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7041957 tn?1387424525

Back to old habit again sigh...

Hi all back to this forum again to get some help again since i quit my addiction through help from this website... I have relapse since 6 month ago due to my lost of job and have a bad break up with my boyfriend that why i went back and start taking codeine cough syrup again i don have the courage to tell my parents about this stuff because if they know they will be very upset and my saving going to dry up because of this stuff and i need to find a job soon but problem is i want to start a new job without touching those stuff again and ever since i take back those stuff it don really feel like the 1st time when i get hook on i lose 15 kg and i always have stomach cramps all this and my constipation is quite bad also i scare if i continue like that something will happen to me in future i been doing tapering from 70ml per day to 40ml per day i wanted to try cold turkey like the first time but i don't know would i be able to do it because the last time i quit it took me month to get back on feet i really don't know about this time round...
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7041957 tn?1387424525
hi i did private message you but i think you never see or miss it was wondering how come you never reply me for so long :(
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1235186 tn?1656987798
Hey huni congrats on one week. It will take time for your mind, body and spirit to recover. Your sleep will return. How long have you been taking the valium?
I remember you were on it before.
Please get to some counseling. Get yourself out during the day. Walk get some sunshine. Buy over the counter sleep aids. Eat protein.
Take magnesium supplements.
Please huni give it some time you used for a couple years. You won't
Heal in a week.
You can do this. Do something different to help prevent relapse.
Exercise,  go to school, look for a new job,  counseling, change your routine.
Thinking of you, sending hope, hugs and prayers,
Debbie
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7041957 tn?1387424525
Hi to all it has been one week since i stop taking somehow i feel it much ****** then the first time i go c/t my diarrhea all have stop but the only irritating problem is i totally can't sleep at all i will always wake up hours by hours and toss around and next thing i know it already morning just want to know how long will this **** last i am really scare i will relapse back once again i been using Valium to counter my sleep but i did not abuse it i am taking 5mg when i going to slp but yet i totally cannot sleep i think my body tolerances is to high and valium seem useless now....
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7041957 tn?1387424525
thanks for the advise i will try it...
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5986700 tn?1380791380
Constipation is very normal......drink lots and lots of water stay away from sugary drinks claiming they're full of vitamins .......the sugar defeats the purpose....sugar leads to a sugar high then an ultimate sugar crash a couple hours later. ...just another thing to muddy your body while you're detoxing......eat orange wedge slices and watermelon, grapes and berries, you're get your water and natural vitamins and antioxidants.  But water is your best friend.  
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7041957 tn?1387424525
thanks dude...
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7041957 tn?1387424525
thanks for the advice i really appreciate it... This Monday i will try cold turkey again sick of going to doc to refill every time...
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7041957 tn?1387424525
thanks for your story i feel motivated i will try to do it and is constipation normal? Because everyday i got the urge to poo but when i go toilet and it always come out little by little and i always feel i am not pooing out all...
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september 4th 2013 not 2011 pshhh I wish! Thats about when I started doing it, if only I could go back in time.
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wow I didn't realize I cuss so much lol..oops
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Hey! Just want to say that you can do it, but only if you want it and are ready for it! I was addicted to heroin and pretty much ****** up my entire life over it, I was charged with fourteen counts of theft 1 (thats a lot of ******* felonies) luckily it was my first offense so I plead it down to two but I was turning into someone I didn't like, nothing else mattered but getting that **** so I could feel normal, anyways when I first had the case opened against me I decided I should go to detox and get clean so it would look good, so I went into a detox center it was all fine and dandy and they let me leave after a week, but as soon as I was not in the detox place where I knew I couldnt get anything, I was instantly having intense cravings and such bad anxiety I felt sick, all I wanted to do was get a bag, come up with ways to get a bag, who could I call to get me high and I lasted five more days before I got high again. I went another few months but knew I was letting my family down, and most of all and please don't judge I know its the worst thing ever and I was a ****** mom then but I have a son so I knew I was letting him down, I never took him places with me but I know I wasnt all there when I was home and also if I was sick and he's my whole world I would never do anything to hurt him but thats not me, me on heroin is a total stranger. I had him go stay with my mom and it was really hard to do because its always been me and him but I detoxed cold turkey probably the hardest and longest withdrawals I had ever had I didn't get out of bed for a good two weeks but it was totally different this time and I truly think its because I wanted it, I had very small amount of cravings, nothing intense or strong enough that I'd even think about doing it, because I didn't want to let me son down, I didn't want to be that person, and also I was afraid of getting dope sick because it was so bad and its been easy I've been clean since september 4th 2011 and I've been so determined to not do anything like that **** I wouldn't take any sort of painkiller, even when I actually needed to, up until a few months ago when I had all four of my wisdom teeth out and even then I took them less than what I was suppose to. So I know I went a little rambling but you definitely can do it, it is hard, especially at first. My biggest struggles I still have is that I've been doing drugs (pretty much all of them) since I was 13 and like mentally associated fun with being ****** up whether it was drinking or drugs that its hard to change that thinking, or the classic addict response when your mad or sad "**** this I want to get ****** up" but its worth it like I'm still dealing with the consequences of my addiction, i lost most everyone in my life except my close family, i'm now a felon and I'm a 24 year old mom...I'm doing two years probation and paying a pretty chunk of change for court fees and restitution, and I'm like 16,000 in debt from all the schemes I did to make money, I finally got a job that would hire me but its minimum wage so I had to move in with my mom because I couldn't support my son with all the **** I have to pay out and no one really trusts me and it totally ***** and I have a lot of guilt over it but in a few years when I've finally got some **** straightened out, I'm going to be even happier because I just want to be happy and a make my son happy. Just know its for the best and you don't want to **** your life up because it takes a long time to fix and jail ***** and so does overdosing! I hope the best for you if you ever need to talk I'm all ears
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7041957 tn?1387424525
I guess my supply will last me for 3 more day then i would go cold turkey the first time i quit it took me so much effort sigh i really don't know i can do it a not for this time round... thanks so much for the advice at least i am not alone...
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10623623 tn?1414292089
Everything you said really reminds me of myself. I got clean, but during my divorce, I lost my job, too. I was so upset and gave myself the excuse that I should use because this was just too much for one person to handle. Being sober for a while now, I have come to see that it is that exact thinking that is so false and creates so much havoc in my life.

