Brand new, will I be this exhausted all the time?

[GatorBoy1]

I have just tried to stop taking oxcontin 20mg, I think. I've wanted to for a while, but never seemed to have any energy. I had to work to pay bills, had to take medicine to have the energy to work. I have taken a considerable amount of time off to attempt to stop taking this crap...it's so, so, hard!
Will I ever have any energy again, or have I just ruined my body forever! I'm fit and relatively young. I just don't know if I can go without it. Today is only my first day, but I really, really wanna put all this behind me!
I don't know what to expect other than what I've read here. Someone mentioned cleanser or vitamins???
Please someone be out there who can help me!

[GatorBoy1]

I just wanna say, you guys may have saved my life! I feel so much better and love you all even though we've never met. I've now gone 73 hrs and 43 minutes without taking any meds! Keeping busy, running, and long soaks have almost done away with the cravings...I know I have a long way to go yet, and some days will obviously be better than others, but so far so good. It's been so, so very difficult, and I could never have come this far without you all!

Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you!!!

Good luck everyone, believe me if I can do this there is hope for everyone! I haven't felt so natural in so long...I completely forgot how it felt!

[shelliAS]

Vicki, Thanks for the suggestion!  I am not overly tech savvy :)  I posted a thread.

Shelli

[NorcBgone]

Just wanted to let you know I'm 22 days clean from Norco, and more proud of myself everyday. The wd's are truly the worst thing i've ever gone through, but keep reminding yourself getting your life back is worth it. Running, wow! I sure wish I had the strength to do that so early on, h e l l  I didnt like running before all the pill popping! LOL Keep pushing thru this and try your damndest to stay focused on something other than the wd's. Nyquil and melatonin saved my booty!

[vicki595]

Shelli~   Maybe you can create a" thread" of your own by posting at the top in the "post a question" area.  You don't have to but you'll get a lot more responses from all the members...Just a thought...

You'll get a lot of support!!   I can't believe Gator went running,either!!!!  Just goes to show ya!!  It does get those endorphins pumping...

V.

[shelliAS]

Yo Gator - YOU WENT RUNNING?????????????????  Now I feel like a real loser...lol...
I never did take those baths - guess I will, with Epsom salts.  Then maybe I'll feel like getting on my treadmill.  I think you are doing awesome.  Please keep posting.  This site is saving my life right now, and we both just quit at about the same time.  As of time posting this, I have gone 20 hours without hydrocodone.  I have not gone that long in years.  Well, keep running, and maybe you'll shame me into doing the same.

[littleyellowpill74]

You keep hanging in there. You will hear over and over again that this will get better, AND please believe in your heart and mind that it is true. I feel better each day that goes by, and also relieved that i'm not reaching for a pill bottle every morning before I open my eyes. Keep posting, its therapeutic and also gives you hope that there is a light at the end of this first week of h e l l.  Best of luck to you!

[GatorBoy1]

I went with the Thomas recipe. I've taken my 3rd bath and soak with Epsom salt today. It really helps. I've gone for 2 30 min runs today. They hurt really bad for the 1st 10 minutes, but it was so hot I started to feel much better when I really started to sweat. I couldn't sleep at all last night, and that scares me...hopefully I've done enough today, that I'll have to sleep tonight.
I don't yet feel comfortable telling anyone but you guys right now. I don't know who else will understand. I'm so embarrassed and ashamed I just wanna whip this thing once and for all and try to forget this chapter of my life.

[shelliAS]

Gator, We may be in a similar place.  Last night I took the last of my  "pain" killers, and this morning I woke up feeling like I was about to die.  I started to cry it was so bad.  My body aches so bad, even my hands (I can hardly type, but I feel I have to say connected to this group.)  And the fatigue - OMG - just putting one foot in front of the other is an ordeal, so I am spending a lot of time in bed.  I plan to take a hot bath soon.  Maybe I'll stay there the rest of the day.  At first I wasn't going to tell anyone about my "problem," but I told my spouse last night.  Obviously he would wonder why I was so sick.  I told my daughter that I had the flu and needed to rest.  Luckily I am between jobs, so I can wait this out.  I keep thinking of going through labor - I was going to try to avoid meds, but I had a 48 hour labor and somewhere around the 36th hour, I finally screamed uncle and went for the epidural.  That's my concern with this - will it last so long that I can't take it anymore?  Please, someone, tell me that it will be over soon...

