Counting the minutes

[Today30]

Man they were not joking when they said minute by minute.. I found a local na meeting tonight and I'm looking forward to going I hope that my w-d are not to bad and I have the strength to go. I feel ok now my eyes are still watering and I'm sneezing and on edge. Overall I feel better then I thought I would . I have the next 3 days off of work so I'm not filled with anxiety over having to work and not being ok. However my bf has no clue.. (How bad) or that I was abusing my script to get high. I said it !!! I'm an addict !

[Pat1956100]

Sounds to me like you have already made the decision to take that script.  How do people get scripts in the mail?  I just never understand that.
Anyway, just remember the first withdrawal may not have been too bad but they just get worse.  Everything does.
You probably won't enjoy that script much because you know what you are going to have to face again.
We will be here for you when you decide you've had enough.

[Sonrissa]

Hi, you've been give some excellent advice above, so I'm not going to repeat. I just want to give you some things to think about. You are already well into the detox process. Just a few more days of feeling yucky, and then you will feel much better. Also, if you take the script you are getting tomorrow, well you will just have to start this all over again. At some point you will need to quit. If you take those pills, the guilt will be overwhelming, and you will regret it. I went through withdrawals several times, and each time it was more difficult. Please don't give up on yourself! You can do this! You have great support here, and we will help you through every step. Stick with it.

Take care!

[Today30]

Thanks .. Yeah not looking good for me.. I feel like a kid at Christmas waiting to open presents . Will need some serious will power tomorrow
Thanks but at this point I'm not very hopeful

[petsrule]

I know it's late but I had that extra script and did not handle it will.   Had 7 days and then blew a week.   Started over.   I'm only on day 9 but am way better than the first 4 days were.   I would not repeat those days for anything even will the pull to 'feel good'...  Good luck.

[msdelight]

Very very good advice! Nothing to add except good luck and prayers!

[EvolverU]

Good luck tonight! That's great news that this is your first kick! That's on your side as well as your age & your relatively brief usage time. You CAN do this. Try not to look down that tunnel and psych yourself out. You don't have to get through the next hour or day -- just the next minute. If your husband/bf is awake, have him give you a foot rub & back rub. This really helps after the bath. Foods like warm milk & Turkey with high levels of Tryptophan might also help. My buddy VIC is right, it takes time. Have patience with yourself and the process. If something should happen tomorrow around that script -- if you can't manage to have someone intercept it, please, don't be embarrassed or stay away. We've all been there!

Just keep posting (& if you should feel the need, feel free to PM me.) ;-)

[VICourageous]

If you have a hard time sleeping do not fight it..Get up and do some surfing around here..There is tons of info about the Disease of Addiction and how the Brain works on & off of it..I found this so interesting in my first months or so..I still study the map of the brain and how it all affects the Body..Give this TIME..
YES!!! I am so worried about that scrip coming..If you do not have someone get it before you do then I am very worried..Have someone meet the Post man and send it back..DO NOT even put it in your hands..We have to set up SO many BOUNDARIES..This one will be your Biggest one yet..YOU will feel so proud of your self if you just have some one send those pills back or take them away and far away from you and flush them. PLEASE DO NOT even look at them with even a blink of a eye..Your Brain will start playing that "just one" or "I will feel good" TAPE over and over again and again. Take control NOW..You & All of us will be so proud of you..The first step is the biggest.
Bless

[Today30]

Yes this is my 1st time trying to stop , I've been on them for about a yr. been abusing them for about 5 months. I have muscle issues along with arthritis at the age of 30. I don't know what I'm going to do about the legitimate pain, but can only take one step at a time.
Took a bath for a long while . Now going to try your suggestion and put my headphones on and listen to my music. I guess I should prepare for a long night. It sounds like I won't sleep much considering what I've read on other people's threads.
Thanks for looking out

[EvolverU]

Have you tried taking a hot salt bath yet? They help. Is this your first time kicking? I know it's rough but I promise you that if you stick with it, when you look back, the acute withdrawal will seem like the blink of an eye & you'll be so glad that you stuck with it. ;)) Also, drink loads of water. (really important to help speed this along.) What you're experiencing re: symptoms is completely normal, btw. A lot of us find that your favorite music w/ headphones/earbuds really helps to redirect from anxiety, etc. & helps to fire tho old endorphins! Hang in there, You're doing it.

