Another great inspiring post from you, as always..
couldnt have been said any better
I'm starting to wonder if the primary cost of Suboxone isn't a hidden cost.
By all accounts it seems to be a great thing when it's used as a SHORT transition from active opiate addiction to being clean. But I smell trouble when it's used (as seems to be the case more and more) as a long-term maintenance program. It's no doubt better than being in a hidden life of secret addiction, but it still sounds like active addiction.
I also find it troubling because I have no doubt that if I were still in active addiction Sub would sound to me like an easier, softer way to get and stay clean. Don't get me wrong - I am ALL FOR the easiest and softest way, I'm just concerned that long-term Sub is a detour that delays finding that way.
In my view, Recovery doesn't have all that much to do with getting and staying clean and sober. Becoming and staying clean and sober is certainly a pre-condition to Recovery, but it's not Recovery. It's just the first step in a rather long journey.
I subscribe a belief that seems to be fairly common in Recovery circles: that the using itself is not the problem, but only an outward symptom of the problem. My problem is not with what's in a bottle or a stem, my problem is with what's in me. I can treat the symptoms by not drinking or using and the problem will at least appears to get better: I will cease being constantly impaired and I will avoid all those messy legal and social problem that follow those in active alcoholism/addiction. But if that's all I do, the problem in ME remains and gets worse over time.
I believe that addiction is primarily a spiritual problem. I believe that the problem of addiction requires a spiritual solution and a spiritual awakening. Actually, these days I'm inclined to think that it's all spiritual.
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you're welcome. Maybe not knowing anyone is a good thing, this way you can surround yourself with positive people. I used to be so against counseling and that sort of thing, but, after being on drugs for so long, i started at 14 and am now 43, this time i was so tired, i really just wanted to get on methadone, but on nmy very first appt. my doctor said he wouldnt do the methadone but suggested the suboxone, however he said he wouldnt even consider putting me on unless i joined their outpatient program. I was so deperate, that as long as i got my meds, i would do anything. so here i am 2 months later and it is amazing what i have learned about addiction, recovery so on and so forth. I actually enjoy going, i started going 3 x a week now i am on phase II so i go 2 x a week for 6 wks then it will be 1xwk for 3 wks.It is not too much to ask, because in return i am learning tools to stay clean and it really was about time. best of luck to you. However not every doctor can prescribe suboxone, they have to be licensed, you might have to do a little research on line. Thats how i found my wonderful doctor.
I read your comment and was wondering where you get your suboxone from. I see that you pay $35.00 for a 90 day supply? that is damn good. Please give me a little more info.
I'm not sure, but someone will be with you soon, I'm sure, to answer your questions. Hang in there and glad to hear your making a plan.
Magi