Hello to all of you! This is my first post, but I have been reading these forms for 6 months. I have found great advice, wisdom, shared experience, and love in these postings. Now I need some advice. I kicked a habit and have been 100% mind altering chemical free for a full 6 months. I have recently been having repeated kidney stones (passed two so far) and will be recieving treatment (a vibration therepy to break up the stones) this coming week. The pain is currently unbearable. I have been rejecting my doctor and surgeons perscriptions for pain meds and instead have used large dose of Motrin. I am pushing the limits of daily Motrin intake for some time now. I have also been taking stone disolving meds, homeopathic teas for the kidney and urinary system. I meditate daily. The pain is effecting so many areas of my life (daily work load, new relationship, my mood and emotional state, ect.). I want to deal with the pain in a sane way, with respect to my history, but feel I may be at my limit. Is my desire to be pain free or to use stronger tools (opiates) to cope until the situation is resolved really unrealistic? Has anyone else had stones, and how did they deal with the pain? How do people with previous substance abuse problems deal with the aging and degrading body (especially pain issues)?