Beginning of Day 5- Detox from opiates

[Hanovergirl412]

I've been on Rx opiates for 5 years. I started with one a day, and it was great for a couple years. Eventually, I
began taking more than that; 2 or 3  spread out over the day. For the last 18 months, I have been taking up to 10 a day, pretty much every time I needed to complete ANY task, I would pop a pill. It got to the point that I couldn't feel them anymore, no matter how many I would take. (Is there a term for this?) I knew I needed to stop when I took my last script, 110 325/10 Norcos in a week.

I'm just waking up on my 5th day of going cold turkey. I didn't taper, I didn't go to a clinic. I just DECIDED to stop, and that's what I did. If you are going through it, remember, your mindset makes all the difference. I armed myself with immodium, wellbutrin, and cannabis. (I know its not ideal to beat one substance with another, but I detest using cannabis because of how down it makes me. No chance of long term use, but has been helpful in this process)

My WD symptoms have been minimal, thankfully. I'm a little concerned that they are still going to hit me after reading a lot of these forums on timelines, but I'm ready. Yesterday that terrible back/leg ache hit me and it was so bad that I almost talked myself into taking just a half a pill. But I powered through, called a friend, and went for a walk.

My question is this: Has anyone experienced the severe depression, even before getting off the opiates? My life has felt so empty, so meaningless, for the last 6 months. It's like my brain turned off the good chemicals because the pills where doing the work? Since getting off, I've been bouncing between severely depressed to manic laughter, to finally looking to the future, to crying at commercials. It's a mess.

Today my body feels good. I am healing. What could I expect with the depression?

[ROSYouralright]

Hey and CONGRATS to you on those 5 hard won days! I admire your honesty however you are right about it not being ideal...lol. From everything I have been through and the research Ive done The depression is quite normal ( Although you should seek therapy, counseling, etc) especially if you have suffered a lot of painful life events but took a pill or drugs to numb the pain or block the memory. When you get clean you don't have the drugs to block or numb anything and all of your memories and emotions are still right their waiting for you to address them. I am starting St. Johns wort today as it is supposed to be a natural mood stabilizer. Ive heard some really good things about it but their will be folks coming around in a little bit who know TONS about it! Just KNOW that you are not alone and we are here fighting right beside you! Im here if you need to talk! Keep on keeping on! One choice at a time!

[Wildewoman]

Good Morning ~

Good for you to stop the Noroc.

I just woke up & I am on day # 3. I actually feel pretty good. My WD was really bad however - the runs, pain in my bones, no sleep on the first night.

I haven't heard of the depression - so I'll follow your posts to learn about this.

Thanks!! And good luck!!