Cant sleep cant function

[DontDieYoung]

Hi i am a oxycodone user of 8 months about 60 mg  aday ive decided to quit without help i cannot tell my family and i dont have medical benifits i i quit cold turkey about 6 days ago the i lasted 3 days without anything but i relapsed on the 4th and 5th taking morphine on the 4th and oxycodone on the 5th out of the 5 days the only day i could sleep was when i took the oxycodone on the 5th day im now on my 7th day so second day clean again and havent slept for 2 nights straight i really need help i cant afford to go back on this drug it is the devil i can handle the symptoms i can handle the pai i can handle everything except the lack of sleep without sleep i cant function and because im going through this in secrecy i have my everyday duties to perform and a child to take care of im 22 years old male living with inlaws, so telling them is not a option i want to quit but i have to sleep somehow coudl someone please help me i need major help over the counter help or any tips or info that would help me get some sleep at night. One night i took 45 ml of nyquil and couldnt sleep for 6 hours i finally got to bed at 9 30 am just to wake up to take care of my baby at 11 00 am i feel like hanging myself or even worse

getting high off oxycodone cause after 48 hours on 3 hours sleep sleep is more appealing to e then anything ive ever dreamed of please help me someone

[DontDieYoung]

well im using again i just cant seem to steer clear maybe its the lack of sleep which is clouding my judgment but i took 7 x 5 mgs oxy and i cant even sleep today god i feel like a idiot maybe its the fact i also smoked marijuana for 12 years straight and recently quit 2 weeks ago but life just seems so much easier when yuour high

[beachtowel]

David beat Goliath too but so you know how many Goliaths beat and killed all the Davids before David finally won one..............

[anotherfinemess]

well if "the odds are against it" then I guess I beat the odds.

[beachtowel]

Part of recovery is total honesty.....to yourself and everyone around you........

Your going in alone like David v/s Goliath and yes David won that battle and maybe you will too...the odds are against it but I will wish you the best of luck.....

good luck fighting addiction the most powerful disease alive alone........

[wantlifeback]

Sleep or lack of unfortunatly is a part of the wd...i did not sleep for 8 days straight, not even an hour.  I finally got a sleeping pill from my doctor and it helped.  he only gave me 15 to get me over the hump.  i started to feel better once i was getting some sleep.  I feel so bad for you as i know what it is like, we all do.  When i posted a similar question people told me about valerium root so i got some of that.  I still take it occasionally so that might be something worth trying also.

Great job on deciding to quit..it is tough but you can do this.  Keep posting and get all the support you need to get through.  You are not alone, we are all here for you.  I am on day 54 and couldn't have gotten here without all the wonderful people here....

[Summer123]

I feel for you.  While tapering from oxycodone, I couldn't sleep for what seemed like an eternity.  Just the past couple of days I finally got 6 hours of sleep.  Is there any way you can taper off the drugs?  Or if you are already 2 days free, can you stay on the forum for the next 2 days for support?  I understand you having no one for support.  I don't either.  Just this forum and it's helping a lot.  At least while I'm on here, I'm not taking a pill.  When I tapered fast, I felt suicidal too.  Felt I couldn't do it.  Am tapering slower now and I believe I can do it.  You can too.  I heard the saying once upon a time "whether you think you can do it or think you can't, you are right".  You can do it!

[banana911]

oh, you poor thing.  you sound miserable - but you are not alone!!!!  you are chatting to people who have suffered through this.  there is a way.  and going through this sucks.  it is the devil.  

i am day 5 & feeling better.  (subutex/hydro)  there is hope.  just think of getting through the worst & you don't EVER have to do this again.  i don't EVER want to do my day 1 & 2 & 3 EVER again.  uhg.  

Sleep is so illusive to me also.  the night before last i took 4 tylenol PM & i still only slept 1 1/2 hours.  

[anotherfinemess]

Going through this is tough enough, but having to do it in utter secrecy just adds insult to injury.  I know, I did the same thing.  I absolutely could not confide in anyone.  Then I found this forum, and I swear the heavens opened up for me!  Please stay with us  here-  you will be amazed at the wealth of knowledge on this board.  People will come forward and provide wisdom and support-  buy you gotta do the work!
As for sleep:  if you can get clonidine (a blood pressure med commonly used for withdrawals, Ativan or Valium (benzos  used short-term to ease the withdrawals) then your life will be much easier.  Otherwise, benedryl, tylenol pm, melatonin-- all over the counter-  will help you get some sleep.  best of luck and hang tough!

[justlikeyou]

ddy,

keep doing what your doing, if you take less every week eventually you will be free.

[deedee123]

i know where ur coming from trying to dotox and not let anyone know whats going on, but you will be ok we all will. just think how great life will be for you and the ones u love. hang in there ok

[deedee123]

when i told my doc i could not sleep she perscribed me serequel. i know its used for other things but thats what she gave it to me for. it works wonders when detoxing i take more when im sick than usual but i get atleast 6 to 7 hours on a good high dose. i gave some to a friend last nigt she took 150 mills and slept better than she had all week. just wanted to share that cause its the only thing that works for me besides slugging down a half bottle of nyquil and that **** is nasty. pm pill dont work AT ALL for me

[DontDieYoung]

i cant get help i really cant the ones who are close would be too hurt if they knew the truth it is impossible for me to come clean i dont expect anyone to understand but its the way it has to be i can and will do this alone wether it kills me or not

[avisg]

I know you feel like your going to die , and i soo dont do well without sleep either. You would be surprised how long your body truly can go without sleep. I really think you need to let people know what is going on . You have a baby to take care of and that baby needs his dad....right now you are in no shape to try to care for the baby on your own. .Plz just come clean get some help get on your way to recovery..... post often
avis