Back from in patient pain killer addiction treatment

[LoveMyKids1]

I posted Last Monday 7/6 about being nervous about going to inpatient treatment for the first time.  Thank you all for so much support.  It was definitely hard being away from my husband and kids for 8days but overall it was worth it.  I was worried about taking suboxone during detox and even more worried about the option of a maintenance prog due to the 2 bulging discs in my back that are getting ready to herniate.  When I first got there, the Doctor, Therapist and Psyciatrist all recommended the maintence prog for pain control bc the next time my back flared up, I would be almost certain to relapse due to the pain.  My goal was to leave the facility on NO meds so I refused this option originally.  Then...my back goes out on Saturday while I was still there so, I was in pain for 3days before finally deciding today to go ahead and go on the maintenance prog. For now, I will be on 8mgs per day until I meet w/ my psyc for her opinion. The taper I was on while detoxing was:

8 days. Started the sub on Mon 7/6 every 4hrs 8mgs, for 2days, then on the 3rd day, 8mgs 4x per day, 4th day 4mgs, 3x per day, 5th day 4mgs 2x per day then 6th day nothing.

At the end I did experience some wd's consisting of extremly painful bone aches (much more painful than the ones from vikes or norcos) but the good thing, I did not have the jitters, or the creepy crawly leg feeling like I couldnt sit still etc... but did have some minor diareah.

Right now I am still feeling pretty positive, the stay was good.  Had some minor complaints but the lectures and learning tools we VERY helpful and motivating.  I am really still processing everything and feeling a little overwhelmed by just getting home.  I would love to hear of anyone elses experiences or opinions as this was my first and hopefully only time going for treatment.  Although I have went thru w/d's NUMEROUS times at home.  I will probably keep posting tonight just bc I came to some realizations and still feeling kind of iffy about them and would appreciate input.
Thanks

[worried878]

congrats...wanting this//to be off the meds is more than alf the battle..it is obvious u want this really bad...stay in touch with ur goals..u will be fine...dont ever let ur goals get away from u..dont ever forget why u went to the detox center...hoping the best for u..keep us updated

[road2recovery]

First congrats on going to treatment....I am very confused on your suboxone, In have never taken it, but i know alot on it or that has been, and that seems like alot to be on and then stop c/t?  
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[mom_of_two136]

Congrats on making through treatment. I also stayed a week at treatment and used it as a springbroad to start my recovery. I started to go to AA and NA meetings and found a group I really liked. I go to AA even though alcohol has not been a problem but they do talk about addiction and finding the solution. And the meeting are free which is a big consideration for me since I am not working. I too have back pain (had surgery a couple years ago - two disc fused) and find that suboxone does help with the pain. I am down to 0.5mg and am thinking about jumping. I am not really in a hurry since it does help with my pain. Do not want to relapse but I feel so much stronger today then a year ago when I started my recovery. Now is the time for you to make positive changes in your life.

I remember after I got home from treatment it was very strained between me and my husband. He had a hard time understanding what I was going through. It took several months and hard work on my part to really turn things around for us. He is now my biggest cheerleader. I think what helped was that he was willing to learn about addiction and understanding I did not choose this disease. I had alot to make up for from all the past lies and dishonesty but today we are so much stronger in are relationship. One thing I did that really helped was that I kept a journal and wrote in it everyday especially when I would go to my AA meetings. It really helped to clear my head and then I would let my husband read it on the weekend and we would talk about it. Just thought I would share that with you a few of my experiences. I am so happy that you are on the road to recovery! Best wishes to you and your family! I know they must have missed you :))