[Today30]

Sweating but have goose bumps. Going to take a bath maybe sweat some out some more ?

[Today30]

Hot then cold ... Feel heavy

[EvolverU]

What's going on symptom-wise?

[Today30]

Ok I'm understanding how the thread works this is the post I will stay on and post questions progress and so on.

[Today30]

No I can't get out of bed

[EvolverU]

Hi there!

I just read through your post & some very good responses from my friends above. I'm so glad you're reaching out and posting (don't ever worry about doing it 'too much' -- [just try not to post multiple threads at the same time.;)]) Supporting one another & exchanging information & experiences is what makes MH work. (Pretty miraculous, it is!) I'm happy that you find it 'soothing'.;)

So, there's a script on it's way in the mail, eh? This is why it's so important ahead of time, to make a careful plan for detox. That way you don't put yourself in danger/set yourself up for failure. It just doesn't work unless you cut all your sources. You CAN do this though! You say you've been to a meeting today. I'd suggest going right back out tomorrow morning and doing the same. Tell them that you're 24 hrs clean & that there's a script coming -- they'll help you. Try not to listen to your habit whispering that: 'you're gonna take them, you're gonna take them.' It DOESN'T have to happen. Ignore this voice. It's a Lie! If you can't make it to a meeting, we can have a 'flushing' party right here. Please, keep posting & telling us what's up & how you're feeling. You're kicking & it's difficult. Use MH for all it's worth. Let's make this happen for you. YOU DESERVE IT!! Congrats on your first day clean, btw!! Hold Fast -- we're here & we're pulling for you ;)

[IBKleen]

Did you hit that meeting?

[Today30]

Soooo I have made it a full 24 hrs!! I feel like ****! My mood is down and I'm craving real bad my refil script comes in the mail tomorrow .. I don't know if I will have the strength to flush these I'm already regretting flushing the others. Not happy right now

[meegWpaw]

Today, i forgot whether you are tapering ( i think u are) or ct'd ... but either way you are doing great!   Stop apologizing for posting!!! that's why the forum is here!  post, post, post!!! if you don't post we worry about you and wonder whats happening w you ... you need to post!  ok.  'overall, i feel better than i thought i would."  that's amazing!  remember how scared you were before?  you are coming to terms with the terminology and reality of being addicted ... so proud of you!!!

[VICourageous]

Hello Again..Sounds like you really put your foot down..Yes, keep taking it min by min, day by day..Remember this takes alot of work and telling others that you became addicted to these pills will save your Life. I told Everybody..Like I said in your prior post, get the Dr involved too. I am SO proud of you for looking into NA..AA is good too..I have not had a drink in over 9 years now (i think) but I do go to both. If you get hooked up in the meetings and need a sponsor, you do not have to pick one right away..You can pick someone to help you temporary until someone really hits you good and you can feel the trust. The 12 Steps are so good and you will be doing them over & over for the rest of you life or for how ever long it may be..Life changes and the Steps are a bit different each time you do them over.
I am glad you are reaching out..Sometimes if you just stay in one post we can keep talking..BUT if you have new things to talk about and need a answer right away then start a new post..We can always see in your post when you come back in..Most of us will check it out. I am keeping an eye out for you,,Hahaha. I came in just now to check my Mail and there you where..Hang tight..Feel free to PM me any time if you want to talk about something else. Other wise stick here we all are FAMILY and there is nothing to hide..Hahaha
Bless

[Heather8448]

hey look I wish i would have went from day one, take a bucket!! Stay late arrive early be uncomfortable make yourself talk and embrace it!! those meetings have changed my life keep going back and take the suggestions
good news you dont have to tell the BF yet...
focus on u if you get far enough to work the steps or get a sponsor they can tell you their experience strength and hope, and it will help

[Today30]

I also would like to say that if I'm posting to much I'm sorry I'm not trying to be annoying its just that as of right now I have no other outlet . I have hidden this for so long and now I'm feeling this empowerment and I just want to talk about . Every time I think about using I just come on here . It seems to be that I'm on here every 20 minutes. Thanks again to all this is so soothing for me