DAY 5, MY JOURNEY BACK TO MYSELF CONTINUES

[andie15]

Hello everyone, well it's day 5 and I'm doing ok today.  I did not get too much sleep last night so I am pretty tired, but I am motivated enough to get up and do what I need to do. I still have chills that don't seem to stop but if that's really the worst physical symptom I have to deal with, I can do it.  I just wanted to say that I look forward to reading all of the posts here, not just mine and all of you are a great support to me.  I love that I have somewhere to go to talk about my daily victories as well as my problems.  Thank you all for  your support, it means so much.

[andie15]

It's always better to be honest, that's for sure.  I just basically let my husband know that the past 4 months have not been clean ones like he thought but I am doing really well and feeling so much better and different from the first time I tried this, I had none of the determination that I have this time, it really is so different.  And just so you know, WE ARE BOTH DOING GREAT, ACTUALLY ALL OF US HERE!

[needhelplv]

yes, I am feeling a bit better and keep thinking positive. Just chatting with people who are going thru the same thing helps me. I feel happy not letting the pills run my life. Now I feel like IM running my life. I came clean to my husband from the secret life I have been living and hes been soooo suportive. I feel much better being truthful. I figured that will help me never go back.... cause now HE knows. Congrats to you!! YOU ARE DOING GREAT!!!!!!

[worried878]

day 5!  keep on rolling forward...meetings are great as well because u can talk about this stuff with people who have been there and understand..keep posting

[andie15]

That's great, even though you have some tough times, don't you feel better overall?  You really should.  I also had a difficult night though.  I have been up since 1:30 this morning off and on and then from 4:30 this morning until now.  I was having terrible chills and just thinking about everything going on but then I started to give myself a pep talk and that seemed to calm me down.  No matter how bad I think I'm about to feel, and it really sneaks up on me sometimes, I just stop and breath and know it will pass. And I think to myself, I could be panicking now about running out of pills or having to go to another doctor, but now this suffering is for such a good cause and that makes it much better for me, I think that should be the main focus for all of us.

Good Luck to you, let me know how you are doing!

[needhelplv]

Congrats! Im on day 5 myself and feeling pretty good too. however, last night i thought I would die. Im hoping tonight is better. How have your nights been??

[Scaredandalone1981]

You'd better post everyday to let us know how it's going! I'll be checking daily for your progress! You are doing so good. Just keep moving!!!

[andie15]

Thank you all again.  I honestly am now looking forward to coming here every morning to post what day I am on.  I realize many people here are on the same day and are not telling everyone about it, but it just helps me so i hope no one minds if I toot my own horn a bit  I have not had much of a chance to do that in a very long time.  Besides having two wonderful children, this is the most important and life changing thing that I have done in the past 9 years and I'm damn proud of how far I have gotten.  Everyone on here should be damn proud of the fact that they are here for help, no matter what stage of  w/d or recovery they are in, ALL OF US.

[dominosarah]

Congrats on 5 days!!!!  That is great!!!!  Keep posting on here too.  You are doing awesome!!!!  Keep moving forward           You can and are doing this!!!  stay strong    sara

[Scaredandalone1981]

Day 5! That is AWESOME. You are so so so close to the 7 day milestone! I know I am new here and only started talking to you today but I am so proud of you. You give someone like me the hope and strength I need to start this journey and make it through and be CLEAN!!! I am so happy for you. Keep up the good work!

[fengirl09]

CONGRATULATIONS ON DAY 5!!!!!  Way to go. You should be soooo proud. This comm. is so great for the support people need to to get straight, but my fav. part is celebrating our successes together.  Stay strong and rock on.

fengirl09

[andie15]

Thank you, I look so forward to hearing words of encouragement and they help so much.  I really can't believe I have made it this long, which really is not that long at all, but long for me and I still feel really great about my decision.  I hope that my positive words during a terrible time for many of us will help someone, I know just typing them out reassures me that I am doing the right thing.  WE CAN ALL DO THIS, JUST STAY STRONG!

[scaredmom330]

CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!!!!!WHOO HOOO!!!!!!!!!you made it to day 5...I am so proud of you, but I knew you could do it...continue on my friend, count those days off..and stay with us...keep posting....way to go!!!!


Karen