Hi and welcome. I giggled when you wrote "why isn't it enough" because your lament is IDENTICAL to everyone else's when they are coming to terms w/ addiction. You're an addict. And addiction not only doesn't discriminate, but makes zero sense. We know we shouldn't take pills, we "should" have enough in life, but we can't stop. The essence of addiction.
If I had a dollar for every attractive, successful person in my meetings, I'd be a millionaire. I mean people in the top of their professions in the entertainment industry: actors, writers, producers, lawyers and everything else. The outside stuff is meaningless. We need to get to the root of what makes us use in the first place, that's what recovery is for.
If you are ready to detox and want to start recovering we are here. No need to be embarrassed, we've all heard it, on here, and in "real" life countless times. Your story is the same as millions of others. Hope that makes you feel less alone.
You're among friends here and I'm glad you found us! Are you wanting to stop? Have you shared any of this with your wife? I would recommend that but you can refrain from sharing outside of your home.
We always feel like we can't live without our drug of choice while we're in the thick of it. Once you get clean of the pills your brain chemicals normalize and your natural energy will return. It all depends on what you want to do and how positive your attitude is. I'll tell you though, the pills really mess with our thinking and decisions and perceptions. That's one reason why you don't like the mirror!
We're here and happy to help!
Success sometimes comes with a price. Yours came in the form of using to escape the stress. Those pills give us a false sense of security and are only a symptom of what is going on with you. You dont have to live like this anymore. There is hope and help out here. Keep talking with us~
What we are saying is there is help out here and you dont have to live in active addiction. You can continue to be a successful businessman, husband and father, actually even better than before. There are many forms of aftercare out there. This isnt hopeless at all. Recovery isnt a death sentence. We know what you are going thru and how you feel right now. We are on your side. Most of us work, are married, have families and we are productive adults.
There is the option to attempt to cut back slowly on your own with help from these good people here, but I guess you know that will probably not be enough. Accepting you are an addict -someone that abuses drugs is the first step to getting help. Its up to you what you do but there is help out there from the medical people. Detox is tough.
Hair loss can be a side effect of the adderall but not a common one. Stress can cause hair loss also.
Are the pills you are taking something you could talk to your wife about? I believe in total honesty but i know that doesnt work for everyone. Alot of times it starts out very innocent with an injury or surgery and the pills end up turning on us. Keep reducing slowly...
If you decide to stop taking the adderall please dont just stop. Those need to be tapered down very slowly.
You have a lot of uncertainty and a lot of questions. It will be VERY helpful to you to go into an AA or NA meeting. You don't need to be clean to go. Everyone in there understands and things will become clearer once you start hearing other stories.
For the norco, just stop. It will be uncomfortable but it won't kill you. I was taking up to 15 norco a day and I just stopped. You will have some wds but there is no escaping that. Get rid of them.
I misread the dose you were taking. I agree, just get rid of them now and get that part over with.
Welcome and congrats on wanting to reclaim your life.
There is freedom from the chains and bondage.
Get some therapy You can see an addiction counselor or psychologist.
Hey Dude how you feeling today??? I agree with the others just jump and get it over with in 4 to 6 days once your on the last few pills your really going to feel the drops in dose it is all about the % of drop and your blood serum level when you drop just 1 pill from 3 that is 33% of drop then from 2 to 1 is a 50% drop so by doing it you feel lousy and wont start to feel better until you done so it prolongs how long your dope sick keep us up to date where here to help