Addicts make excuses to use. We don't think we should have to be like the rest of the world and work through the pain, so we medicate. I think your first step should be realizing that no matter what you are going through, there is no excuse for using. I am not trying to be hard on you, and I fear this is coming out that way, so let me just say that I am not. I just want you to see that you CAN and WILL get through this without using.

Look at it this way: At this time, you are unemployed. You can detox at home if you start now. I was always so afraid to detox at work, but you don't have to worry about that, so this is the PERFECT time for you to just do it.

My other advise would be to not just get clean for a new job. Again, from my experience, that never works. Get clean for a new LIFE. If you get clean, everything else will fall into place. I can promise you that because I have seen it in me and in others who I have met on my journey.

Remember these three things:
1. God is real
2. He loves you
3. He is much wiser than any of us

You can't see it now, but He has a purpose for all of this. Let him lead you to a better life. Best wishes.
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A month out of your life isn't so bad when u look at the big picture.. I know life can be so frustrating and a escape is worth it's wait in gold when u are at your limit.. don't be so hard on your self and Just do what u need to do.. of coarse your family will be disappointed and upset with you.. they love u.. if they didn't love u, they simply wouldn't care.. try on your own first, if u struggle, bite the bullet and seek help from your family, I'd rather cope with shame then a relapse .. u hang in there.. being honest helps hold u accountable. . Everyone is different. . U do what works best for u.. I imagine the secound time around will be more difficult because u know what u are in store for.. dread is probably your biggest problem right now.. this is my first time with addiction and it lasted a year..so others here can give u better advice then me..good luck to you!
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