...and then I couldn't check in with you guys because I was so embarrased and ashamed and disgusted.....but then I realized I was also lonely and I needed to admit what I had done to my friends. So, here I am-10 days into being clean (again). The anxiety is new and terrifying and believe me, not a feeling I will soon forget (provided it goes away)

I'm Greatgreebo and I'm a drug addict.................nice to see you all again and please forgive me.
333612 tn?1302886990
I'll get the supplements tomorrow....thank you for not losing faith in me.
If I know it will go away in a few weeks, I'll live
It ***** not knowing when it will stop

199177 tn?1490502134
I wont ever lose faith in you but you have to stay in touch and stop trying to go it alone .Everyone needs help sometimes.:)
333612 tn?1302886990
You both have always been there for me.............no more going it alone.
401095 tn?1351395370
girlie...u were one of the first people to approach me here...and help me get off hydro...u and avisg...and a guy who went on sub and i cant recall his name right now

anyway u helped me lots..u know how to do this so u r reaching out for help...but u know the game plan!   if u r truly at ur rock bottom then u will make it this time...everyone's bottom is different...being frugal/going broke was enuf of a bottom for me///but not everyone...when ur habit exceeds ur scrips...u slowly go broke..tis a fact

I hate this frickin disease...it never goes away..times of stress causes me/and many others/to revert to old behaviors...and i hate that...my life fell apart in the last 2 mths/lost my fiance/my job/my family in a way/and i was being a good lil girl//clean and everything...turned to alcohol//quicjkly realized i was using it like i did the pills..to escape...we r escape artists...and in real life that just dont work..we gotta cope

what r u doing this go around as far as a plan?  I am not sure if u r an aftercare advocate or not

but i love u...and keep me posted

401095 tn?1351395370
his name just came back to me....hopsing
495284 tn?1333897642
I cant really add anything to what they have already told you.....Just wanted to lend you some support.            sara
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