DAY 7 AND I JUST DON'T KNOW

[chaddavis333]

Today is the 7th full day without the vicodin posion. I went to my doc and told him everything. We figured out that I did more like 8 a day average for 2 months. He increased my busporine, non addictive anti-anxiety med, and my lexapro from 10 to 20. He also said it could up to 2 weeks before I start to feel good again. So now, everyday is going suck for a while. Pleae pray for me. I will never be here again. I always had anxiety issues, but my 10 mg lexapro always kept it in check. I know I have said this, but I am so scarred that I did permant damage to my brain, and the anxiety will stay. Sorry for saying this, but it consumes me. Also, I am still dry heaving every monring and doc thinks this is still wd from the vicodin.

[10356]

Hi Chad.. although we have never spoken I would like to add my support.. Good for you for getting off the vics.. I have read your post in the past so I realize how much you struggle with the anxiety.. Our brains are very powerful, it is not heard of for us to worry ourselves sick. Congrats on your 7th day !! try eating small amounts thru out the day ok also if you can get out for a walk our do some busy work, chores that have been put off and what not, taking our minds off what we are going thru is a big help and also a relief from worry.. we are all different so I can not say if you have damaged your brain to the point of perpetual anxiety but from my experiences We come back a lil wiser usually but we come back. when I did my od I lost the ability to write simple math and such and here I'm writing and back to balancing my check book.. so try not to worry ok just be Grateful today you are clean today you are alive.. I wish you the very best. lesa

[Pat1956100]

Hey Chad,
You are doing great and so glad you talked to your doctor and got your medications worked out.  It's just your anxiety making you worry so much.  I was taking alot more than you and I don't have any brain damage. You will feel better as each day passes.  Try and feel good about how strong you were to be able to do it.  Keep it up bud.