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1481358 tn?1288295091

Big difference this time. taper no taper?

,Theres alot of people that want to quit and have heard of tapering or just quiting. Ive quit afew times. This post isnt about that. I will have to learn how to stay clean. Getting clean is the first step. This is what Ive found. I was good for two weeks. Used for two weeks. About 120mgs a day. Im a big guy 230lbs. Not sure if that matters. Anyway, I decided no more. I knew monday was going to by a nothing day. nada. Fri I had 90mgs, Roxies if your wondering. For the 2 weeks I was using I averaged about 100mg a day, every day.I dedided on fri that i was quiting on monday. Sat I took about 5mgs. I had wds on sat but they were manageable. Just tired, I did sleep alot that day but other than that, no biggie. Sunday same thing. Took about 5 mgs in the am. I still had a very small piece 5 to 7 mgs.  Its crazy how a TINY piece can be so much. I knew that little piece would do more harm than good. I flushed it. As soon as it dissappeared, my back started to hurt. What have I done I thought. Sunday night was pretty tough. WDs no sleep. Monday came and I really expected to feel alot worse. I didnt feel good. But I didnt feel bad. I actually went to the gym last night! Day 1! Today is day two and I have to say I feel pretty darn good. Im going to the gym again tonight. This is what happened when I tapered.
  This is what happened when I didnt. Last day 120mgs. Monday hurt WDS-stayed in bed all day and night. This lasted for about 3 days. There was no way  I was going to the gym, I couldnt get up! Would not eat and didnt want to. The mental stuff, crying, and depression came in day 4 5 6.
  Thought I would share this. Its was like night and day this time. I support tapering. I dont think you have to taper for long. a couple of days. 5mg didnt get me high. I still wd. Even taking the 5mgs. For me. It made this time quiting 90 percent easier. Today is only day two. My skin feels fine, have energy,no hot flashes,slept last night, and almost feel normal, kinda if that makes sense. If youre thinking about quiting and have the will power to only take alittle for a couple days. I think youll be happy you had the will power! I wanted to put it a way someone really got it.

COLD TURKEY NO TAPERING  HITTING A BRICK WALL GOING ABOUT 75 MPH
TAPERING OFF 100MGS DOWN TO 5 FOR TWO DAYS, JUST TWO.  HITTING A BRICK WALL GOING 10MPH
THE AIR BAG DOENST EVEN DEPLOY!
This is just what happened for me. If it helps you, Great, Even better.
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1481358 tn?1288295091
  We ALL  have people to support us. I will say having close friends and family know makes things easier, It can make it more difficult. They understand, OK you have a problem and its fixed, first go around. Well unless they are an addict that patience runs thin and the support you once had is gone. Im a struggling addict let me say. I know in my heart. If it werent for the very first NA meeting I  went to Id be helpless. Its funny you said your glad your anonymous...go sit in a room full people just like you. Its free,nobody has to know. Im not perfect either. So you have support, here and in a narcotics anonymous mtg. Get this off your chest a breath again.
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I read that the pills are stored in fat ... maybe that has something to do with it? No offense to big people intended at all but that is what I read somewhere. I have less fat but still having a difficult time with quitting - especially alone without sharing this with someone (whom I know personally) to get support. I know it sounds pathetic but I would love it if someone close to me would be sympathetic/supportive and informative or, at least pretend to be. For those of you who have supportive spouses, family or friends you should know you are blessed and I'm happy for you but, admit to being a little jealous too.

I like the NOT hitting a brick wall effect personally and the analogy was a good one from thrownindatowl. We're definitely all wired differently. Hope everyone is doing well. Oh yeah, my body smells weird - not typically an issue and I'm wondering if anyone else found that to be a side effect too? I'm so glad I'm anonymous...the things I'm asking and telling. God speed.
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Hey Towl.......
I'm a pretty big guy too. 6'3, 215 lbs. I think us big folks feel it even worse for some reason. Perhaps because there's so much more room for the residue of those little pills to hide?

I'm pullin' for ya' bro. Fight the good fight.
Toby
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1481358 tn?1288295091
  Thanks man.  No offense at all myfriend. Were all friends here. Its nice to speak your mind. Some agree, some dont. I think I learn more from the ones that dont agree with me.Haha. I will keep up the fight. Never give up. Always have hope.
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No offense. But I'd rather hit the brick wall.
Remembering the feeling of CT withdrawals makes being clean feel even better.

Again, no offense intended. That's just my preference.
Good luck man. You've got guts for picking yourself back up and heading back into the fight. I hope you beat this thing this time. I know you can.

Toby
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