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"Cuddle Hunting" @ 6 mg
Hi Everyone:
I have heard the term "cuddle hunting" on here and it made me laugh so hard XD, but that is, in fact what I am doing now. I have just had probably the hardest week of my entire taper. I was injured last Friday and it was just so painful and as I am already having issues sleeping and with RLS this made it so much worse. I was unable to even take a deep breath without intense pain. The muscle that I pulled is called the rhomboid and my my it's a tricky thing bc it's a stabilizer muscle so there is no real way to isolate it. When I would kick my legs all night, the muscle would hurt. God it was uncomfortable for three days and lack of sleep making it harder to heal. It's much better, but I have learned I cannot lift heavy weight for about another month without risking re-injury. I am basically loosing my gains and it's like insult to injury. Not being able to workout the way I want is making me more sad than anything. I can still run though, so I will just keep up lifting light and running. It has gotten harder to run every single day though bc of my low energy.
Next, I got a killer sinus infection and woah I felt like I couldn't even stand, but stand I did. I still didn't take it lying down. I still did my daily things besides working out that day.
I slept 2-3 hours every night but one this week. I am just looking for support and maybe some encouragement about my taper. I have been reading horror stories of people jumping at 3mg like I plan to, and experiencing wd just as bad as if they had jumped from 30. I am not afraid of that bc I know it's just a part of the process that I have to go through, but what I am afraid of is my life falling apart before my eyes. I have 4 weeks left in the semester. Talk about bad timing lol I have to simply surrender to the idea that I may fail my Portuguese class ( I am doing well in all of the other ones, but this one is a huge struggle bc of how many credit hours it is and it's expedited... it's very freaking hard and takes a lot of concentration and work), in order to gain my freedom. I will have 110 college credit hours by this semesters end if I can pass all of my classes! That's key bc I haven't the money to continue to go to school after next fall. I need the credits is what I am saying. I've been at it since 2010 and I am ready to graduate.
I guess what I want to hear is something encouraging about jumping at 3mg. Someone have a happy ending for me? I would love to know if it is the same as jumping at 25 or 30 or if that's an exaggeration. I guess this is a dumb question bc it truly is different for everyone and depends on the motivation. Although I know that, I wouldn't mind some encouragement and cuddles ;)
The time that it is taking my body to adjust to the taper appears to be much longer now. I mean, it's one decent day out of 7. God methadone is so wicked.
Thanks
I have heard the term "cuddle hunting" on here and it made me laugh so hard XD, but that is, in fact what I am doing now. I have just had probably the hardest week of my entire taper. I was injured last Friday and it was just so painful and as I am already having issues sleeping and with RLS this made it so much worse. I was unable to even take a deep breath without intense pain. The muscle that I pulled is called the rhomboid and my my it's a tricky thing bc it's a stabilizer muscle so there is no real way to isolate it. When I would kick my legs all night, the muscle would hurt. God it was uncomfortable for three days and lack of sleep making it harder to heal. It's much better, but I have learned I cannot lift heavy weight for about another month without risking re-injury. I am basically loosing my gains and it's like insult to injury. Not being able to workout the way I want is making me more sad than anything. I can still run though, so I will just keep up lifting light and running. It has gotten harder to run every single day though bc of my low energy.
Next, I got a killer sinus infection and woah I felt like I couldn't even stand, but stand I did. I still didn't take it lying down. I still did my daily things besides working out that day.
I slept 2-3 hours every night but one this week. I am just looking for support and maybe some encouragement about my taper. I have been reading horror stories of people jumping at 3mg like I plan to, and experiencing wd just as bad as if they had jumped from 30. I am not afraid of that bc I know it's just a part of the process that I have to go through, but what I am afraid of is my life falling apart before my eyes. I have 4 weeks left in the semester. Talk about bad timing lol I have to simply surrender to the idea that I may fail my Portuguese class ( I am doing well in all of the other ones, but this one is a huge struggle bc of how many credit hours it is and it's expedited... it's very freaking hard and takes a lot of concentration and work), in order to gain my freedom. I will have 110 college credit hours by this semesters end if I can pass all of my classes! That's key bc I haven't the money to continue to go to school after next fall. I need the credits is what I am saying. I've been at it since 2010 and I am ready to graduate.
I guess what I want to hear is something encouraging about jumping at 3mg. Someone have a happy ending for me? I would love to know if it is the same as jumping at 25 or 30 or if that's an exaggeration. I guess this is a dumb question bc it truly is different for everyone and depends on the motivation. Although I know that, I wouldn't mind some encouragement and cuddles ;)
The time that it is taking my body to adjust to the taper appears to be much longer now. I mean, it's one decent day out of 7. God methadone is so wicked.
Thanks
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I have experienced and seen methadone withdrawal many, many times. I have seen people jump at 5 and have little problems and sometimes it's more, but it is generally a lot easier to jump below 10mgs. There is no telling what will happen to you. I think you are doing fine, and CRSeaside has a great point. Below 20-40mgs is when many have to slow it down for the final descent. The encouraging thing I can say is, I had an absolute horrible time quiting at 140mgs, and using subs short term. It was one of the worst events of my life, yet I can positively say it was worth the very worst of it. No matter what it is like, it will not compare to the new joy and life you are gaining. You get the rest of your life back, that is pricelss.
Haha WOW I am so happy to wake up )even at 3 am after going to bed at 12 lol), to these amazing cuddly responses. If an you of you see this, I want to give a huge THANK you for lifting me up and making me feel so tenderly cared for today.