[jewlz2626]

Yesterday I went & bought everything for the Amino Acid Protocol & am praying with my tapering that it somewhat helps! I am at my whits end & dont have nyone to turn too!

[LeaAnn807]

Hey!  The thing is that it does feel like the sleep and energy will never return.  Especially in the beginning.  AND.....you feel like you have to have energy to exercise, but you can't exercise because you have no energy!??  Am I close?  : )

It gets better.  Just force yourself to stay busy and exercise in little bits at a time until you feel better.  Even a little exercise is helpful.  Vitamin B will help if you take it everyday.  Look at the amino acid protocol on the health pages.  It's helpful!

Good luck!  Have some patience, and you will feel better soon!

[jewlz2626]

Gator I'm trying to do the same thing, but off methadone. Im scared to tell my boyfriend, and dissapoint him....he puts me on a pedastal  thinks the world of me, as I do him....I cry everyday about this when hes not around, but im scared!!! I want to tell him, but I dont know if I should! I knw im gonna get sick, and he will wonder why I am & why for so long!?!? Ugh!! Its so frustrating!!! Im so mad a myself for letting it go this far!! Best of luck to you! Later Gator :)

[GatorBoy1]

A journal might be perfect...

[tiggz1977]

start a journal gator! no one will read it but you. there are people out there you can talk to for help. pick up the phone and call! call a help line there in every phone book. walk into a rehab treatment facility. they will help you! money or not!

[GatorBoy1]

Thank you guys! You are all angels...I have nobody I can tell. I may want to talk from time to time tonight please!

[sad1258]

See GatorBoy I told you...ask for help and you will receive lots of support here! Hang in there! You can do this!!  Hugs to you right now!  A

[tiggz1977]

you need to heal your mind and body gator! it's gonna be rough but if you stick to it, you can do it! nothing is impossible! what I been doing is a protein shake, muscletech -nitro tech  < google it it's a bit $$ but what it does is amazing I think. also drink green tea it helps clean out toxins in your body. the protein mix helps your body heal faster and is in powder form. so it's easily digested, as you will hav the runs. it help regulate you bodys insulin level and forces your muscles to take up water. so drink lots of water when usin it. check out the Thomas post about stuff you can take during withdrawals. the protein is working for me keeps me hydrated and I know it's healing my body and my mind rebuilding all the stuff I broke lol feed your body and it will heal faster. hope you seek out help also.

God bless

[vicki595]

Okay~  Read the Health Pages,upper right of this page. Look at the Thomas Recipe and
At Home Detox. That will get you going...

Then,get rid of every pill in your house. Search all the secret places !!  If you have rx's, cancel them. You should notify your doctor. He/she could be of help.
Let someone know. Don't keep this a secret...  Delete all contacts!!

You'll be tired BUT even some mild exercise will help that. Eat well! Especially protien.
Force fluids and juices.

Post with any questions or problems that come up~

Vicki

[jenniferb777]

You will be fine you can do this it will come back you have admitted to the problem I have becktracked on day two but have faith that we can beat this monster he will not control my life or my family's life anymore i am scared that I will not be the happy person i am while i am high on the pills but i think back to how happy and fun i used to be and this is fake i want and will get away from this

[tiggz1977]

well step 1 you completed. youve told yourself you have. problem and want out. step 2 get help, we've all tried to do it ourselves we can't seek out help embrace help don't push it away or not think about it.

[scoenen]

How much were you taking and for how long?  In the health section of this board has the Thomas recipe which helps with withdrawals.