The last time you quit the DHC, what made you start again? The depression?
Since you couldn't quit cold turkey, what do you think about a taper?
Its been awhile and I am still fighting the battles of addiction. The worst part is that I have a career that is pretty demanding but I also work from home. I think the fact that I work alone at home has been a big reason why I slipped into addiction because I am not forced to get up and be out in society all day. I am a person that has always needed a routine and I no longer have that, and as much as I tell myself to enforce one it never happens.
I get all my DHC online from the UK, and there are many times in which I run out and take tramadol to mask the withdrawal. I used to get a great high off tramadol (at the time better than any other opiate high) but now it simply keeps physical withdrawal at bay. However, I go through a pretty big depression and will lay in bed for days until my refill comes in the mail.
I have always had a history of depression, and I know thats why I have such a love for opiates, but sometimes I dont know if when I run out of DHC and am taking tramadol if I am just making myself depressed or the drugs are doing it. Even when I have a full supply I am still depressed just because I know the situation I am in, I just mask it better with the medication. I hate to say it but I dont have the mental strength I used to and would actually love to go to a rehab for 3 months but the cost of it is outrageous and I have a great paying job.
I guess like every other addict I think something will come up and I will be forced to quit and I will deal with it then. When its easy to get it makes it hard to quit, especially when you could order tramadol and get it the next day. That was the gateway drug for me, I cant believe I never once had a seizure. There were at least 50 times I took more than 30 pills a day with a anti-depressant.
I also have a script for adderall that I dont abuse but just makes the whole dependency even worse.
Hope your still doing good.
I went into detox for DHC/heroin addiction on 25th april and have just come out of rehab.The detox was not as bad as I had anticipated and I was given very little in the way of comfort meds. 1 zopiclone for 3 nights, and a small dose of diazepam for a few days. The restless legs and lack of sleep were deffo the worst, im still not sleeping good now!! I was down to 5 x 60mg dhc time release a day. During those very long nights, I did loads of writing, reading, watching tv, listening to music (we had tv n i-pods in rehab lol) and when i just couldnt keep still I got up and danced round the room!! Do what you have to do to get through!!
Its odd aswell cos i still sneeze and yawn everyday too, but think thats different for everyone. Id rather that then be addicted to opiates again any day! I was so worried about the detox but now Im out im realising just how hard this is and how scared I am! Got NA and Smart recovery so lots to do!
Let us know how your going, and Sazza how u finding it? Im in UK too.
How are you feeling today? Don't anticipate the withdrawals. Just take it as it comes. Are you taking the adderal?
Please be careful with the loperamide 25 pills is definitely pushing it.
How much did you take of it today?
I have been through withdrawals off Tramadol and even Kratom so I know my body isnt immune to opiate withdrawal. However, this is the first time I ever tried the high doses of loperamide, that must be what is making such a big difference. I also had some clonidine as well that I took at night.
I have literally bought every kind of medication to help withdrawals and I think taking tagament and then 25-30 pills of loperamide is the best thing for the physical withdrawals. Clondine helps too but only during the evening for sleep, it really dries you out, I woke up with a super dry nose and mouth.
I guess I was expecting withdrawals like tramadol which suck because it gives you such bad anxiety. Even though DHC is stronger, I imagine the withdrawal is easier than a high tram habit. I have only made it to 2.5 days so I imagine its just taking a while for me to get the worst of it.
im on day 1 coming off a 10 yr dhc habit im in britain and they get handed out like sweets!perhaps you have been lucky and your body hasnt become too dependent on these pills.the immodium should help alot with stomach issues bt you should def be feeling your withdrawals by now.im expecting at least a week of hell but im using gabapentin(neurontin),hope these help!!!good luck with you ct.