So CRC, Weaver, Dane, Kristen, kelly, jugglin, Vicourageous, Dyran, and Oodat (hope I didn't leave anyone out), you guys nearly made me cry with all of these thoughtful and caring responses.
Today, I am thriving! All of you amazing, supportive, witty, intelligent, and courageous, people on here just blow me away with your generosity. I am humbled by this whole experience, but I cannot wait to be exalted again after full detox.
I don't know how I could get through things without this site, really so much thanks.
So CRC, Weaver, Dane, Kristen, kelly, jugglin, Vicourageous, Dyran, and Oodat (hope I didn't leave anyone out), you guys nearly made me cry with all of these thoughtful and caring responses.
Today, I am thriving! All of you amazing, supportive, witty, intelligent, and courageous, people on here just blow me away with your generosity. I am humbled by this whole experience, but I cannot wait to be exalted again after full detox.
I don't know how I could get through things without this site, really so much thanks.
As someone who is also tapering off this poison; you and kleighn and weaver and all the others who have or who are battling this demon, is such a HUGE inspiration to me!!! It's scary stuff!!! and so so hard!!!
I caught strep throat a couple weeks ago and it was awful! I decided not to taper for the first time that week because I was so sick. Felt guilty at first but now I realize it's what I needed to do! Maybe slowing down even more OR even stopping where you're at until you're finished w school and/or your muscle heals, is a possibility? It's only 4 wks away right? What's another month in the scheme of things? It will be one less thing to have to worry and stress about if you're able to finish school before your taper!
Just a suggestion...
Hang in there... You're definitely not alone in this!
I caught strep throat a couple weeks ago and it was awful! I decided not to taper for the first time that week because I was so sick. Felt guilty at first but now I realize it's what I needed to do! Maybe slowing down even more OR even stopping where you're at until you're finished w school and/or your muscle heals, is a possibility? It's only 4 wks away right? What's another month in the scheme of things? It will be one less thing to have to worry and stress about if you're able to finish school before your taper!
Just a suggestion...
Hang in there... You're definitely not alone in this!
Hey our positive outlook is an inspiration and you continue to push thru in spite of all the stress around you. You are a proven fighter and will beat this. Take your time and remember that slow and steady is a good thing right now. Sending you prayers of strength, courage, and healing!
Ban I haven't talked with you in a while. You're down to 6mg! That's great news in itself and I'm sure you were going stir crazy those days without getting in your workout. You are a smart woman and whichever you decide to keep tapering or to jump, you WILL make it through to see the other side.
I'm sure school is super stressful right now but remember you need to take care of you. Are you working as well as school? Maybe you can take some time off work.. I made it to work every day whether I was of any use, definitely not. I was in the backroom hunched over, pale, nauseous and freezing. Go get some Epsom salts, seriously baths saved me when I was a couple weeks in. I'm thinking of you. Take care. -Kristen
I'm sure school is super stressful right now but remember you need to take care of you. Are you working as well as school? Maybe you can take some time off work.. I made it to work every day whether I was of any use, definitely not. I was in the backroom hunched over, pale, nauseous and freezing. Go get some Epsom salts, seriously baths saved me when I was a couple weeks in. I'm thinking of you. Take care. -Kristen
Hi Ban..You are doing ALL the right things..Tapering slow and easy and giving your body time to adjust to each drop is the way to go..I am one of them that got down to 30 and jumped..BUT I do think it was the other meds that I had to detox out is what took the longest. YOU will be just fine. Maybe a bit uncomfortable for a while but it will not be so Long.
Proud of YOU..Keep doing all you can..Exercise and Diet plays a Big Role in bouncing back. SORRY to hear about your issues here..Keep on pushing you will see the light real soon. Try not to worry about the w/ds. Like I said, you will bounce back quick and a bit easier doing your taper.
Bless
Vickie
Proud of YOU..Keep doing all you can..Exercise and Diet plays a Big Role in bouncing back. SORRY to hear about your issues here..Keep on pushing you will see the light real soon. Try not to worry about the w/ds. Like I said, you will bounce back quick and a bit easier doing your taper.
Bless
Vickie
Hey Girl, you are doing great, i tapered as well and for me its worth it. There is no way around the wd's but it makes it more bearable, in my opinion that is. Sorry you cant lift the way you want, but you know this, muscle has memory so just life light and do more reps. These words suck but just take each day, day by day try not to get ahead of yourself. Before you go to bed at night take a nice warm bath with empsons salt and get in bed and just try to close your eyes and sleep if not read, it helped me ton, just a suggestion. I am just shy of being 1 year clean and i can tell you its SO WORTH IT! I am now living life, living it authentically, feeling emotions good and bad but like they say when there is darkness, there is light.......I promise girlie, you will see and feel that light, its worth it and more importantly your worth it. Abundant Blessings
your doing great hang in there..... schoo,l injury and a sinus infection and your doing you day to day business you are my hero keep on plugging your doing awesome!!!!
Wow, you have an amazing postitive attitude....I'm sorry I can't help out with the taper plan, but the way you have been handling life on life's terms, it looks like you are going to be the victor not the victim! Easy does it...
Hi Darlin. Hugs, kisses & cuddles for you. You've been doing great. Slow & steady is what they say. I make goals too but sometimes revise them. Staying at your current level for a little longer might be right for you now. I'm thinking of the additional stress. Your injury & infection. School. Pamela
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