yeah i know how ya feeel....smokin alot helps me...when i was on pills i somked alot but not like i have since i have been off pills....but thats not gonna kill me methadone and oc's were gonna kill me....cant stop smokin my dank
I am on day 25 now.....and I can't say I am depressed....but am just kind of flat and emotionless. Just feels like I am existing....I don't get very high or very low. Getting out for a walk or working out helps for a bit and then I flatten out again.
Hard to explain. I don't like the feeling, but am trying to work through it.
You have done a great job...you should be proud!
Try magnesium for depression....injectable B12 would probably do you some good too. I just ordered some from Canada...i received them in just 4 days...I was impressed!
In my journal I havve some remedies that are all natural if you'd like to check it out.
Oh heck, I forgot about the L-tyrosine! duh! I'm having a major brain fog! lol.. I need to go and get some of that this week.. for sure!
guys, thanks so much for your posts.. I'm relieved that I'm not the only one, but not relieved that someone else is going through this same garbage at the same time.. sucks, but we will get back to normal, eventually.. :D
Thing is, I never abused the Tramadol, but did take it consistently for 3 years straight, 3 a day- never any more, never any less either.. My 6 years 'clean' mark is on the 5th of July.. I was told that being on the Tramadol didn't affect my clean date, considering I didn't abuse them, but my body definitely built such a tolerance to them, that I actually started having tolerance withdrawal! oh my- I knew right then and there it was time to stop.. so I did.. oh yuck! I'll never take another pain med again in my dang life! lol.. too much heartache!
I definitely don't miss being 'out of it' all the time.. and THAT I was, although I was on such a low dose.. but still- it doesn't take much for me, I guess.. I've learned that well..
Once again, thanks so much for the encouragement.. this place never seizes to amaze me! Always something good comes out of posting in here! I love ya guys! :D..
Ttys!
Alli
Angel, it is good to see you again! Depression occasionally, Why yes I do, except it runs together being more like all the time!
There are specific supplements designed for raising the mood. SamE 400mg is one. Rhodiola is another. You didn't mention L-Tyrosine. Some are helped by that too.
Yes I feel depressed, in my third month. The things that pull me out of it alittle are taking the kids on a walk, swim, get up and do housework if I'm at home. Music that isn't depressing. Vitimans exercise, time.
I was explained to by a "professional " that if we put our feelings on a graph and see how we have been living for years as addicts, we would have alot of spikes on the HIGH side and lows too. But now we have to have time for the feeling graph to get back to normal near center.
I hope this helps. I know I will be better with time. This has been a painful process, of withdrawal. I miss them,(PILLS) in my insane moments. God will return me to sanity if I stay clean.
I just posted last night after one of my nightly meltdown complaining of all the same things....before this addiction, no- actually, before the withdrawls, and me quitting, I was a happygolucky girl and now every day I go through all that you described, unfortunately, my sleep has gone backwards a little the past 4-5 nights. I was sleeping fine, and now I can't fall asleep, and I dream uncomfortable dreams about pills, and I wake up in the middle of the night....I totally feel you....I'm sorry that you, I, WE are going through this...I can't wait for it to be done! Normalcy is right around the corner.....RIGHT???!?!?!?!?!??!?!
Long time no see...glad to hear you're moving along!!!
I'm sorry the chantix didn't work out for you...but you will get there.....you were tryign to quit a lot at once...WHEW!!
I can relate to alot of the things you are feeling.....they say...3-6 months minimum to get back on track..maybe more...be patient...you have come so far!!!!
Miss your posts on here!!!!
hi, it does get better. remember how long you abused your body...depriving it of so many things it need and giving so much yuck that it didnt need. stands to reason that it will be awhile before you get back to normal. i have close to 80 days clean, and i still have those feelings some days. my mind will even ask is it worth...we know that answer. give yourself all of the time you need. dont put pressure on yourself to feel a certain way, you will become frustrated, which could lead to you know where lol. it willlllll getttt betterrrr. take care of yourself.
cathy
I just read up on l-theanine ( which is found in green tea). It is sort of like a natural valium. I hate to use that word. I can't remember how they categorized it exatly. The article I read said that after drinking green tea, or taking a supplement of l-theanine, within 30 to 40 minutes most people feel more relaxed. If you google it you will find a wealth of information. I am sorry I am horrible at relaying that sort of information.
It is good to know your not alone, isn't it? I sometimes feel like I am a COMPLETE CASE!!!! LOL
Hey there!
I don't post much at all but I had been wondering how you've been doing.
Yes, yes, yes and yes. Answers to your questions. I have had and am having pretty much all of those symptoms. Sometimes I think it is actually how we really are when we are not on any kind of pain pill. I am currently reading a book referred to me by one of the members here entitled "End Your Addiction Now". It focuses on the need for a more nutritional side of being healthy. (no duh). But it takes it quite a few steps further than just taking a vitamin or eating our veggies. I just started the book, but you may want to check it out.
As for the L5HTP - That stuff made me feel absolutely wretched. Aweful and it took almost a week to get over it. Gotta be careful with even the "natural" remedies.
You mention that sometimes you feel so happy at times but also worry quite a bit. Sounds like me. Maybe these are the reasons we got addicted in the first place.
You are doing absolutely fabulous. Please keep up the good work. I think we need to look at the big picture, like you are doing, and look at the incremental improvements we are making.
This book talks about certain dopamine paks, etc. I will continue to read and share what I find out with you.
Take care and enjoy that snow!!
Hey there girl. I miss you!
I have been experiencing very similar symptoms. I am so glad you posted. I was kind of chicken to. Maybe, more than that, tired of feeling not so good. The moodiness and depression are the worst for me.
Hopefully someone will post and give us a clue.
I am not familer with tramadol, maybe it will just take more time...I am almost 6 months and at 2 months i was still adjusting..
Also, i took the chantix, it made me so sick.....It worked , i never wanted a cigerrette, but i was losing weight ( can't affor that) and so nauseated...
good luck
and glad to hear the headaches are gone...I also have migranes , and i use imitrex, saves my b u t t ...if i take it in time
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