I am an addict, but i've been clean off opiates a little over a month now. Ive been trying to get sober about 5 yrs now, in and out, rehab and relapse. Sober and using etc. Im trying everything I can this time to get it and so far I think im doing the right things with support system and getting involved in AA, as much as I can. Lots of meetings, sponsor, etc. The thing is, I am tapering off of suboxone. I was addicted to oxycontin, then heroin, and despite my recent relapse, ive been taking suboxone (prescribed) for around a year and a half now. I am tapering off from 6mg a day (3mg in the morning, 3mg in the afternoon/early evening), and trying to do it as fast as possible. I don't have any experience coming off of long term sub use, as I am doing now, ive only ever used it short term in between getting high to try and hold off the wd's, and I don't really have anyone around me who's experienced it either and can understand what the process will be like. I also don't really feel like I can talk about it in the rooms because there is a lot of opinions/judgments regarding suboxone in AA. Even though I am getting off it, I still don't feel comfortable sharing that on a group level. So far i'm down to 4mg and i'm starting to feel it. Waking up drenched in sweat, not sleeping well, irritable and depressed at night after it's been a while since my last dose. Less energy. Nothing too horrible yet, but I can feel it starting and I am wondering if anyone can share their experience/process tapering and getting off subs, how they felt at each stage, how long it took, etc. I think I make it out worse in my own mind because I don't know what to expect. With heroin or oxycontin, i've detoxed so many times I know exactly what its gonna be like and in some ways that helps me get through it, but with subs, I really don't know except that i've heard the detox process goes on for a long long time. So, if anyone can help me by telling me about their experience tapering and getting off (in as much detail as you want!!) it would be really appreciated. My end goal is to be completely off it as soon as possible but when I start feeling sick, the "addict" voices in my head start to tell me im making a mistake, that I should stay on it, that I am not strong enough for this taper, that I am better/my sobriety is better when I am on it etc. I know it's BS but its what happens for me. Any help is super appreciated. Thank you.